4-4.5 stars
This book was a mass improvement to the book previous in the series, A Whisper of Disgrace. This book jut fit more my expectations of what an intense, emotional romance should be. It was engaging all the way through, and I never found myself disconnected from the characters nor the story. I enjoyed very much especially with emotional stakes so high in this one, which added so much intensity to the story.
The beginning just dove right in and just didn't stop. It was interesting beginning, and I really like because it began in a way that I never saw before. Again in dropped into the action immediately with Zach having a panic attack at this big society wedding and was basically thrown back to his traumatic past. It wasn't until Lia approached and asked if he was okay out of concern for him then he snapped out of it and got back to reality. There were so many great things about that scene. For one, it showed how concerned Lia was for a stranger and she wanted to comfort him without second. Secondly it showed that Zach had some major emotional issues over a traumatic event that happened while he was in the surface, which meant that he had an uphill battle to get to his happily ever after. And thirdly, I really that this scene showed that Lia and Zach had connection right, and it wasn't just physical. They both emotional traumas that even though the traumas were completely different, they way they felt and reacted were very similar. Lia recognized it right away, and it made her feel like she wasn't alone in the world, and believed that they had that connection.
I liked how the emotional issues were explored in this book, and how they were to overcome. They both acted the way they did because of these issues. And they both experienced some raw and gut wrenching emotions along the way. For example with Lia, she felt unwanted all her life. Her father wanted nothing to do with her and shipped her to her grandparents. She barely saw her father or the rest of the family. She was an afterthought. So, all her life she never felt good enough or worthy of anything not even love. She didn't think she was attractive and surprised when Zach wanted her like did, but when Zach rejected her and said very hurtful things she was transported back to when her father abandoned her. And Zach did that a few times, and it really hurt her. And it was so painful and angsty that it was hard to look away. Zach rejected because he himself felt unworthy of her. So their pasts and emotional issues played a huge part in their developing romance.
As I said above, there was a lot of angst going on, and I loved that. With angst came lots of misunderstandings between the two. At times I wanted to shake them, but for the most part my heart broke for them. They both deserved to have love in their life and have a happy ending, but it wasn't easy. It was hard journey they went on and they needed to go on just like they needed one. This story showed how they were willing to fight for their relationship, but again it wasn't easy. Hence all the angst that just made the story so interesting and engrossing. I loved all the back forth between them as well as a range of emotions they went through. It was really a roller coaster ride with the ups and the downs that they went on. It was good, but very emotional. My heart cracked a little bit. But it was worth it in the end because they fought to be together.
Now I was surprised with how quickly they got to the bedroom action. If you have ever read my reviews in the past especially in Harlequin Presents, you would know I hate when love scenes happen too soon and also when it's two strangers going at. Usually for me I like a little build up to it, which increases sexual tension and angst. With this story I didn't hate that the scene happened so soon, and it didn't bother me as it usually would have. The reason being that they had that great part in the beginning where they connected on more than the physical. It was deeper than that, and she acknowledged it while Zach being a typical guy only focused on his desire for her, but he walked. Until they met again with him saving her and being hero that he didn't want to be. He took her to his room, and he tried to fight that pull to her. I liked seeing that conflict with himself over being with her at first. He didn't just fall on her and go at it. He tried to do the honorable thing, but he couldn't resist that pull to her. Even during the scene, he realized that being with her was different than anyone else had been. There was that connection that they had. I loved in that scene when he grabbed both of her hands and interlaced them together with his own while they were on the bed. That gesture alone just said so much me and showed that the first time was meaningful and special even though he tried to play it off later on. I wish more love scenes would have interlocking hands because it shows so much. Anyway my point being that because there was this special connection and closeness during their first time that it didn't bother me that they just met because their was an establishment that this wasn't just bout only the physical and only opportunity. They would have had this mind blowing connection with any one else. It could only happen between Lia and Zach because they understood each other. They needed each other. They were better together. It was a nice meaningful scene I thought.
Of coarse problems ensued after that, and Zach cold to Lia, and even though what he did wasn't right, I didn't think he was a jerk about it. Was he wrong to do what he did? Yes. Did I think he wanted to be cruel and hurt her? No. I really think he believed that he protecting her from himself. He thought he was a monster, but really he was broken man that needed heal. Lia made him realized he needed to heal in order to be with her. Though he came to realize it late in the book, it was what he needed. It was hard journey for him, but love made him fight for what he wanted and that was to get healthy again so he could be there for her. I liked being on that journey with him. Because he deserved love in his life, and I rooted for him. Was he perfect? No, but that's what made him human. It made him more real to me. It was just flat character on the page. He leapt off the page. I really enjoyed him as a character. He truly was a wounded hero and I just wanted to hug and hold him. Be there for him just Lia did. She wanted the man not the facade, and she learned loved the man. And he loved all of her. That's what made this beautiful love story.
My favorite parts in this book was when they were in Hawaii. It was the most romantic part of the book. They had romantic dinners. They spent time together and enjoyed that time together. They got to know each other. And they had some incredible lovemaking scenes during this time. This was where they got closer and started falling deeper and deeper for each other. I could feel their closeness grow and their bond deeper. The intimacy was really good, and I liked how it showed they were falling love. And their were those interlocking fingers again that just made me swoon. In fact all the little tender moments made me swoon. The setting was perfect. It was just romance in its purest form. I wished there was a little bit more romance and a couple more lovemaking scene here, but overall I was satisfied. I just enjoyed their time in Hawaii together.
I wish that both Lia and Zach confront their families over the issues they dealt with their entire lives. I understand because of length that it couldn't be that explored to a great depth, but I would have liked to have seen something and just how they were growing and moving on. That was a piece that could be in there just to show what they overcame through the course of the book. But again I know because of length it couldn't be there.
Overall I really enjoyed this book. It had great structure and bones to the story and mostly it was emotional. That was great. I could feel Lia and Zach inner turmoil but also their strength. Their love made them stronger. The connection was there from the moment they met. There were great angsty moments that pulled at the heart strings. There were sad heartbreaking moments that made me hurt for them and made me want to hug them. There were a few bright moments that put smile on my face and experienced such joy because they were happy together. There were tender moments that made me and felt very heartfelt. There were painful moments that made me hurt for both them. It was just an emotional roller coaster ride of a journey that I went on. I really liked both of the characters that were in the book. They were special and had a very special connection that was beautiful to witness. They passionate moments that was due to their connection and just brought them closer. They fit together well and truly belonged together. I rooted for them. Just this book felt ver unique and different with very interesting hooks to make for an engrossing and interesting love story. I enjoyed it.