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If You Die Before I Wake

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Sabrina Ryan wants to be an ordinary teenager - family, high school, maybe get a boyfriend. Instead she has Devon.

Devon is the blood thirsty monster that terrorized her dreams - a demonic little boy responsible for killing their parents. When she woke from the coma, she tried to tell everyone. Instead no one believed her and she got a ticket to a mental hospital.

Now seventeen, this intelligent, artistic, borderline-paranoid-schizophrenic is moving in with her grandfather and she’s determined to be normal, even if she doesn’t know what it means. But ordinary things, like ordering at a restaurant and trying to fit in, prove more difficult than she expected.

With no family - no friends - no sense of reality - and no cure for Devon, she decides she’s better off with no one, until she meets Riley. A captivating young bibliophile working for her grandfather, he knows more about her past than she’d like. Overwhelmed when things heat up quickly, they cool down fast when Sabrina learns he has a secret that threatens to tear them apart.

Artistic achievements, horrifying clowns and lucid dreaming propel IF YOU DIE BEFORE I WAKE on a fantastic ride of Technicolor evil and do-or-die determination. If Sabrina can figure it all out, she just might get the normal life she’s always wanted.

269 pages, Kindle Edition

First published October 26, 2012

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Michelle Frank

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Michelle Frank writes in the mountain rainforest of North Carolina, surrounded by hundreds of waterfalls and white squirrels. A strong believer in the power of positivity, she credits a lot of foolishness and downright bad decisions in making her writing career possible. When she's not making stuff up, she’s using her BFA to run a t-shirt shop with her incredible husband, learning how to put various foods into mason jars, and teaching her girls to love themselves as well as others. Her cats continue to use their telepathy in an attempt to infect her with writer's block, but her zombie dog keeps destroying their concentration.

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Profile Image for Lilac .
46 reviews42 followers
April 25, 2013
Ahh, completely forgot to review this! Well here it is now, and better late then never I guess :)

So, I really, really liked the story of this book. The plot was great. Every time I picked it up Sabrina's story sucked me in and I was no longer myself, I was Sabrina. If I read some of it in the morning then all through school I'd be trying to figure out this mystery of who Devon was. At first I thought it was a bit cliché having a girl who's been in a mental hospital most of her life and is haunted by a little boy. However, Michelle Frank made the idea her own, so that it was unlike other books from this genre.

What let this book down was the lack of editing. Within the first 30 pages I'd spotted about 5 mistakes, and they kept coming. A few sentences didn't make sense, and at one point I think there was a mix up of past and present tense. The many grammatical errors in it really let this book down, and had the story not been great I wouldn't have put up with these mistakes. There were less mistakes by the end, but for some readers the lack of editing in the beginning would have completely put them off.

Another little annoyance I had with If You Die Before I Wake was how fast Sabrina's relationship with a certain someone went. Within a week of her going on her first date she was acting as if she was in a long term relationship, and could think of nothing else. I can understand that it may have been her hormones catching up with her after years without ever seeing guys her own age, and when we learn about his story it makes sense that their relationship was going fast, but I still think it could have been slightly more realistically paced.

Other than that I thought the characters and their relationships with each other were great. You can really see the character development in Sabrina as she goes from a naïve girl from a mental home, to a fairly independent young woman. Michelle Frank does this wonderfully, with Sabrina changing slowly over the course of time. You can even see how all her experiences help her along the way, and that's one of the best things about this book. The other characters are realistic too, and I absolutely adored Sabrina's grandfather, who was so simple and sweet. I hope we still read about him in the second book in the series, even though Sabrina's growing up and won't need as much family support.

In summary: a wonderful book with a severe need of editing, and some great characters. I think I'll probably read the next one in the series, though there was enough closure in this one that I don't need to (another thing that's good that many books from a series don't have). I definitely recommend this book.


P.S. I received this book through Goodreads First Reads, though that does not affect my opinion on this book.

P.P.S. Thanks you very much to the author for the hand written note and the sticker :)
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86 reviews10 followers
March 1, 2013
oh dear Lord, I love this book so much. I actually stays up until late just to finish it. I can't put it down.

first thing first, the title itself is enough to captivated me. when I read the first page, I was right, I was quickly absorbed into Sabrina's world.

she is not a normal girl, she spends her life in mental institutions. but when she moved in with her grandfather, she begins to learn the truth about her nightmare, Devon.

the things I like, no I love about this book is :
the deep connection between Sabrina and Riley. their bonds is too strong. I was found myself worried many times whether their relationship will survive or not, and I perfectly happy with the ending. they were destined to be together *swooned*

and I love how the author keeps the story so real yet so imaginative. this is one of the best story I ever read about dream world.

and what I love next is this book takes me so deep within it, I could feel Sabrina's anxiety, worries, loves and the fear she feels about her nightmare.

trust me, this is one of the story that will make you refuse to put down the book and you'll find yourself reading it until the last page.
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68 reviews2 followers
January 26, 2013
Great book. Another NC author.
Sabrina's story captures you from the start. Every chapter leaves you wondering if Devon is real or not. Wondering if he's a vampire, the devil, or a figment of her imagination.
The "normal" teen drama is all too real and kind of funny.
I was not expecting the history between Riley and Sabrina and am glad the ending went the way it did.
This book has a combination of horror, teen drama, comedy, and romance in it.




Profile Image for Alisa.
44 reviews5 followers
March 6, 2013
I was given this book in exchange for an honest review.
This book has a very interesting plot. Sabrina has spent the majority of her life locked in a psych ward where she was constantly told she was crazy. Now she is out and living in the real world with her grandfather, Carl. It is very interesting to read about her having to adjust to the way things work. Things we don’t even think about are things that she does not understand; in fact her first obstacle is trying to order food at a restaurant. In lock up the kids are not given any choices in life and having a menu with multiple choice makes her have an anxiety attack. Even something as simple as being able to go outside and choosing where she can go causes her a lot of anxiety.
Sabrina has horrific dreams in which her older brother Devon is always demon-like and killing people. The most prominent of these dreams is the one in which she sees the plane crash which killed her whole family and it is caused by Devon killing the pilots. These dreams are why she has been locked up the majority of her life. After Sabrina goes to live with her grandfather she still has these dreams but instead of being the same few dreams she begins to dream of strangers and new acquaintances being killed. Throughout the story Devon is always so scary for Sabrina despite everyone saying he isn’t real. The problem is that the dreams Sabrina is having start coming true which makes it seem that Devon must be real.
Then Riley comes in to her life and helps her to cope with her new world. Riley is a friend and employee of Sabrina’s grandfather and the two of them are drawn to each other immediately. He helps her to readjust to the world but he also has secrets of his own that tie him to Sabrina. Their relationship is very sweet and he is just the person Sabrina needs to help her heal.
I really enjoyed much of the book. Sabrina is a great character and you can’t help but be drawn in to her story emotionally. She has so much to overcome once she is out in the real world and the things that cause her the most anxiety are things that most of us wouldn’t think twice about. The relationship between Sabrina and her grandfather, Carl, is very sweet. Here is this older man who has been single most of his life and he agrees to take in the granddaughter he has never met and who is ‘crazy’. He provides her with both a home and a family. It is very endearing to see him become a real grandfather to Sabrina. The thing I enjoyed the most about the book was Devon. Even at the end of the book you are left wondering if he is real or just a figment of Sabrina’s imagination. It leaves you wanting a sequel so that you can find out the real story of Devon.
While I enjoyed this book and its unique story there were definitely some issues that I had with the book. The first and most prominent is the fact that the book could really use more editing. There were several instances where it seemed that the author was trying to rewrite a sentence but did not remove all of the words that needed to go. Even a simple reading of the new sentence should have been enough to spot the problems. The other issue I had with the book has to do with content. I am very conservative and believe that teen books should not have adult themes. This book contains a lot of extreme language and the relationship between Riley and Sabrina is very sexual. I understand that this does not bother most people but to me it takes away from the story. I believe if the author took some time to at least do another edit the book could be much better.
33 reviews
October 3, 2014
Ahh, completely forgot to review this! Well here it is now, and better late then never I guess :)

So, I really, really liked the story of this book. The plot was great. Every time I picked it up Sabrina's story sucked me in and I was no longer myself, I was Sabrina. If I read some of it in the morning then all through school I'd be trying to figure out this mystery of who Devon was. At first I thought it was a bit clich�� having a girl who's been in a mental hospital most of her life and is haunted by a little boy. However, Michelle Frank made the idea her own, so that it was unlike other books from this genre.

What let this book down was the lack of editing. Within the first 30 pages I'd spotted about 5 mistakes, and they kept coming. A few sentences didn't make sense, and at one point I think there was a mix up of past and present tense. The many grammatical errors in it really let this book down, and had the story not been great I wouldn't have put up with these mistakes. There were less mistakes by the end, but for some readers the lack of editing in the beginning would have completely put them off.

Another little annoyance I had with If You Die Before I Wake was how fast Sabrina's relationship with a certain someone went. Within a week of her going on her first date she was acting as if she was in a long term relationship, and could think of nothing else. I can understand that it may have been her hormones catching up with her after years without ever seeing guys her own age, and when we learn about his story it makes sense that their relationship was going fast, but I still think it could have been slightly more realistically paced.

Other than that I thought the characters and their relationships with each other were great. You can really see the character development in Sabrina as she goes from a na��ve girl from a mental home, to a fairly independent young woman. Michelle Frank does this wonderfully, with Sabrina changing slowly over the course of time. You can even see how all her experiences help her along the way, and that's one of the best things about this book. The other characters are realistic too, and I absolutely adored Sabrina's grandfather, who was so simple and sweet. I hope we still read about him in the second book in the series, even though Sabrina's growing up and won't need as much family support.

In summary: a wonderful book with a severe need of editing, and some great characters. I think I'll probably read the next one in the series, though there was enough closure in this one that I don't need to (another thing that's good that many books from a series don't have). I definitely recommend this book.


P.S. I received this book through Goodreads First Reads, though that does not affect my opinion on this book.

P.P.S. Thanks you very much to the author for the hand written note and the sticker :)
26 reviews3 followers
September 6, 2016
All Sabrina Ryan wants is to be normal. Normal, however, is a lofty goal for a girl who spent two years in a coma and then grew up in a mental hospital because of her dreams of Devon. Devon is the blood thirsty monster that terrorizes her dreams - a demonic little boy responsible for killing their parents.
At seventeen, Sabrina has a chance at a normal life when she moves in with her grandfather. However, she has to learn what normal means first. Ordinary things, like ordering at a restaurant and trying to fit in, prove more difficult than she expected.
On top of adjusting to high school, discovering her talent for painting, and dealing with Devon's mischief; Sabrina quickly becomes enamored with Riley, a handsome bibliophile working for her grandfather. Somehow though, Riley knows far too much about her dreams.

Unfortunately, I was a little disappointed with this book. I liked the idea of the story, but because of the execution I couldn't appreciate it fully. Sabrina Ryan has been haunted by a demonic boy all her life-her deceased brother. Initially, the brother, Devon, made me fear that this story would be dreadfully cliche but the author put her own creative spin on the demonic child. However, If You Die Before I Wake is sorely in need of an editor. There were numerous typos, grammatical errors, and occasional switches in tense that were distracting and almost caused me to give up on the book. In addition to the errors, an apparent aversion to complex sentences made the writing style choppy and awkward at times. Also, I found both the dialogue and the fast paced relationship between Sabrina and Riley unbelievable. I really wanted to like this one, but I couldn't believe in the characters and there were too many distractions from the story for me.
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464 reviews34 followers
October 27, 2015
I received a free copy of this story in exchange for an honest review.

I enjoyed this story. I enjoyed the aspect of using dreams and mental illness as a vehicle to advance the fear that the author is trying to arouse in the reader. It is a common vehicle, but it is used well and effectively.

I appreciate the characterization of Sabrina as she begins to try and interact with a world from which she has been separated for nearly all her formative years. The child-like way she approaches tasks that the reader most likely takes for granted is well illustrated; the most "normal" of tasks seem daunting for Sabrina and luckily she has Riley to hopefully make her fit in a little bit better.

Her friendship with Riley was odd for me at first as it was a little too immediate, but he has a backstory that helps smooth that over some. However, I would think that with Sabrina's past, there would be a little more reluctance to admit someone, even Riley, into her confidence so quickly.

I was intrigued by the mystery of Devon. It is difficult to discern exactly what or who Devon is: Is he a delusion from Sabrina's mind? Is he some paranormal influence in Sabrina's life? Can he hurt her or those she loves?

Overall, I liked the story. I was drawn to the scary story, although I wouldn't put this book in the "terror" category, it is haunting. The writer's style is choppy in places and could use some polishing, but she accomplishes the telling of the story sufficiently here.
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28 reviews8 followers
April 27, 2013
**I received this book from the author, via Goodreads, in exchange for an honest review**

First, let me say that I really enjoyed reading this story. I think that mental illness, in general is often misdiagnosed and misunderstood. I liked the way the author used Sabrina's so-called mental illness to convey her story. The story is believable enough that I could see someone being misdiagnosed as mentally ill vs. having precognitive dreams, b/c society in general is willing to accept that a person is crazy, but NOT that the human mind has the ability to do things we may not always understand.

I would have liked to have known a little more about Devon, such as what previous waking event would have made Sabrina so willing to believe that he was evil. I also felt like I was missing something with the backstory of her life. I just couldn't put my finger on it.

I also think that the instant willingness to share so much with Riley, so fast, was not as believable, considering that she was so private with everyone else. I loved how the author took the effort to describe the characters in such a way that I got a good picture of them in my mind.

I am really hoping that this story continues with another book, because I am curious to see how these characters develop. I am also very curious about whether Devon is truly evil, and haunting Sabrina. Overall, this was a fun, easy read, and I felt that it would be appropriate for an older teen.
435 reviews8 followers
April 25, 2013
the author allows you into the dreams of a so called "crazy" girl and lets you see into her world and joins her real world with her dream world. I know of people that have had premonitional dreams and this read is just wild could there are so many things in this world we dont understand and this read could actually be real in someones world it was a wonderful read and many times you ask yourself what if and the author tends to answer those questions...
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66 reviews2 followers
June 22, 2014
First I have to take one star away for all the typos! By instead of my, no S on a plural word, no I when the character is talking in first person. That is very distracting and took me right out of the story. The story is good but the ending fell flat for me. The relationship between Bree and Rylee felt unrealistic. It was a good story that could have been great with some tweaking.
Profile Image for Taylor.
435 reviews33 followers
July 19, 2013
Intense and pretty terrifying at times.

I like the main character and I felt like her issues are what really drew me into reading this. The plot moves quickly and the demons Sabrina fights are interesting and gruesome.
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