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僕らの恋は死にいたる病のようで [Bokura no Koi wa Shi ni Itaru Yamai no You de] #3
僕らの恋は死にいたる病のようで 3
紅子の幼なじみで恋人の空が、紅子をかばって亡くなったとき、空の双子の弟・海の復讐が始まった。紅子は空から貰った指輪を奪われ、罵られ、さまざまな屈辱的な方法で海に苦しめられる。だけど、時折海が見せる優しさに、混乱して…。そんなある日、紅子は海が小さい頃書いた手紙を見つける。そこには、海が紅子を好きだととれるメッセージが書いてあって…。愛と憎しみの渦巻く衝撃作、ついに完結！
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July 16, 2016
Actual Ratings=4.5*
I guess the reason I'm not giving it a 5 star is cuz I'm scared to admit I like such a twisted story. Damn this book was good.
So this story is basically about 3 childhood friends/neighbours where one of them are twin boys and the other a girl. Both of them fall in love with her but only one manages to date her. Sounds like your normal shojo manga right?
Nope. You are completely wrong if you think so. This is a much twisted and sadistic story. The psychological factor in the story is so high. My heart broke for the two broken souls of Beniko and Umi. It was frustrating reading the book. I really hoped for a happy ending but for some reason that bitter sweet ending was perfect too. It just left this huge ache in my heart. It was heart breaking reading the last chapter. Really.
I'm still confused as to whether Beniko loved Umi for who he was or whether it was cuz he looked like Sora. Also what happened to Umi was sad too. He too loved his brother incredibly and unnecessarily blamed everything on himself. Both of them could have had a sweet happy ending if they had someone to tell them that they don't have to blame themselves. I always thought if there was someone to just tell them it would have been the best.
It may sound cheesy and stuff but this manga really made me think more about life. The troubles and heartaches one feels cuz of a loss of a loved one. It's not just that but the psychological aspect of how it affects. I never ever thought so far.
The saddest for me was Sora. His life ended way to soon. But also did he really love either Umi or Beniko? I'm not convinced he did. For me he didn't have such strong feelings as those two did. Uni's love for both Sora and Beniko was much more than Sora's and also Beniko's love for him was also much more. It's as if Sora got the bad end of everything cuz of this. That's what makes me feel sad.
Well without doubt this is one of those really great manga I've read and will stay in my head for ages to come. It's twisted and sadistic and believe me it'll stay in your head for a long time. Now I'm going to go and binge-watch Fullmetal Alchemist to forget this growing ache in my heart -.-
I guess the reason I'm not giving it a 5 star is cuz I'm scared to admit I like such a twisted story. Damn this book was good.
So this story is basically about 3 childhood friends/neighbours where one of them are twin boys and the other a girl. Both of them fall in love with her but only one manages to date her. Sounds like your normal shojo manga right?
Nope. You are completely wrong if you think so. This is a much twisted and sadistic story. The psychological factor in the story is so high. My heart broke for the two broken souls of Beniko and Umi. It was frustrating reading the book. I really hoped for a happy ending but for some reason that bitter sweet ending was perfect too. It just left this huge ache in my heart. It was heart breaking reading the last chapter. Really.
I'm still confused as to whether Beniko loved Umi for who he was or whether it was cuz he looked like Sora. Also what happened to Umi was sad too. He too loved his brother incredibly and unnecessarily blamed everything on himself. Both of them could have had a sweet happy ending if they had someone to tell them that they don't have to blame themselves. I always thought if there was someone to just tell them it would have been the best.
It may sound cheesy and stuff but this manga really made me think more about life. The troubles and heartaches one feels cuz of a loss of a loved one. It's not just that but the psychological aspect of how it affects. I never ever thought so far.
The saddest for me was Sora. His life ended way to soon. But also did he really love either Umi or Beniko? I'm not convinced he did. For me he didn't have such strong feelings as those two did. Uni's love for both Sora and Beniko was much more than Sora's and also Beniko's love for him was also much more. It's as if Sora got the bad end of everything cuz of this. That's what makes me feel sad.
Well without doubt this is one of those really great manga I've read and will stay in my head for ages to come. It's twisted and sadistic and believe me it'll stay in your head for a long time. Now I'm going to go and binge-watch Fullmetal Alchemist to forget this growing ache in my heart -.-
June 30, 2021
Leí "Bokura no koi wa shi ni itaru yamai no you" a comienzos de este año y lo aborrecí tanto que ni siquiera lo registré en la plataforma de GR, éso y el inminente motivo de la pereza (cosa que a menudo me sucede cuando leo mangas, y que planeo cambiar pronto). La cuestión es que pocas historias he detestado tanto como esta, sin embargo a lo que venimos y llegados a este punto, mi mente sencillamente borró los recuerdos específicos de la obra y la claridad de los detalles, lo que anula mi material mental para dar una reseña. Afortunadamente en mi momento de furia escribí unas palabras para liberarla y eso tal cual es lo que pondré aquí, no modificaré nada y expondré todo lo negativo que pensé en su momento:
"¡Ay, no, tengo que decirlo!, ¡qué maldito coraje me dio todo esto! Y es que digo, normalmente me gusta un buen psicópata en su construcción, pero ¿qué cosa se supone que es Umi, qué clase de espécimen sin sentido es este? Sí, sí, el tipo está trastornado y se ve una clara inestabilidad en su personalidad, pero ¡me enferma!, porque en un principio me dan toda la perfección de Sora y luego meten a este asqueroso chico que por no saber manejar sus sentimientos, cree que "está bien", violar, maltratar, acosar, burlar, herir y menospreciar a alguien y luego "ay sí, Beniko te amo, soy un buen chico que sólo fue herido, porque no me querían, ay creo que voy a llorar". Iugh, ¡maldito dibujo!... Ahhh, y no me olvido de ti, Beniko, quien despertó en mí un deseo insano de patearla, porque repito, sí, debe ser terriblemente traumático todo lo que vivió y que luego aparezca un parásito idéntico que te lo recuerde 24/7, no obstante, ¿sí ubicamos el tremendo insulto que es a la memoria de Sora? Básicamente como sus sueños indicaban, cualquier cosa valía si se parecían. ¡Ay, no, me muero de rabia! Ya por favor, que alguien me explique cómo un dibujo me puede molestar tanto y ser en ocasiones, tan picante".
"¡Ay, no, tengo que decirlo!, ¡qué maldito coraje me dio todo esto! Y es que digo, normalmente me gusta un buen psicópata en su construcción, pero ¿qué cosa se supone que es Umi, qué clase de espécimen sin sentido es este? Sí, sí, el tipo está trastornado y se ve una clara inestabilidad en su personalidad, pero ¡me enferma!, porque en un principio me dan toda la perfección de Sora y luego meten a este asqueroso chico que por no saber manejar sus sentimientos, cree que "está bien", violar, maltratar, acosar, burlar, herir y menospreciar a alguien y luego "ay sí, Beniko te amo, soy un buen chico que sólo fue herido, porque no me querían, ay creo que voy a llorar". Iugh, ¡maldito dibujo!... Ahhh, y no me olvido de ti, Beniko, quien despertó en mí un deseo insano de patearla, porque repito, sí, debe ser terriblemente traumático todo lo que vivió y que luego aparezca un parásito idéntico que te lo recuerde 24/7, no obstante, ¿sí ubicamos el tremendo insulto que es a la memoria de Sora? Básicamente como sus sueños indicaban, cualquier cosa valía si se parecían. ¡Ay, no, me muero de rabia! Ya por favor, que alguien me explique cómo un dibujo me puede molestar tanto y ser en ocasiones, tan picante".
August 4, 2018
This book broke my heart being honest.
*SPOILERS*
It was just so sad and twisted how both Beniko and Umi blamed themselves for the death of Sora.
This book really messed me up emotionally, especially seeing how hard it was for Umi and Beniko to accept that they loved each other while trying not to betray Sora.
It also hurt after realizing Sora may have not been the best person, lying to his brother and secretly hurting him by keeping Beniko to himself.
What broke me the most was the ending, when Umi chose to take on the entire personality of Sora after going completely insane, believing instead he's Sora and that Umi was the one who had died.
The pain felt so real after Sora's death, I could feel the emotions of the 2 characters and that's what made me come to love this story despite the rollercoaster of pain that came along with it.
*SPOILERS*
It was just so sad and twisted how both Beniko and Umi blamed themselves for the death of Sora.
This book really messed me up emotionally, especially seeing how hard it was for Umi and Beniko to accept that they loved each other while trying not to betray Sora.
It also hurt after realizing Sora may have not been the best person, lying to his brother and secretly hurting him by keeping Beniko to himself.
What broke me the most was the ending, when Umi chose to take on the entire personality of Sora after going completely insane, believing instead he's Sora and that Umi was the one who had died.
The pain felt so real after Sora's death, I could feel the emotions of the 2 characters and that's what made me come to love this story despite the rollercoaster of pain that came along with it.
October 12, 2025
(Deutscher Titel: Zerrissene Seelen 3)
Zum Glück hab ich nur diesen Teil gelesen (die kurze Einleitung reicht wirklich, um in die Handlung einzusteigen) und nicht noch mehr Zeit mit diesem Dreiteiler verschwendet. Leider ist die Autorin eine derjenigen, die gerne was S/M-angehauchtes schreiben wollen, aber gefährlicherweise nichts von Zustimmung, Regeln, Kommunikation, Ampelsystem oder ähnlichen Feedbacktools, Safewords und Aftercare wissen - und so wird die Geschichte leider nur zu einer ekligen Gewaltfantasie. :(
Zum Glück hab ich nur diesen Teil gelesen (die kurze Einleitung reicht wirklich, um in die Handlung einzusteigen) und nicht noch mehr Zeit mit diesem Dreiteiler verschwendet. Leider ist die Autorin eine derjenigen, die gerne was S/M-angehauchtes schreiben wollen, aber gefährlicherweise nichts von Zustimmung, Regeln, Kommunikation, Ampelsystem oder ähnlichen Feedbacktools, Safewords und Aftercare wissen - und so wird die Geschichte leider nur zu einer ekligen Gewaltfantasie. :(
February 5, 2018
1.5
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February 26, 2016
see full review @ Katie's Corner
What the hell did just happen? I don’t get this; seriously did he just lose his mind completely? No, I knew that Beniko was nuts, but her last statements made me feel like: “Ah, now she’s finally broken and will never be whole.” But, well, sorry for my outburst right now, but I really needed this, and if you have read this story, you do understand me, if you still have to read it, trust me the last pages will leave you so shocked you’ll be screaming and cursing.
So what do I have here for you? This is a work that I have been reading for more than 2 years. Don’t get me wrong. It’s only 20 chapters, but when I first started it there were only 9 chapters uploaded in English and Russian. It was by pure chance that I checked the website for updates on this particular title and got to know that apparently they uploaded all chapters. I was overjoyed and even forgot that it was already past 12. I needed to know how the story would end, and my expectations were not ruined. The author just put me through such a great shock and revelation I still doubt I read everything correctly. And trust me, I reread the last chapter for ore than 20 times in different languages. I even found it in Japanese to be sure that I got the last name correctly.
I have read a number of works by Haruko Kurumatani, but none of them were as deep and sadistic as this one. From the very first chapter until the end we only see the “love” once. And the idea that it does exist makes this story even crueler and asks the reader: “are you feeling this?” “What would you have done?” I remember every time I read the story (which was only half uploaded) I was always imagining how the author would turn it around and give us the love that she descried in the very beginning. Did she? That’s for you to find out. The only thing that I will say now is that the author explored the feelings of hatred and love so closely that it’s frightening. The cruelty, madness that is in Umi’s eyes is something that not many author or artists can recreate. He truly is a sadist and a madman. However, no matter what, if you do despise his character for tormenting Beniko, you can’t not share some of his madness. And that is what makes this story so frightening.
Author without any restraint explored the thin line between love and hatred and gives us a twisted form of love, which can also be called “true love”. Are you ready to explore this frighteningly beautiful world of mutual and unrequited love? Are you ready to meet the characters that will question your sanity numerous times in 20 chapters? If you are, the I’m sure you will enjoy this story. It is a fantastic piece of art and now that it is complete translated and uploaded there’s absolutely nothing that might hold you from reading and experiencing it.
Enjoy it to its fullest and don’t forget to share your thoughts below. Especially your thoughts on the last chapter. Who do you think it is Umi or Sora? Stay tuned for more reviews as well as promos. Don’t miss your next book or manga! Happy reading!
XOXO
Katie
What the hell did just happen? I don’t get this; seriously did he just lose his mind completely? No, I knew that Beniko was nuts, but her last statements made me feel like: “Ah, now she’s finally broken and will never be whole.” But, well, sorry for my outburst right now, but I really needed this, and if you have read this story, you do understand me, if you still have to read it, trust me the last pages will leave you so shocked you’ll be screaming and cursing.
So what do I have here for you? This is a work that I have been reading for more than 2 years. Don’t get me wrong. It’s only 20 chapters, but when I first started it there were only 9 chapters uploaded in English and Russian. It was by pure chance that I checked the website for updates on this particular title and got to know that apparently they uploaded all chapters. I was overjoyed and even forgot that it was already past 12. I needed to know how the story would end, and my expectations were not ruined. The author just put me through such a great shock and revelation I still doubt I read everything correctly. And trust me, I reread the last chapter for ore than 20 times in different languages. I even found it in Japanese to be sure that I got the last name correctly.
I have read a number of works by Haruko Kurumatani, but none of them were as deep and sadistic as this one. From the very first chapter until the end we only see the “love” once. And the idea that it does exist makes this story even crueler and asks the reader: “are you feeling this?” “What would you have done?” I remember every time I read the story (which was only half uploaded) I was always imagining how the author would turn it around and give us the love that she descried in the very beginning. Did she? That’s for you to find out. The only thing that I will say now is that the author explored the feelings of hatred and love so closely that it’s frightening. The cruelty, madness that is in Umi’s eyes is something that not many author or artists can recreate. He truly is a sadist and a madman. However, no matter what, if you do despise his character for tormenting Beniko, you can’t not share some of his madness. And that is what makes this story so frightening.
Author without any restraint explored the thin line between love and hatred and gives us a twisted form of love, which can also be called “true love”. Are you ready to explore this frighteningly beautiful world of mutual and unrequited love? Are you ready to meet the characters that will question your sanity numerous times in 20 chapters? If you are, the I’m sure you will enjoy this story. It is a fantastic piece of art and now that it is complete translated and uploaded there’s absolutely nothing that might hold you from reading and experiencing it.
Enjoy it to its fullest and don’t forget to share your thoughts below. Especially your thoughts on the last chapter. Who do you think it is Umi or Sora? Stay tuned for more reviews as well as promos. Don’t miss your next book or manga! Happy reading!
XOXO
Katie
October 5, 2016
ok i think i finally got the whole story there is 2 theories. the first is Beniko going through a mental melt down in her high school years. literally she goes crazy the person that actually died in the beginning was umi. So for Beniko to over come this trauma she created this false reality where Sora was the one who died and Umi was torturing her. once she overcame his death the false memories she created with Sora can now become a reality. The second theory is that umi became Sora, i am sure you guys notice how he always talking to himself as if he was talking to his brother and later on you see that he kind of wanted to be Sora , so he can be with Beniko so his whole torturing was his transition and fighting within himself. so 10 years later umi becomes Sora. i know my explanation is all over the place and isnt really clear but that is how i see it.
December 12, 2016
Whaaa?! What the heck just happened?! This CAN'T be the end!
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February 7, 2017Esto es en plan, viva el machismo, me encanta que me violen y me traten fatal, pero coño, que amable es este chico. En fin... Un manga super estúpido, plano, sin sentido, todo lo "arreglan" con sexo, en fin, una estupidez nivel After o 50 sombras.
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September 6, 2015cool
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June 2, 2016The ending made me feel like I'm on crack.
November 25, 2016
crazy
intense
depressing
heartwarming?
confusing
this book was all those and more, i could not put it down the moment i started it!
intense
depressing
heartwarming?
confusing
this book was all those and more, i could not put it down the moment i started it!
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