This novel tells the story of Lotta, a high school girl with a seemingly perfect boyfriend, Sean, who plans to marry her. However, just hours after their anniversary celebration, Sean is involved in an accident and passes away. Overwhelmed by guilt, Lotta decides to move on by traveling to an island where she and Sean first met. There, she encounters new people (person) and experiences that help her move on. But, there is a hidden secret from this person that responsible for Lotta’s guilt. Can Lotta accept it?
Reading this novel feels like reading the work of a first-timer who has just begun writing. It exhibits many hallmarks of a beginner's writing. The most glaring issue is the excessive explanations unrelated to the plot, which often stand alone without connecting to each other.
The story itself resembles a fanfiction about the main character (a girl, of course) who has an unrealistically perfect boyfriend—without any specific reason or build-up. They just happen to be in love (somehow). Then, another character shows up, who turns out to be essentially the same as her boyfriend but with a different name. This character also in love with the main character, accompanied by a series of coincidences that doesn’t make any sense.
The novel has many shortcomings: a monotonous plot, zero character development, zero relationship development, too many nonsensical plot conveniences, and—above all—it’s neither engaging nor fun. Honestly, I didn’t enjoy it. I have soooo many complaints, but I won’t waste my time writing those. After all, this is the author's debut novel, and they’ve gone on to publish other books, so I can let it slide and treat this as nothing more than the author's personal fanfiction.
However, there’s one important point I want to mention because I think it’s crucial for any novel: continuity errors. There are plenty of these throughout the novel, but I’ll highlight just a few examples:
Sean has supposedly graduated from medical school and is preparing for his koas, but on page 25, there’s a conversation between Lotta and Sean where he says he doesn’t have class that day because the lecturer is absent. What?
On page 103, when Lotta is in a bookstore, she mutters to herself, “Ah, kata Alin buku yang ini juga bagus,” WHO is Alin? There’s zero mention of her in the entire story. Why did this sentence exist?
Page 126 has the worst mistake: the point of view suddenly shifts from first person ("I") to third person ("Lotta") in the middle of a scene! I can understand the previous errors because they require actually reading and following the story to catch, and I understand some editors won’t bother to do that. But this? This is such an obvious mistake that I wonder how it slipped through the editing process.
Lastly, there’s a sentence on page 82 so out of place I can’t believe the author writes it: “… Sedetik kemudian, aku sudah mulai kembali autis dan sibuk dengan dunia kecil dalam kepalaku.” Whaaaaaat!!!!!!!??????