"...But that Another Story!": My Autistic Insight on Einstein's Brain, Giving Good Blog and Occasional Distractibility is a sample of musings on topics from love to scientific theory, as autistic writer, activist, self-advocate, and single mother of two, (one of which is also autistic), Lorin Neikirk scatters her thoughts and collects them again, taking the reader on a journey of thought. Not a book specifically "about" autism, each chapter its own entity; an open dialog of exploration on, among other things, perspectives, love, fear, hopes, and truth.
I have a weird relationship with this book of mine! I think it's because it's so personal to me. I can't even bring myself to rate it. Here's the story behind it, and I'll leave it to you to decide about whether or not you want to give it a shot.
For quite a while, I had a blog, called A Panoptic Life. I have always been "a writer" in the way that if I wasn't expressing myself I just wasn't at my best. So years ago, I decided to do this cool new thing called blogging. And I loved it. I could pour my thoughts onto paper, whatever my thoughts were. Then suddenly, I realized people were reading it. I was contacted by "my readers". Then people started to tell me what my blog meant to them; ways it had helped them. I was blindsided... I didn't realize anyone was reading it, really. Now I felt a sense of responsibility, I felt like people were counting on me.
"Lorin, you need to put all these together in one place. A book." So I started compiling a book of my blogs, while still blogging. I truly felt it had to be perfect. I edited and re-edited... It became a massive undertaking, an exercise in self-abuse. I could never achieve the expectation I placed upon myself: Absolute perfection.
The truth is that the Kindle version is really still a work-in-progress of the print version, which the book was always intended to be. I have a single copy of the proof that is ragged and marked up to hell. My guess is that it will probably never be in print because I don't think I could bring myself to see it as a finished product. The contents were never intended to be anything but (mostly) musings to myself. The day someone told me they didn't attempt suicide because they read something in my blog, I felt overwhelmed with responsibility and I don't know that I have recovered.
On the other hand, my son has read my tattered proof at least three times. I know that the blog (and therefore the contents of the book) were quite popular and many enjoyed the "wisdom" from them. I have had a wonderful response, despite my own personal hangups, lol, so while I don't personally feel this is a finished product, I think the reasonable thing to do is to let you, the reader, decide for yourself if you are willing to read what amounts to a highly flawed (in my eyes) book, which still might have some inherent value some how, some way. OK! So now you can do with this information what you wish!
If you read the book, and you enjoy it, let me know!
(...And if you find a bunch of errors, keep it to yourself!)