This book has been on my TBR list for a LONG time, so when I found it at a bookstore, I had to buy it for myself. And I’m glad I did.
Spoilers ahead – Read at your own risk
This story, in many ways, did feel too familiar. I didn’t expect the high school setting to play such a large factor in the story. We had the typical bullies that seemed so cliché (I was laughing more so than actually being irritated with them like I should be). We had Jenna, the only friend to the main character. We had the typical popular boy who ends up becoming a love interest. We had either the absence of parents or the total lack of good, quality parents. We had the students who were intimidated by the “popular squad.” There were many tropes in this story and I wasn’t expecting there to be so much more focus on the social cliques and school crushes than the kickass powers and scheming. There were many things pointing towards an average story with way too many tropes and not nearly enough sci-fi, which was disappointing. Even though more of that came through the further I read, a great portion of the book was dominated by the ordinary and the blending in, which could deter other readers from continuing the story. There were two main reasons that prompted me to continue reading: The engaging and simple writing style and the main character, Ariane.
Sometimes, just for a few minutes, when Jenna and I were busy talking about school or boys or whatever, I forgot myself. Forgot that I wasn't the Ariane Tucker everyone thought I was, a regular human girl. And in those moments it felt like a huge weight had been lifted from me, the ever – present boulder of dread I hauled around. Of course, when I remembered myself, the burden felt ten times as heavy. But it was worth it for those few seconds of escape.
People are more than welcome to disagree with me, but I LOVED Ariane. She felt so real to me, definitely realer than most of these ordinary human characters, which I guess can be seen as ironic. For the most part, I enjoyed the writing style and the metaphors and analogies used to demonstrate Ariane’s situation. Can you imagine living in fear for ten years, trying to blend in while the people hunting you down are right in your backyard? I surely can’t, and I commend the author for convincing me of how horrific Ariane’s life had been and has continued to be. Her voice felt authentic, her decisions often logical rather than rash (and I often find the opposite in YA novels). There were times where she had made bad and reckless choices, but she always acknowledged that and carried them out knowing the consequences.
She was such a strong character – someone who didn’t hesitate to stand up for herself and refused to let anyone walk all over her. I do think her relationship with Zane wasn’t developed enough and because of that, her choices dealing with him weren’t as powerful as they could have been. Another aspect I appreciated in the novel was these concrete examples. Zane also felt very real to me along with Ariane: I got to see their hobbies, their likes and dislikes, what specifically they had in common, and their way of thinking was very clear to me. I loved that Zane was an actual teenage boy and not some typical “bad boy” or “good boy” cutout. He had insecurities, he made mistakes, he actually acknowledged his fear for Ariane and stayed with her rather than being an unrealistic saint, telling her that he could care less what she was and follow her anywhere. I also loved that neither of them thought that what they felt for each other was strong enough to be love. They are nowhere near that and I’m glad the author didn’t try to tackle that so early in the series.
My whole life I'd been caught between two sides – emotional against logical, human vs. other – warring inside me. And as I sat there, I realized that for the first time ever, they were dangerously close to agreeing.
One of my favorite scenes was when Jacobs offered Rachel to be the one Ariane would have to kill. It was a great twist that I began to wonder would happen at some point, and I honestly didn’t know if Ariane would go through with it or not. I was able to relate to her so much that I honestly wouldn’t have been surprised by either choice – and I would have been satisfied with whatever decision she made.
Some other issues I had with the story however, was that there were some instances where the other characters came off as unrealistic or unnatural. Jenna asking if Ariane could get her into Rachel’s party just as she’s storming out? I know Jenna is insensitive, but I would think she’d be able to pick up on the tension by now and not even bother asking that. At that point, she seemed more like a character and not a real person. I also thought that Rachel came across as too callous at times. Putting one of her childhood friends in the hospital and not feeling anything about it? Leaving Ariane and Zane to deal with the guns without so much as trying to help them out? And even smirking about it? I liked that Rachel had a neglectful past and complicated feelings for Zane because that added substance to her character, but none of that justified these extremes. She was written as someone with no redeeming qualities, but even the worst kinds of people have instances that make them feel so raw and human. For Rachel, that was coping with being distant with her family, but I would have liked to see that she genuinely cared about her friends. Maybe she treats them like trash, but is there to support them when they need it. Maybe she humiliates them just to see if they will stay by her side, but I need to see what she does for them in order for me to believe that her friends would stick around her for so long (they seemed too much like cutouts). There’s so much to be explored here in the friend group dynamic, but given where the story is heading, I don’t know if that will ever be explored further. I honestly thought at some point, Rachel was going to be an ally or even an unexpected friend to Ariane. It disappointed me greatly to see nothing had changed about her – I feel a life or death situation would change a person, even a little bit. I do enjoy the fact that pretty much everyone is greatly flawed in this story; that was probably the strongest aspect of all and one I greatly appreciated.
Needless to say, even with the typos and excessive parentheses and heavily cliché high school setting, I enjoyed this story a lot and I’m very interested in the sequel.