This is not going to be a review. This is going to be a confused ode, a drug-induced paean, an out of tune song and a nonsense fairy tale about this incredible book; because that’s the only way I know how to talk about it.
I read a lot. I rarely truly dislike a book, even if I don’t think much about it, there are very few one-star ratings in my reading history. Most books sit comfortably on 3 or 4 stars because that’s how I feel about most books I read. Enjoyable but forgettable get 3, ones that stick in my memory for a long time score 4, ones that I truly love for whatever reason earn 5 stars (and I’m not even attempting impartiality, my feelings dictate the ratings, not literary knowledge or text analysis). But rarely, once in a blue moon, comes along my way a story which cannot be bridled by any ratings. Yes, I give it five stars because that’s the limit, I’d give it a hundred if I could and it still wouldn’t be enough.
I just finished reading “The House, in Which…” (no English translation as yet, so that’s what I’m calling it) and I feel both elated and devastated, and like I never want to read another book again. Because no other book will ever be this - this stunning, dreamy, terrifying, nightmarish, beautiful, more real than reality, more fantastic than any fantasy, playing on my heartstrings like a virtuoso guitarist, seeping into my mind, my blood, deep under the skin to never quite leave, half-remembered dream of a tale.
It’s a book I recognized immediately, from the very first pages, to the very end, which even with rationing the pages like a miser during a famine, so that I can stay in the House a bit longer, came much too soon. What are measly not-even 700 pages? I wish it were thousands, millions, so that I never have to cease reading it, never leave! And I don’t mean recognized, as a copy, as a trope, as a repetition of a well-known motif. I mean recognized in the depths of my imagination, the core of my heart, as a dream I once nearly dreamt, as a story which I have never known about but which I so almost weaved from the beads, the feathers, the scraps of wool, and tiny rodent skulls, and all the magical things, songs, books, poems, rain, fog and wind and bits of chalk. And now it came to me, both told and unspoken, simultaneously complete and never ending, forever circling the House, the Forest, the Other Side. And all I could do is gasp in awe and jump right in the middle, never, not for a moment doubting it, like Blind, knowing the House immediately, like I must have been there before, recognizing myself in it, and whatever it took, not wanting to leave.
I know there are and will be people who read this book and don’t get it, don’t love it, find faults, and analyse it to death, speak of superficial similarities with this book or that one, Lord of the Flies, or whatever. And it’s not scorn, or superiority that dictates my words, because I know we all have our own tales, and everyone resonates to a different song, but all I can think is: you poor Pheasants (if you haven’t read the book, I’m not confusing the words and not meaning ‘peasants’), you have lived in the House, but somehow managed to miss it altogether, the House never touched you, or else it repulsed you, or perhaps scared you… And maybe that means that you’re healthy and normal, and well… But I wouldn't trade with you.
The fact that this is a debut novel leaves me speechless... To Mariam Petrosyan who wrote it, I have just one thing to say: Thank you! Thank you for this unforgettable gift, for your white heron’s feather. For bringing me into the House (although of course, I've never left it anyway). Thank you, you incredible, magnificent, poor bitch! How can you ever write anything else, if this book is your first? What could you possibly follow it with? What goes on in your head that allowed you to tell me (and by the looks of things to many, many others) that story which feels like it has always belonged to me, though I wasn't aware of its existence until you wrote it, and I read it??