A kiss from Gideon O’Riley radically changes Lonnie Sawyer’s life. Forced by her father to marry the guy, Lonnie will find herself sharing her existence with a man that does not love her or does not respect her, but she will never give up the hope that someday he may change and make her happy.
“Be Still My Soul” is one of the saddest books I have ever read! And I am sorry to say this because I had high hopes for this story. By reading the description I thought that the disagreements between the protagonists would be solved more quickly and without all that angst that instead I found abundant in almost every page of this novel.
The basic idea was interesting -Gideon’s change and his acknowledgement of God’s plan for him- but I hoped there would not be all those choices and actions that made me despise the male protagonist since the beginning. Gideon does not love Lonnie when he marries her. Their marriage is the consequence of a compromising situation that needs to be fixed and both of them are not happy of that, but this does not allow him to behave in a disrespectful -and definitely not at all nice- way. For the most part of the book he treats Lonnie very badly, as if he wanted to blame her for the situation they are living (when, actually, Lonnie is, in my opinion, the only person who suffers the consequences of other people’s actions). Gideon does not show any kind of affection for his wife and he never fails to let her know his feelings through caustic words and deplorable actions. Even though in rare moments he seems to feel guilty, this does not stop him from having a kind of attitude that does not suit a man. Basically, Lonnie has her eyes filled with tears in every chapter!
Contrary to Gideon, Lonnie, even though she is not in love when she gets married, feels that their union could give her something good anyway, something positive. So she tenaciously endures her husband’s behaviour because she thinks that there is a project for her made by God that wants her to live those experiences. I admired her constancy and fortitude but, at the same time, I could not understand how she could stand all the pain that Gideon caused to her heart. I know that, being this a novel set at the beginning of the 1900s, women’s life was rather complicated, but I would have liked Lonnie to react earlier not almost at the end of the book!
I struggled to reach the end of this story and, though I did not put the idea of reading the other two books in this series completely aside, I think that I will get to other reads for now. Though many readers thought that Gideon deserved their affection in the end, I could not love this character and I am not really curious to see what will happen in his future and in his family’s. Anyway, I recommend “Be Still My Soul” to those who love stories of redemption despite the hero is completely to blame.