I want to preface this review by saying that the majority of my Manga collection was brought while I was in college, as I realised, I prefer MM romance to most other genres. I'm an MM romance, Fantasy, and Sci-fi girl, though I still read different genres, including MF romances. However, at the time I purchased this book, I had not yet settled on what my preferences were, and I can certainly tell you now that had I seen this book in store today, I would not have brought it.
Now, despite my choosing not to buy it, should I find it in the store now, I have no doubt had the author and artist taken out certain parts, this romance would have been lovely, two childhood sweethearts, both harbouring secret feelings to one another and coming to that slow realisation that they loved each other would have been adorable.
Tozaki is a sweet man, pretty with dark hair and a lithe form. As with most of my manga books, I admire the artwork, it is very elegant and striking, as all manga is, and I've attempted with varying success to copy such beautiful art styles though mine always look a little messy in comparison. He works for a magazine, later we find out a former lover got him this gig and it is revealed that said former lover still harbours feelings for Tozaki.
Kurata our love interest, is pretty much the dominant of this book. Although almost the same height, Tozaki's demeanour is a little more timid and shy compared to Kurata, granted this is not always a tell and sometimes the man who looks like he is the submissive can be a dom and other relationships have both men swapping rolls so neither is just the giver or receiver, but I digress, in this book we can tell Kurata is the dom.
Now initially we have a relationship where both mutually desire one another, Tozaki is in this relationship because he wants to know what it would be like to have a relationship with his crush and Kurata is initially only in it for the sex but he has repressed feelings for Tozaki that only get more complicated as the book goes on.
So far so good, right? Well, not really, because Tozaki is starting to realise this status quo can't continue, he loves Kurata and it is only hurting him to not have those feelings returned and to be used just for a night of pleasure every time Kurata fancies getting his rocks off. Kurata is calling the shots, phoning Tozaki and inviting himself over whenever he so fancies and despite Tozaki's weak protests, they always end up in the same position.
No, even a hesitant protest, always means no. Kurata should not have pushed the issue and when he finds out about Tozaki's former lover and how Tozaki works for/with his former lover, Kurata does the unthinkable. Instead of talking like an adult, of telling Tozaki about his developing feelings and jealousy, he instead forces himself upon Tozaki. Now, we have Kurata regretting this action but this feels too easily forgiven and with Kurata's previous manipulations and coercion, this entire relationship is just toxic.
I like the art, I like Tozaki's character, but this book has crossed a line I don't agree with. Like with all other books with this trope I've read, I cannot give it more than two stars and those two stars are just because of the art and Tozaki's character. Like with God of Malice by Rina Kent, ACOTAR by Sarah J Mass and so many others, once a line is crossed the stars are lost and a book gets a bad review. Because rape, manipulation and coercion are not okay and no healthy relationship can come from such conniving and toxic behaviour, and such toxic behaviour should never be glamorised, not even in fiction.