[arc review]
Thank you to the author, L. Steele, for providing an arc in exchange for an honest review.
Disclaimer:
I don’t really have anything positive to say (sorry). I will be discussing this book in detail, so if you’re looking for a spoiler free review, this isn’t it.
- dual pov: Penny & Knight
- best friends brother
- marriage of convenience
- retired military hero
- billionaire
- boss x assisstant
- virgin heroine
- grumpy x sunshine
I actually had to set aside this book for a good week after reading the first chapter, because that alone had me wanting to dnf.
I’ve never met such an insufferable fmc before, and I was begging for someone to get her to shut up (respectfully).
For context, Knight has just returned home after being held captive for six months. Penny and Knight do not have a preexisting or established relationship, and the only time she has ever seen him was on the day he deployed, and was saying his farewell's to his sister.
Penny’s immediate reactions to seeing Knight are:
1.“He’s lost weight, but that only adds to the appeal. There are hollows under his cheekbones […]” — being gaunt and underweight from captivity and starvation is appealing? Hmmm, let’s not romanticize this.
2.“But seriously, isn’t therapy the best way to give yourself a chance to adjust back to civilian life?” — again, you two have never once had a conversation before. What gives you the right to ask that? Who’s to say he isn’t in therapy? He hasn’t even had a chance to get in a word or barely reunite with his close friends and family, maybe step off a little.
3.“I widen my smile—mainly to hide the fluttering of my heart and my pussy, which seems to have developed a sudden plumbing problem, what with all the moisture sliding through my slit.” — PLUMBING PROBLEM? So outlandish. Keep in mind, all she has done is accost him of his well-being (which she has no right to do), in a public setting. What is it about public humiliation and a man fresh out of captivity that has her so turned on? It’s kind of disgusting if you ask me.
I found the writing extremely distracting, with things like:
> “I’m instantly hard—what the—!”
> “My thigh muscles harden, sweat beads my forehead, a-n-d why am I having such a primitive response to this woman?” — why are words constantly being written like: “o-k-a-y”, “y-e-a-p”, “a-n-d”… it’s weird.
> Why do they say “Eh?” SO MUCH? Listen, I’m Canadian and I don’t even hear people use that phrase as much as it was presented in this book.
There were also a lot of continuity errors. For example, how did Penny have pink hair to begin with, and then two days later after the scene in the bdsm club, it was fully blonde and no one cared to acknowledge that, when that would have been a key indicator in identifying her?
Why did she say “gawd”, and then all of a sudden it switched to “god” for the rest of the book?
The fmc is apparently plus-sized, but it was hard to believe when half the time she would be described as fleshy with rolls of fat around her middle, and other times she’d have a narrow and tiny figure.
The first scene in the bdsm club made me uncomfortable. The submissive was clearly uncomfortable with the level of things he was doing to her (it didn’t seem like a cnc situation either) which doesn’t make sense, given the fact that everyone is supposed to be well vetted. As a whole, I think this could have been handled better, as someone experimenting sexually should never be thrown into a situation they aren’t adept to handle.
The dialogue saying: “And I’ve read enough smutty books to be somewhat an expert on the topic.” is so harmful. Romance books are not a guide to bdsm and kink.
The smut was so forced and unnatural, even before it was announced that Knight would need to wed in order to gain full control over the family business.
I mean, when all he did was put out his hand as a barrier when the car halted in traffic, and that was enough for her to immediately straddle him?
Or when he didn’t get her to come, but she still stayed the night in his bed? That’s a no from me.
Not to mention the fact that she was literally “bathed” in her arousal 24/7 — “My pussy clenches and my panties are wet—again. Jesus, I might as well start wearing diapers, at this rate.” PLS.
I get that having a virgin heroine comes with some level of inexperience, but some of what was being written was so beyond unaware and really played into and amplified the stereotype of a “dumb blonde.”
The way Penny slapped Knight unprovoked while in an intimate setting was very dangerous given his unstable history. He could have very easily lashed out, and it could have triggered a reaction from previously being tortured. It’s clear that there’s not sufficient awareness of what it could be like living with an abusive person or someone that is dealing with severe trauma or ptsd. Literally, any little thing could set them off.
For a marriage of convenience story, I was disappointed that this skipped over the entire wedding.
I hated that there was no discussion on condoms or safe sex, especially given the fact that she’s a virgin. And I hated that during her first time, when she said “enough, I can’t take anymore”, he proceeded to push past her limits and pound into her.
AND WHY, please tell me why she immediately blacks out into sleep after sex every single time? EVERY TIME. Even if it’s the middle of the day at work, she dozes off. It’s so fucking odd.
Other quotes that gave me the ick:
> “I take Abby’s hand in mine, then bring it to my mouth and kiss her knuckles.” — you’re siblings… it seems even weirder when you take into consideration that a character does the exact same gesture to Penny in order to provoke Knight in a territorial way.
> “That scar looks good on you.” — again, stop romanticizing abuse and torture.
> “I have other ways of making money. I… I can use my body.” / I look her up and down. “If you think anyone is going to pay for that, then you’re being optimistic.” — ew, body shaming a plus-sized girl is not cute.
> “chai tea latte” — chai and tea are synonymous lmao
> calling his adonis belt “cum gutters”
> him eating her out but: “when she was sleeping and unaware of what I was doing to her.” RED FLAG.
And lastly, for this being a best friends brothers trope, the utilization of the best friend was so poorly done. Mira was more present than Abby, and I can’t understand how Penny didn’t know about the get together to welcome back Knight, if it included all of their close friends. Wouldn’t that be something you’d tell and invite your “best friend” to? The “best friend” that you roped into working for your brother?
Instead of worrying about character “sun signs”, there should have been an adequate content warning list.
i.e. ptsd, flashbacks of past torture and captivity, parent with dementia, misogyny, nightmares, blackmail and emotional manipulation, mentions of rape, explicit sexual content and bdsm (including bondage, spit play, breath play, spanking, foot fetish, etc.)