All I had to do was give him a baby and move on. Being their surrogate was meant to be a simple answer to my mounting problems. With no family, ever-increasing debt, and pressures to stay afloat, I needed a solution. This was supposed to be it. Then it happened. Everything changed. I fell in love with a widower while he mourned his wife. I fell in love with the baby in my belly. For the first time in my life, I knew what I wanted beyond a career as a lawyer. I had tasted an existence filled with love and hope. They were my missing piece to becoming whole. Then, my past and his world collided. The danger I'd been hiding from for so long found me, and it was seeking revenge. If I ran this time, I wouldn’t only lose my identity…I’d give up the chance of the future I craved. If I stayed, I wouldn’t only risk my own life, I would endanger the lives of everyone I love. At this moment, I’m not sure it is a chance I’m willing to take – too much has been torn from me before.
Author Note Damon is a steamy mafia romance and intended for readers aged eighteen years and over. It contains sexual scenes, violence, strong language, descriptions of infertility, and attempted suicide.
VR Tennent emigrated from Scotland to Spain in 2020. She lives in the Spanish campo with her husband, young daughter, and ever-growing animal family. In January 2022, she decided to put pen to paper and write a book after joining the writer’s group of her favourite author. Five months later she was offered a publishing contract on that very book. She writes contemporary fiction filled with love, heartbreak, and spice.
I hated everything about this book. Honestly, I should have known from the description and then the first chapter being in the dead wifes POV, but I kept thinking it wouldn't be what it was. Emma(the fmc) will forever live in the shadow of the dead wife. The things Damon says to her are disgusting. I understand she loves the little girl and him, but no amount of love should ever make up for the despicable things this man said to her. Comparing her to his late wife and confirming all of her fears of never measuring up and then also saying she wasn't Annie's mother. I don't know honestly how the author thought we would then root for this couple. The grovel is non-existent. His apology is mediocre AT BEST. All I really felt at the end of that was sadness. Sadness that the FMC was always going to be second in her own love story. I gave this book 2 stars because the author did pull out some serious emotions out of me(I sobbed at 2 a.m. reading this), but probably not the emotions she was hoping for.
I've never read a romance where I believed the HEA should have been the FMC ending up without the MMC, but this one absolutely made me wish that's how this book ended.
As grateful as I am to be an ARC reader I have to say that this book was not good in my opinion. I really didn’t like that we got the first few chapters in Connie’s POV. It felt rushed and it lacked emotion for that sort of cameo if I can even call it that. The other thing I hated was the MMC himself. He was so rude, cruel and selfish that it was very off putting, I didn’t believe any of his feelings. Then there’s Emma. I don’t know how someone can go from 0 do 100 in emotional aspect when there was really nothing to love about Damon - that man made her life miserable. He took her daughter from her again and again pushing her away and call her “the nanny” to the child she gave birth to. And after all of that she came back crawling every damn time and not for the baby but for him. Why?? Who knows! And lastly - that poor child was only used as a tool in this toxic relationship MMC created with the FMC. I never for one second felt like anybody really loved that baby. That’s it. I’m sorry that it turned out this way for me because I was really looking forward to reading this book. Love, K🫶🏻
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I hated this so much! I hated how he behaved and hated how this book made Emma seem the second best in this whole story. The dead wife seemed to be the lead in this one
It’s amazing to read a book where I genuinely dislike all of the characters. Ok, small lie. I enjoyed Mrs. D and Harrison every so often.
The initial set up of the surrogate contract was fucking absurd but fine, whatever. The severe boundary stomping by the FMC to a newly grieving husband was infuriating. The never-ending cycle of anger and push/pull made my eye twitch.
I should have stopped reading at 16% when I was already irritated by the overarching story.
This was awful (I’m really sorry to the author for that) but I really wish I could reclaim all of the time I wasted waiting for the book to be released, the teasers I liked on tiktok, and ultimately the time I spent reading it.
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This is the dumbest book I’ve ever read. I trusted the tiktok video that I saw but I should’ve known better!
The MMC is straight out garbage. The story starts with him having sex with his wife which was so not required because they are not the main characters. He shown as devoted husband who loves his wife so damn much ! This guy moves on from the said wife within a span of few weeks. Not even joking. She’s basically forgotten and thrown her and there just to remind the readers that he still loves her. He was horrible to the FMC. She’s carrying your fucking child MF ! Show some respect!! He was cordial before but after his wife died it was like a switch turned off and he was the rudest person ever.
The FMC was no better though. In the beginning it seemed like she’s gonna be a strong character but what the hell happened to her ?? Suddenly when the wife dies, this girl develops feelings for the MMC. Out of no Fucking where. She didn’t want any kids but suddenly she wanted to raise their kid together. And then there’s this whole mystery about her past and all. IDC
You know this story could’ve been engaging if the writing style would’ve been a lot better. I completely dissociated from those lines as soon as a paragraph ended abruptly. There was no flow for the writing style. Instead of luring me in, It just pushed me away.
TikTok hyped this book up. But I really just wasn’t a fan. I was on the release notification list for this one bc the little previews made it look good but it was just basic slow on and off burn. Just overall a weird book.
Kept waiting for this to get better... But it only got worse. Can we stop writing "romance" with abusive men and trying to pass them on as "morally grey".
"These past weeks Damon has done everything I ever dreamed he would. He came for me, made his intentions clear, but never forced me to comply with what he wanted. It had always been my choice. I know if I had asked him to leave, he would have." pg. 367 The author really thought they did something here (sorry) but they didn't. Talk about the bear freaking minimum. Jesus. And this was the extent of the groveling for those that are curious.
TLDR; Damon is a deplorable man. There is a difference between the morally grey walking red flag book boyfriends we hate to love, and an mmc that is straight up abusive.
My biggest issue... Damon spends the entire book working towards getting revenge for his wife. He manages to get justice for her... TWICE over. But didn't give a single fuck about the justice for Emma.
This story had so much potential but it was ruined by a selfish and manipulative mmc. He emotionally abused the hell out of Emma, constantly beating her down with words whenever she started to get back up. I understand he was supposed to be grieving but I find it hard to believe that such a horrible man could have been as wonderful as he was described to his wife Connie. He is absolutely terrible... 90% into the book he is still acting as a disgusting human being and then when his groveling starts it is over so freaking quickly because Emma "loves" him. How can a woman possibly love a man that treats her so poorly? Not to mention the fact that he was willing to keep Emma out of her life until he finds out that she may be moving on by going on a date. Typical. And when she does finally forgive him? His first thought is getting her into bed. Because of course.
Is this book disguised and actually a "how to" make a women stay when you want to gaslight and emotionally beat down a woman?
That being said, Emma wasn't exactly a favorite either. The man's wife was just murdered... a woman that Emma was becoming close with like a sister.. and Emma is ALL over Damon.. constantly pushing him when he was uncomfortable.
When I say this book made me cry.. I don't mean in the cathartic way that readers get to enjoy with a sad book. What I mean is I felt like I was reading a book about a woman getting trapped into an abusive relationship with no way to leave since her entire world was now revolved around him and his friends. With a baby to boot.
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• Mafia • Age Gap • Love After Loss • Nanny/Boss Vibes • Grumpy Hero • Strong FMC • Slow Burn After reading Harrison, the first book in the level series, I knew this book would be alot as in my emotions were everywhere, a literal rollercoaster. I was frustrated, angry, annoyed, sad, cringing, laughing, smiling, excited and then when the mmc suddenly starts dirty talking.... I was kicking and screaming. Both characters are on an emotional journey trying to figure out life, there's so many ups and downs, and with their story, there is no right or wrong. Love wins. I am so so happy to have recieved an arc of this, and I can honestly say I thoroughly enjoyed this book and cannot wait to read book 3, those Chase brothers are trouble.
Damon was an emotional read! Enjoyed reading this steamy contemporary romance with suspense, lost, danger, hurtful past, and finding happiness. Damon and Emma are adorable together!
DNF at approx. 40% - Can't give a zero, so I give you a one. (Usually I don't rate DNF's but I wasted too much time to not rate) Damon was horrible to the FMC(i think her name is Emma, but tbh i don't care enough to look and check) throughout the entire first half, acting as if it was her fault that his wife died. He showed almost no interest in the baby him and his wife were desperate for until the baby was born. What truly bothered me is that the surrogate was the baby's biological mother, and he refused to acknowledge her, and gets overtly angry when he thinks that the baby calls her "mama" and tells her she's not the mother. Emma starts nannying for Damon bc he thinks she's in danger and suddenly feels the need to keep her safe?? And then constantly reminds her that she's not baby Annie (her full name is Constance, and I really don't know how you get Annie from that, but whatever) mother. SHE IS THE BIOLOGICAL MOTHER AND YOU ESSENTIALLY FORCED HER TO BE AROUND THE DAUGHTER YOU DIDN'T WANT HER TO BE AROUND. Emma tried to distance herself in the beginning but couldn't because of Damon.
Emma is whatever, but she has a lot of abandonment issues, and for that reason alone should not be a surrogate, ESPECIALLY with a baby who is biological hers. I think if they'd used an egg donor or Damon's wife was able to use her eggs there would've been enough disconnect for her to separately herself emotionally from the pregnancy.
Maybe it's because I read several other surrogate trope books around the same time (all which did it much better) that I couldn't continue, and Damon isn't charming, he's a billionaire dick who i feel absolutely no sympathy for.
After years of trying for a baby, Damon and his wife finally accepted the fact that they will need help and decide on a surrogate. Emma is trying to get through law school but struggling with the funds, so when she comes across the opportunity to become a surrogate, she takes it! However, none of them are prepared for the obstacles they will face!
I enjoyed this book, however, I felt around half of the book was building the story and setting the plot, it also took awhile for it to get into the nitty gritty but once it did, wow it had me hooked. I love how it has a crime storyline alongside the romance storyline. The crime side of this book can get rather gory. And the romance side a little spicey!! What more could you ask for.
I have mixed feelings towards the characters, I loved Damon and his gang of morally grey friends. There is just something about them, the group that makes these books. Emma I still don't know how I feel about her, deep inside I want to love her for stepping up and become the mum figure baby Annie needed, and being the strong woman she is and chasing her dreams after all she goes through, but at the same time I can't help but dislike her for going after Damon under the circumstances of what happened. I don't know if that's because you don't really get anything on their relationship building and changing, one minute he's the widow and she's the surrogate that live together but hardly talk the next they are in love with each other, I would have enjoyed reading more on that relationship status change. Once that romantic relationship was formed, my oh my did it get spicey and I loved there relationship, I loved how she was his calm and how he was her safe space.
Overall, this book had me hooked, especially the crime storyline, I love how everything interlinks. The emotional roller coaster this book sent me on was something else, so be prepared to cry! I would recommend this book to anyone who loves the crime/romance genre with the age gap, mafia, and love after loss tropes.
What an emotional rollercoaster this book is, but I expect nothing more from VR she manages to take a truly heartbreaking and emotional topic and completely suck me in. I was definitely feeling so many things reading this from anger, to joy to absolute pain. Grief and the loss of a loved one and more importantly your life partner is something that is incomprehensible and watching Damon cope with the loss of his childhood sweetheart while she was finally getting what she desired most a baby broke me, but poor Emma the surrogate of Damon and Connie’s baby I felt for her immensely as the plan she had set out changed and she was not supposed to fall for Damon the widower but being in close contact with him after the death of Connie and the birth of their daughter their relationship changed. You could feel the tension and the fact that both parties held Connie and her memory in such high regard and little Annie took centre stage in both of their lives.
Damon was at times cruel and unkind to Emma but it was solely the grief talking and Emma makes him work for it when he inevitably messes everything up. He feels a huge amount of responsibility to keep Emma and Annie safe as he believes he is to blame for Connie’s murder but Emma has her own secrets.
This was a great book. Damon was a police officer in London. He was married to a woman named Connie they were high school sweethearts. They desperately wanted a child and it wasn’t working. So they decided to use a surrogate. That turned out to be Emma. She was a law school student and she needed the money to help pay for everything. She ended up getting pregnant and a few months later everything changed. This had a lot of twists and turns in this book. I enjoyed everything about it.
I received the arc of this book in exchange for an honest review!
What an emotional journey this was ! This book has a very unique plot and I loved it. I could feel the angst and anxiety and grief the characters were feeling! Emma was such a badass ! She knew her worth and never settled for less than she deserved! She went through so much as a teenager and again as a young adult when her past came knocking on her door. But she pushed through and I'm so happy for her ! Damon went through a long emotional journey. From mourning his wife to becoming a father , to understanding that he can be happy again and deserves it . I loved book and I can't wait for the next in the series ! ❤️
I love it! It was such a refreshing book and Emma was an amazing character, strong, empowering and very stubborn. I love their chemistry and how the relationship developed. Great job, can’t wait for the next book of the series!😀😀
This book was so good. The emotional turmoil that Damon and Emma faced tore my heart out at times.The chemistry was off the charts yet there were sweet moments as well. There are some darker parts so be sure to check the trigger warnings.
I thought Harrison was amazing.. this book blew that away! I love VR Tennent’s writing style and this book featuring love after loss makes it so addicting. I couldn’t put it down! I’ll be standing in line for Chase to be released!
read: on kindle rating: 2.30 -i didn't like the mmc 🤷♀️ he didn't grovel much and he was a dick like a complete asshole, the story line is... unique thats the only reason i didn't rate this a 1 star
Oh my. This book… My poor heart, it bled for Emma. While reading, my emotions went in all directions. I felt so sorry for Emma, I felt her pain of rejection and her sadness over and over again. The characters are so well described, you really feel for them. To the point of frustration. Everything was in there; love, friendship, mafia, spice, suspense and loss. And of course a HEA!
But what a good book, fantastically written. I’ve read it in 1 day, I couldn't put it down. A great series by a great writer. I can't wait for Connor and Russell's story!
This book is part of The Level series, which are an interconnected series with standalone books. We caught a glimpse of what was going on with Damon in book 1, which was Harrison.
please be sure to check the TW/CW before reading this
Damon and his wife Connie (his high school sweetheart) decides to go for surrogacy after trying on their own to have a baby. In comes Emma, the perfect person to carry their baby. until lives are turned upside down with the death of Connie.
Emotions happen, things change, secrets come out.
I absolutely loved this book and cannot wait to read the rest of the guys' stories.
story 4.5/5 spice 5/5
I received an ARC copy and this is my honest and true review