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Crazy
Drew's not crazy. The dreams he has at night of his doctor restraining and dominating him can't be true. Just because he's a patient in a mental health facility doesn't mean he's crazy. Right?
This 8200 word short contains explicit content, including: m/m, dubious consent, oral and anal sex. All characters are aged over 18 years.
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erotica, gay, bdsm, dubious consent, virgin anal, humiliation and submission
Words: 8,370 (approximate)
This 8200 word short contains explicit content, including: m/m, dubious consent, oral and anal sex. All characters are aged over 18 years.
Tags:
erotica, gay, bdsm, dubious consent, virgin anal, humiliation and submission
Words: 8,370 (approximate)
25 pages, ebook
First published November 14, 2013
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April 15, 2017
Braingasmic 5 Stars!
Braingasm feels so divine. It's SO gud, I shivers with delight.
The story leads you into a dreamscape of an unstable mind, you will never really know which is real and which is just a figment of a confounded mind.
The author has the ability to draw her readers into her character's surrounding and make them feel what they felt. Her words are focused and never excessive, just the right amount to nudge us along.
I could really feel the sense of angst and powerlessness displayed by Drew the protagonist, it gave me such thrills and lovely goosebumps. Makes my heart squeeze with just the right amount of empathy not interfering with my deviant side wishing for more distressing situations for Drew.
If rape and suicide is a trigger for you, be forewarned then. The suicide attempt scene was almost poetic the way it was presented. On the other hand, the rape scene was quite intense and real. Made me wanted to gouge the perpetrator's eyes out, step on it, squish it to pulp.
In short, this book is DEFINITELY for me. Half the time while reading it, I was fretting over when that kinky straitjacket on that cover is going to ever come into play or will it not be at all? Gasp, I would have been devastated if the latter was the case. You see, I have an obsession with bondage, the stricter it is the better it was for me. I was saved from my impending depression when Ms. Waites delivers a highly stimulating straitjacket bondage sex scene combine with a sling harness to boot! Oh, how I love her.
So okay with the kinky stuff, the next point which appeals to me was the Asylum/Mental hospital setting which incidentally was another fascination of mine too.
Hence, how could I not love this book? It has such an appealing and potent combination with just the right formulation for me:
[Asylum] + [Straitjacket] + [Drugging] + [Noncon/Dubcon] + [Sinister Doctor] = Lovely amount of Angst and Powerlessness
- End Result: a one way ticket to Cloud9 forever
Actually, what further cemented a 5 stars rating was the ending. It was non-stereotypical as it dares to be different yet staying true to the story and its theme.
Ms. Waites has once again delivered another memorable piece of dark erotica. Her previous work, Gamble Everything was also a fine example of quality dark erotica. To me, Ms. Waites has successfully captured the essence of dark erotica; It's arousing yet so wrong on many levels.
It is rare to find good dark erotica that stays true to its theme. Most would just plaster on a HEA/HFN no matter how unnatural it was for the story and worst off, some turned downright fluffy at the end! There are also those with the misconception that being dark and erotic means torture porn all the way. I find it hard to be aroused when the other party isn't the least bit enjoying it that's why I find forced seduction that nudges noncon to dubcon to be the best balance.
If you love dark, all-shades-of-wrong kind of noncon cum borderline dubcon stories, this is for you.
They said I was crazy. I said they were crazy. They outvoted me.
Drew thinks he isn't crazy just outvoted by those around him even his own parents. I'll let you be the judge of it.
BOOK DETAILS:
Title: Crazy
Author: Cari Waites
Publication Date: November 15th, 2013
Type: Short story, 8,370 words (approximate)
Genre:M/M, Gay, Erotica, Contemporary, BDSM, Dominance-Submission, Noncon/Dubcon
Tags/Keywords: gay, erotica, rough sex, bondage, bdsm, noncon, dubcon, dominance-submission, hand-job, blow-job, maledom, humiliation and degradation, virgin, rape, suicide attempt, straitjacket, sling harness, cuff-restraints, drugging, taboo, asylum, mental hospital, mental-illness, psychological disorder, young man, anal sex, oral sex, handjob, mindfuck, humiliation-degradation, realistic, reluctant-forced, restricted-freedom, erotic, darkfics, forced-seduction, captivity-confinement, angst
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Drew's not crazy. The dreams he has at night of his doctor restraining and dominating him can't be true. Just because he's a patient in a mental health facility doesn't mean he's crazy. Right?
This 8200 word short contains explicit content, including: m/m, dubious consent, oral and anal sex. All characters are aged over 18 years.
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NOTE: This is an ARC extended to me by the author.
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* Reviewed on November 19th, 2013
March 4, 2014
dub-con deliciousness. as always.
as far as creepy and disturbing erotica goes, nobody does a smutty amuse bouche better than cari waites.
too short by half; my boner was most put-out.
as far as creepy and disturbing erotica goes, nobody does a smutty amuse bouche better than cari waites.
too short by half; my boner was most put-out.
September 28, 2021
"Cari Waites is the evil alter ego of Lisa Henry."
This story is no longer sold separately.
It can be read under a different title Stealing Innocents, a compilation of all works published in the past under Cari Waites pen name. Available on KU at the moment.
25 pages.
25 very convincing pages of a scary life.
📢 This is no romance.
📢 This is no BDSM either. 📢
Hot as hell still. 😈🔥😈🔥
I don't know if that was real.
And the character doesn't either.
Freaking hell!!! 😱 25 pages!!!
This story is no longer sold separately.
It can be read under a different title Stealing Innocents, a compilation of all works published in the past under Cari Waites pen name. Available on KU at the moment.
25 pages.
25 very convincing pages of a scary life.
📢 This is no romance.
📢 This is no BDSM either. 📢
Hot as hell still. 😈🔥😈🔥
I don't know if that was real.
And the character doesn't either.
Freaking hell!!! 😱 25 pages!!!
December 31, 2013
review to come when I am coherent. However, Cari Waites was my standout find for 2013, no question. Gamble Everything is astounding. And brave. That scene with the dining table is . . . well, hot. Wrong, and hot.
March 14, 2014
Blood ran cold? Check!
Sick to my stomach? Check!
Ungh, this 20 something pages short story was pretty horrific. If you like your wrongness to be so wrong that it becomes right again, here’s Crazy for you! It’s creepy, twisted and toys with your mind just enough to satisfy. I’d say that’s pretty impressive when you consider its length.
Little makes me as nauseous as reading about someone completely innocent and helpless, who gets tangled up in a web of disgusting perversion (quite the thrilling combo, oh yes!) and has absolutely no control or whatsoever over the events that occur. You see that cover? Our MC here, Drew, is literally and figuratively strapped into a straitjacket. In other words, he’s screwed. Worse, he’s just a young guy, struggling with depression after the death of his beloved brother. So when his parents decide it’ll be a good idea for him to get help, he’s admitted to a private mental health facility. Here, he receives both a shitload of medication and professional attention from the sympathetic psychologist, Dr. Harrow. But as understanding and concerned Dr. Harrow is during the daily hours, at night he becomes a rapist monster in Drew’s drugs and mental illness (?) induced nightmares. Or are they his twisted fantasies instead? And what if Drew’s not so crazy after all?
They said I was crazy. I said they were crazy. They outvoted me.
Since I seem to read little else than sanity challenging books these days, I get to do a little comparing. Whereas Father Figure knocks you straight out and leaves you brooding for days, Crazy is more a candy bar, offering a quick rush of instant satisfaction, but not quite enough to smack and whack your brain. And where When The Music Stops leaves you in the dark for a long time as well (what’s real, what’s wishful thinking, is this ethically twisted behavior or is everyone else wrong?), that book does so in a beautifully subtle manner. Crazy is shockingly harsh in comparison. The writing itself is not really spectacular, but it’s to the point and gets the job done. Personally, I’d have preferred a little more subtlety. Especially at the ending the author gave away too much for my liking. At the same time, Crazy is successful at what it aims at; which is to immerse you in a lovely cocktail of horror and morbid, but..uhm..also creepily hot non con.
A word about those tags though: I wouldn’t call this dub con, as the content warning suggests. This is definitely non con that only skirts the dub con line because forced medication is added to the game. As for the BDSM tag you’ll find when wanting to buy Crazy; that one is just ridiculous. Just because you (dream?) rape someone in a straitjacket, doesn’t mean you get to slap a BDSM sticker onto it.
Buddy read with Rachel, whose experience turned out to be somewhat different ..woooo go check.
Sick to my stomach? Check!
Ungh, this 20 something pages short story was pretty horrific. If you like your wrongness to be so wrong that it becomes right again, here’s Crazy for you! It’s creepy, twisted and toys with your mind just enough to satisfy. I’d say that’s pretty impressive when you consider its length.
Little makes me as nauseous as reading about someone completely innocent and helpless, who gets tangled up in a web of disgusting perversion (quite the thrilling combo, oh yes!) and has absolutely no control or whatsoever over the events that occur. You see that cover? Our MC here, Drew, is literally and figuratively strapped into a straitjacket. In other words, he’s screwed. Worse, he’s just a young guy, struggling with depression after the death of his beloved brother. So when his parents decide it’ll be a good idea for him to get help, he’s admitted to a private mental health facility. Here, he receives both a shitload of medication and professional attention from the sympathetic psychologist, Dr. Harrow. But as understanding and concerned Dr. Harrow is during the daily hours, at night he becomes a rapist monster in Drew’s drugs and mental illness (?) induced nightmares. Or are they his twisted fantasies instead? And what if Drew’s not so crazy after all?
They said I was crazy. I said they were crazy. They outvoted me.
Since I seem to read little else than sanity challenging books these days, I get to do a little comparing. Whereas Father Figure knocks you straight out and leaves you brooding for days, Crazy is more a candy bar, offering a quick rush of instant satisfaction, but not quite enough to smack and whack your brain. And where When The Music Stops leaves you in the dark for a long time as well (what’s real, what’s wishful thinking, is this ethically twisted behavior or is everyone else wrong?), that book does so in a beautifully subtle manner. Crazy is shockingly harsh in comparison. The writing itself is not really spectacular, but it’s to the point and gets the job done. Personally, I’d have preferred a little more subtlety. Especially at the ending the author gave away too much for my liking. At the same time, Crazy is successful at what it aims at; which is to immerse you in a lovely cocktail of horror and morbid, but..uhm..also creepily hot non con.
A word about those tags though: I wouldn’t call this dub con, as the content warning suggests. This is definitely non con that only skirts the dub con line because forced medication is added to the game. As for the BDSM tag you’ll find when wanting to buy Crazy; that one is just ridiculous. Just because you (dream?) rape someone in a straitjacket, doesn’t mean you get to slap a BDSM sticker onto it.
Buddy read with Rachel, whose experience turned out to be somewhat different ..woooo go check.
September 27, 2014
Of course it is not One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest.
But it could be.
In some other way.
Honestly.
I have mentioned once that the best books I've discovered by chance.
Though it is not the best book I've read, Cari Waites is for sure one of the most promising and interesting authors I discovered ALMOST by chance.
And I want more!
P.S. I'd like to thank Julio for drawing my attention to this author. She is an absolute inside tip!!!
August 23, 2016
This was well-written and would have been a lovely, creepy horror story I'd have rated 3-4*.
Unfortunately this is tagged and marketed as BDSM. Not just that it isn't even within miles of being related to anything BDSM, I'm beginning to get immensely angry at authors who continue and insist on linking BDSM to mental illnesses. That's a disservice done to actual real-life BDSMers, and I do take this very personally.
It's a pity, because I liked the story per itself.
Unfortunately this is tagged and marketed as BDSM. Not just that it isn't even within miles of being related to anything BDSM, I'm beginning to get immensely angry at authors who continue and insist on linking BDSM to mental illnesses. That's a disservice done to actual real-life BDSMers, and I do take this very personally.
It's a pity, because I liked the story per itself.
August 11, 2016
*** 4 "MADE ME FEEL CRAZY" STARS***
This is one difficult, delusional and disturbing book to summarize. Thankfully, the synopsis tells the reader everything they need to know.
Yup, Drew is ....
.... Or maybe he's not.
*Kudos to Cari Waites, this little gems packs quite the punch.*
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This is one difficult, delusional and disturbing book to summarize. Thankfully, the synopsis tells the reader everything they need to know.
“He’s not crazy.
He’s probably not crazy.
He just got outvoted.”
Yup, Drew is ....
.... Or maybe he's not.
*Kudos to Cari Waites, this little gems packs quite the punch.*
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November 3, 2016
Impressive!
I took the story to be true. Drew wasn't mad and he was in fact being held against his will and raped by his doctor. Numbed and confused by all the pills he was being given and still fighting the depression set in after his brother's death, surrounded by all sorts of abnormal behaviour and his grasp of reality was tenuous at best. And when everyone else acted normal and told him he was crazy, poor Drew didn't know what to think. "They said I was crazy. I said they were crazy. They outvoted me." This phrase really captures the main idea of the story.
And as Drew had trouble drawing the line between dream and reality, I also had trouble deciding which 'reality' was more disturbing and upsetting to Drew. The one where he was apathetic and willing to commit suicide or the one where he was coerced into sexual acts with another man, in which he eventually finds (or is taught to find) pleasure. Everything is so nicely wrapped in ambiguity that both situations can't be portrayed as either black or white.
I was left feeling sad that no one believed Drew and he was left at the mercy of Dr. Harrow, even if Drew himself was resigned to it. It's probably because of this ending that the story had a stronger impact on me.
I took the story to be true. Drew wasn't mad and he was in fact being held against his will and raped by his doctor. Numbed and confused by all the pills he was being given and still fighting the depression set in after his brother's death, surrounded by all sorts of abnormal behaviour and his grasp of reality was tenuous at best. And when everyone else acted normal and told him he was crazy, poor Drew didn't know what to think. "They said I was crazy. I said they were crazy. They outvoted me." This phrase really captures the main idea of the story.
And as Drew had trouble drawing the line between dream and reality, I also had trouble deciding which 'reality' was more disturbing and upsetting to Drew. The one where he was apathetic and willing to commit suicide or the one where he was coerced into sexual acts with another man, in which he eventually finds (or is taught to find) pleasure. Everything is so nicely wrapped in ambiguity that both situations can't be portrayed as either black or white.
I was left feeling sad that no one believed Drew and he was left at the mercy of Dr. Harrow, even if Drew himself was resigned to it. It's probably because of this ending that the story had a stronger impact on me.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
July 5, 2014
Crazy 4 Stars!!!
Suffering from depression after his brother getting killed, Drew is sent to a hospital to get well.
But Drew keeps getting strange nightmares...Is he crazy or could it be his nightmares are reality...
Suffering from depression after his brother getting killed, Drew is sent to a hospital to get well.
But Drew keeps getting strange nightmares...Is he crazy or could it be his nightmares are reality...
March 6, 2014
Well, all I'll say on this one is I 'outvoted' myself (read the story, you'll understand) and gave in to the temptation to read yet another kinky Cari Waites shortie. Did I want to beat the crap out of Dr Harrow...you betcha, but did I have a smirk on my face at the end...oh yes, which I guess makes me a little 'strange' too hehe. 4 stars.
March 3, 2014
Wow, so wrong and creepy and I so liked it, despite its shortness.
Read in March 2014
Read in March 2014
December 11, 2015
This was really well written. My only complaint is the same for all well written short stories- why is this not a full length book? I'm left feeling slightly teased. But, great concept, love how readers are wondering if it's real or not. It definately felt more on the side of real for me. Gotta say really liked the doctor regardless.
July 23, 2014
Mind = fucked. What else can I say, besides I feel dirty and I have a total lady-boner?
March 26, 2015
Man I enjoy the weirdest shit.
January 18, 2014
Wow. Just wow. I don't know what else to say but that I love Cari Waites' writing in all of its twisted, pervy brilliance. This story was a perfect slice of dub/non con goodness. It pushes all of my dirty buttons in such a good way.
January 30, 2014
Utterly twisted. Totally pervy. This is incredibly dirty and I feel a bit guilty for enjoying it! I hope there's more to this story.
November 19, 2016
Oh the author totally pulls this one off. Very interesting, and something to leave you thinking.
July 15, 2014
Holy psychological mindfuckery, Batman! Imagine being so extremely depressed that you are put in an institution. Then, you're put on meds which only basically numb things but don't change anything else. Then imagine, you're dreaming of bad things happening to you during the nights, by your counsellor. Then, imagine, it could be real, or maybe not because maybe you really are crazy.
This poor guy didn't know what was what, and when he did figure it out, realized it didn't matter because nobody would believe him anyay. Because, once again, he was OUTVOTED.
I really enjoyed this even though it was very sad and twisted and my heart just broke for the hopelessness of the situation and what was happening.
Brilliantly written. wish it was longer.
March 9, 2014
Creepy.
This qualifies as horror... in a place most of us would have an innate fear of landing. Once you're there, you really have no control.
I wanted to slap the asshole doctor.
It made me think: we give all of these drugs to people, thinking they'll work, but everyone reacts differently... and it makes me wonder.
There isn't enough here, it's literally a snapshot. What will happen??
This was def about physical restraint, dub-con, doubt, desperation and partial resignation to one's sitch.
Well written, frank, unapologetic and cold... except for Drew.
Love when I read a type of story by an author that I haven't before.
This qualifies as horror... in a place most of us would have an innate fear of landing. Once you're there, you really have no control.
I wanted to slap the asshole doctor.
It made me think: we give all of these drugs to people, thinking they'll work, but everyone reacts differently... and it makes me wonder.
There isn't enough here, it's literally a snapshot. What will happen??
This was def about physical restraint, dub-con, doubt, desperation and partial resignation to one's sitch.
Well written, frank, unapologetic and cold... except for Drew.
Love when I read a type of story by an author that I haven't before.
January 1, 2021
Wow! I think I'm a little crazy after reading that short story! Very well written. Wish it was full length. Dark.Not for everyone.
January 16, 2015
Very dark, non-con tale. Well written!
February 26, 2014
Lovely taste of absolute mindfuckery. The author does a wonderful job of putting the reader inside Drew's mind, feeling his helplessness, questioning what's real, and knowing that even if it is, no one would believe you because it'd only make you seem crazier.
August 3, 2016
This short story got a creep factor of 11 out of 10. Hopefully there is a sequel in which Dr. Harrow gets a taste of his own medicine.
March 26, 2016
3.5 Stars!
This is the second part in Stealing Innocents.
Full Review will be posted.
This is the second part in Stealing Innocents.
Full Review will be posted.
March 25, 2015
That *was* crazy. And twisted. And disturbing. And sooooo good!
April 8, 2014
Scary. I've read some pretty dark stuff, but this for some reason really freaked me out.
November 12, 2015
Amazing writing style. Enjoyed the story. Currently finding all works by this author!
Is he crazy?
Was any of it real?
Will he ever find out?
He was outvoted....
Is he crazy?
Was any of it real?
Will he ever find out?
He was outvoted....
December 7, 2017
Review in a newest compilation edition.
This book is crazy AF.
This book is crazy AF.
April 9, 2018
I love how ambiguous this is! It really leaves the reader shaken, to masterful effect. My emotions were fraught through out, and it felt like a supremely intense study on psychological warfare.
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