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건우로부터 갑작스럽게 사랑 고백을 듣게 된 의준. 자신 또한 건우에게 마음이 있는 것을 깨닫게 되지만, 직업이나 가족 등 사생활을 도통 밝히지 않는 비밀스러운 사람과 사귀어도 될지 갈피가 잡히지 않아 깊은 고민에 빠지게 된다. 건우는 고백 후 평소와 같이 무뚝뚝한 말투이지만, 거침없이 애정표현을 하기 시작한다.

자신을 이용만 해도 좋다는 건우와 달리 애매한 관계를 이어갈 수 없던 의준은 건우를 알아가기 위해 데이트 신청을 한다. 설레는 마음으로 건우를 기다리던 중 위험해 보이는 남자 채현과 마주쳐 불미스러운 일을 겪지만, 이 만남을 비밀로 한 채 건우와의 데이트는 시작된다. 너무 다른 두 사람이었기에 처음엔 삐꺽거렸지만 여러 차례 만남을 통해 두 사람은 점점 가까워진다. 하지만 달달한 시간을 보내던 두 사람 앞에 다시 나타난 채현은 건우를 친밀하게 ‘형’이라고 부르는데….

episodes 44~58, extra side story 3~4

288 pages, Paperback

First published July 31, 2023

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207 reviews73 followers
May 3, 2024
Why their relationship becomes so toxic like that? I hated the mysterious vibes that Ahjussi gives. I know it's not easy for someone like him to talk freely about his life, but he avoids the talks by isolating Euijoon from it, and it's not fair.

They still cute though, I hope they just talk normally about their problems without Ahjussi's flat expression.
Profile Image for Imanewreader ✨.
991 reviews184 followers
January 6, 2024
please, give 10 more books about them. i can't/don't want to say goodbye..
Profile Image for smile.
41 reviews4 followers
October 29, 2024
The best volume of this series yet.. (I wait till the paperback comes out to read, btw.)

The amount of emotions I had reading this was insane. As I have been in a pretty bad book slump this last few months, it's been hard to show much emotion w/ anything. So, it's EXTREMELY refreshing to feel this many emotions just reading a single volume.

I hope I can read more!!!
Profile Image for Kate♡.
1,467 reviews2,147 followers
October 30, 2024
2.5/5stars

Honestly... I kinda actively didn't like this one. This just felt very off as a volume overall. I feel like the beginning spent SO MUCH TIME on Chaehyeon (who I quite honestly didn't like or care about much at all), and then it was kinda mediocre smut, and then the most random and sudden plot development EVER like WHERE did that come from? I had to pause and reread it several times to even make sense of what just happened.

Also, honestly, I'm starting to not like our couples relationship. At first, there was so much time to correct the Problems they had, but now we're 4 volumes in and the same things just keep coming up over and over and over with neither of the characters working to make things better or improve on themselves as a person/partner

Also why does EVERY BL nowadays have a "break up" (kinda) and then a time skip? I'm kinda tired of it lol

I think the next volume is the last one, so I'll pick it up when it comes out but damn, this volume kinda let me down.
Profile Image for malu.
218 reviews
January 22, 2024
a fucking year?! i’m going to kms 😀 there is so much sadness… i can’t handle it. idk what i’ll do if they don't end up together or if they stay apart for longer… #sendhelp

update: THREE YEARS? i’m throwing up right now. i can’t do this anymore.
Profile Image for Rebecca.
4,362 reviews69 followers
April 5, 2025
Color me impressed that this series finally decided to acknowledge Gunwoo's profession and how it impacts his relationship with Eui-Joon.
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654 reviews19 followers
December 1, 2024
Ahh my poor heart 😭😭🥹
Profile Image for ☽。⋆ Naidah ₊˚ෆ.
339 reviews2 followers
January 24, 2025
UMMM HELLO??!?! I AM NOT OK! IN FACT MY HEART IS BREAKING… The ending plus the bonus story 😭😭😭 I need the next volume ASAP!!

Both characters have come a long way, their development, and their couple dynamic is the best. This is one of the most wholesome BL manhua I have read so far where the main love interest character isn’t a toxic red flag and a dickhead.

Bro is saying some things to his lover that is just squeezing my heart so much that I’m crying!!

1. G: “it’s just… if you’re attracted to that guy.. I’ll keep waiting for you” 🥹 he’s prepared to have an unrequited love towards him

2. E: “I’m really nervous. what about you?”
G: “yeah..”
E: “I dont believe you. You’re always so calm.”
G: “I’ve never been calm around you” 🤧🤧

3. G: “maybe it’s because… you were the first choice I made for myself… once those ugly thoughts clouding my mind disappeared. The only thing left in there, was you” 🥹🤧*chef kisses*

4. G: “I felt nothing at the sight of my own blood… so why was it so hard to breathe when I saw yours?“

I need to know if everything goes well for these two. If it doesn’t… idk what I’ll do next. My heart won’t recover if it goes bad next. Plus Gunwoo needs to tell his story to Euijoon otherwise the miscommunications gonna happen and then it’ll be hard for both to recover 😭
Profile Image for Sandra.
766 reviews8 followers
February 17, 2025
Ich bin ehrlich, ich les das nur noch wegen den Sexszenen :/ weil alles andere ist echt so 0815 geworden (Was immer noch ok wäre), aber der Uke ist so dermaßen weltfremd.

"Oh er lügt mich ja nicht an, also kann er ja kein schlechter Mensch sein." Junge, du hast gelernt, das der Typ "gefährliche" Arbeit macht und ich mein, er sieht aus wie n Mafiosi. Diese Einstellung is so nervig, und surprise, natürlich killt Mister Er ist kein schlechter Mensch Leute, duh. Und dann ist Uke überrascht und die WElt geht unter *augenroll*.

Die Sexytime is halt nice, wenn man auf große korea-SChwengel steht, ansonsten ist das auch nix super besonderes.

Ich weiß nicht, ob ich die Serie wirklich fortsetze, vorallem nachdem ich Rosen & Champagner zu ner ähnlichen Yakuza-Story gelesen hab und die Reihe ist so viel besser, weil der Uke einfach weiß, wie der Hase läuft, wenn man mit Gangstern zu tun hat.
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672 reviews
May 18, 2025
One big, emotional, sweaty, jaw-clenching mess — and I loved every chaotic page of it.

I was NOT prepared for the ending. Like?? I just wanted a little spice, a little angst, a little raunchy romance… not to have my heart punched out of my chest! I’m clinging to hope that they’ll find their way back to each other, but damn if it isn’t tearing me up.

Also — and I say this with full sincerity — could everyone in this story STOP being so ridiculously, unfairly, jaw-droppingly pretty? It’s cruel. It’s bullying. I feel attacked.

And don’t even get me started on the railing. That scene? That scene? I’ll never recover. I’ll never be the same.

Volume 5 better give me answers. And more emotional destruction. And more getting absolutely wrecked.
Profile Image for Michelle Easton.
606 reviews35 followers
October 29, 2024
These two clearly love each other. I understand why keeping the mafia aspect a secret is important, but damn is it getting in the way of letting the boys be happy. And now they’re separated! They better find each other again soon.
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478 reviews28 followers
January 12, 2025
I’m loving this series more and more. I’m really enjoying how even though Gunwoo is very quiet and reserved, I liked how he is trying to open up to Eui-joon.

Didn’t like how this ended though, I need my babies to get their happily ever after 😩
Profile Image for Reading_ Tamishly.
5,313 reviews3,488 followers
February 4, 2024
Seriously how long am I to suffer?! Can’t they just be alive and be together 😭
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229 reviews3 followers
November 27, 2024
Oh yeah I am so fine with having to wait for the other part, it's not at all like I want to read that right now pretty please.
Profile Image for Kay Russ.
61 reviews2 followers
December 3, 2024
The way this one ends is not okay, how are they gonna do this to us 😭
Profile Image for Jessica.
22 reviews3 followers
December 28, 2024
tears in my ahjussi eyes..............................................
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3,394 reviews49 followers
June 20, 2025
This was so freakin’ good 😍😍😍 Being able to see behind the scenes into Gunwoo’s world, and seeing them confess to each other ❤️❤️‍🩹💔
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