病隙碎笔

by Shi Tiesheng

《病隙碎笔》（第3版）几乎是一个爱好科普知识的耶稣，一篇可以在教堂管风琴乐声中间读的童话，是一种在尘世中重建天国的艰巨努力。他用生动而通俗甚至是优美的语言追寻和探索了关于我们人生的已知和未知的道理：人生、命运、爱情、金钱、道义、信仰，健康的心态、成功的途径和价值、孩子的教育、家庭的纽带……

Genres: Nonfiction

256 pages, Kindle Edition

First published December 1, 2002

Reviews

[吕不理 · Rating 5 out of 5]

史铁生的坦诚最打动我。朴素有力而美 一点都不会令我疑心巧言令色。我喜欢他谈人生 命运 和爱情。或许是高中喜欢的作家 我的很多观念不知是凑巧了不谋而合 还是潜移默化被塑造呢 不过这不重要。前儿自己跑去潭柘寺 往返仨小时打不住 在寺庙中我细细看了每一个眉眼低垂满面慈悲的巨大佛像 却迟迟许不出心愿来。我想 我会主动扑向我的命运的。

爱情不说了 我不懂 读着令人向往。“你要爱就要像一个痴情的恋人那样去爱，像一个忘死的梦者那样去爱，视他人之疑目如盏盏鬼火，大胆去走你的夜路。”

[Daisy · Rating 5 out of 5]

真正的信心前面其实是一片空旷，除了希望什么也没有，想要也没有。

[Barty (Bartholomew) Wu · Rating 5 out of 5]

这是书评第一段，在快看完的时候写的：
这本书的主题是“爱”在“生命”中扮演的角色。对“爱”的力量及必要性的论述不是特别缜密，甚至不太能说服我。能继续读这本书更多是希望自己可以相信史铁生的话。希望可以变成一个和他价值观一致、在爱面前认真、真诚地生活的人。主要论点本质上是：人既有限，不如对无限（神在、爱、崇高的精神、永恒的信息） 低头。信神等于对自己的反思，因为神在的完美看到人的残缺，接受它并且通过忏悔走向神在。艺术本质上是一种“偷看”。

看完整本以后写的完整书评：
《病隙碎笔》的纸质版是从亲友brian那边拿到的。一开始因为是非文学作品看不太下去，到后面越来越精彩。史铁生说，爱是神给予人类自救的方式。在这个浩瀚无际的历史长河里，唯一永恒的事物就是爱。我一开始对他的论点嗤之以鼻；把他的文章拿来当学术性论述来看确实不够硬核。但是想想，至少对我这个读者来说，“爱”的必要性根本不需要被论述。这是我和brian之间对话的一个小小片段：

“我发现我妈妈给我的爱拯救了我 小时候生病差点死掉救了我的命 现在也在一直拯救我…… 我活在这个世界上就是被爱拯救的事实”

毕竟爱是人类拥有最美好的东西。人类活在这个世界上无非就是去通过“爱”寻找人生的意义，而人生的乐趣在于真诚生活的同时去寻找意义的过程。

如果是一个月前问我的话，我会说，人生无非就是拿自己的“有限”和世界上所有“无限”的美好抗衡。《病隙碎笔》提到的世界观和我之前的有点像，但是又完全不一样。史铁生说，与其和“无限”抗衡，不如向着它奔跑，求一份智慧去接受人的不足，去忏悔，接近所谓“美好”。

第一段里面写错了。因为没看完，误以为史铁生最后的落脚点在“读者们应该用我这一套价值观生活！”，因此到处挑他的毛病。看到最后发现，史铁生写这本书大概是为了给读者悄悄地打开一扇门，让我们踏上“寻找意义”、“学会爱”和“忏悔”的路。意义什么的还是要我们自己找。“勿期圆满”。

[Ares · Rating 4 out of 5]

这本书令我思绪万千。阅读的过程中心中充满了希望。似乎向前走的道路也有了方向和希望，那就是提问，思考，一直走，不必求得圆满，一直聆听。

[Barack Liu · Rating 4 out of 5]

069- Essays Composed during Illness-Shi Tiesheng-Essay-2002
Barack

—— "I opened a book and a soul awoke."

" Essay in the pain", first published in China in 2002. An essay collection. It discusses some eternal topics in life, such as life, destiny, love, faith, etc.

Shi Tiesheng, born in Beijing in 1951, died in 2010. In 1969, Shi Tiesheng returned to Beijing from the rural Yan'an in northern Shaanxi for treatment of lumbar and leg disease. In 1971, the back pain worsened and he returned to Beijing to treat the disease again. In 1973, they began a wheelchair career. In 1981, he went home to convalescence due to kidney disease and began to write.

In 1998, Shi Tiesheng was diagnosed with uremia. Representative works: "Me and the Temple of Earth", " Essay in the pain ", "Reminder Notes", "Ming Ruo Qin Xian"

If we look at this world in a wheelchair, what does she look like? If we have experienced going to the countryside and going to the countryside, how will our views of her be affected?

The youth of a generation is like a mottled sun, sprinkled on the ground, separated from each other by the leaves above the head, most of them are not connected, and some are just related because of one reason or another, they are entangled from beginning to end.

What is love? Yes, we all believe that sex is not just love. But subtract sex from it, is love still love? of course not. That cannot be separated. So, what is love? There is a large part of our lives, and, inevitably, we walked through in our imagination. Imagine it on an occasional but necessary network knot, as if looking at stars over a distance of tens of thousands of light-years.

The past, the past life, is divided into two types. One is unaware, they are all gone, and even talking about them is no longer possible. Another kind of life that is realized is that it really exists, and then it is preserved as a carrier of meaning.

If you do not tell a person where his destination is, he may give up after walking 10 kilometers. But if he was told where his destination was, he might be able to stick to 100 kilometers. And those who do not know where the endpoint is, but can still insist on 100 kilometers. What kind of tenacious willpower and firm confidence should this have?

No matter what the starting point of such firm confidence is faith that wants to continue to live. Still pious to faith. This is an extremely huge spiritual force. He may not be able to overcome matter. But he can guarantee that he will not be destroyed by matter.

The greatest resistance one can make to the suffering in fate. Probably just keep on life and struggle. As long as he is alive, suffering cannot make him succumb. And when he loses his life, suffering can no longer impose his will on him. This may also be a certain degree of victory.

My friend D likes the game The Sims. D used to kill the villain in the game for some time. I find this interesting. I did not like this approach, and I tried to advise D not to do it.

If there is a certain kind of will that is beyond the soul. Isn't the individual in humans similar to a character in the Sims for the player? Not to mention that the player cannot feel the heart of this virtual character. Even if he felt it, would he have the slightest pity on this virtual character?

Perhaps for gamers, only the same existence as he can be regarded as a kind in his mind, and it is worth his sympathy, compassion, and help. How can he regard the virtual character he created as life?

Similarly, if God exists. Will human beings or other creatures do not count as life in their eyes? It is similar to something made up or a standardized product. How could he have similar emotions for his creation? I don’t think so.

Le Bon described the fanatical emotions of the group in the "The crowd". Groups that come together can exert tremendous building power, but they can also produce shocking destructive behavior. It is usually produced with a clear leader, but its development can easily exceed the forecast of the controller. Even the controller himself may be infected by this huge power, and alienation may occur.

So, in the end, is it the people who control the new will that arises from this group? Or does the latter control the former? This beast-like will was first subordinated to the leader. Later, by influencing the leader, he gradually revealed his true intentions.

What our souls are looking for in life is the connection with other similar souls. It would be unbearable to lack such a connection throughout life. So, we can't live alone without family, friendship, and love.

Sometimes I can’t help but imagine that there are many players in a certain place, they start this game of Sims, the soul is sealed into a mortal body, and a reincarnation begins. When his body perishes, the system will play the wonderful picture of this game for him at the end of his life. Then the soul returns to the bodies of these players. A game is a reincarnation.

Or we can also say that the most important things in life are two things, which are attribute and spiritual attributes. Matters are limited, and without them, we cannot survive. But they are also limited and basic. The soul is not necessary, but it is important, which is probably as important as the salt in food.

Without salt in the food, you can fill your stomach, but it tastes like chewing wax. The soul is not satisfied but only survives in a pure material. That may not be a joy.

Perhaps the focus of life is not on the destination but on the process of pursuing the destination. When we arrived at our destination, we either felt it was not as good as we thought. Either think it's better than expected now, but quickly get used to it or even get bored. Perhaps it is the happiest only on the road towards it with confidence?

Achieving each goal is like an outpost on the way before reaching heaven. We were slightly satisfied when we arrived at the outpost and set off again before this satisfaction has declined. No matter how long our lifespan is, we will never reach the ultimate place. Die in this steadfast pilgrimage full of confidence. Perhaps it is the greatest happiness humans can have.

The physical body does not pursue spiritual things. It does not need freedom or dreams. It only needs water, air, food, and sex. But I think that people live not just to meet the needs of the flesh. This is one of the significant differences between humans and beasts.

Even though many healthy people do not have physical defects, we do not have this kind of disability psychologically, just to varying degrees? We are always worried that our actions and behaviors will not be appreciated or appreciated by others. It seems that Handan is learning to walk, gradually forgetting his inner voice. It seems as if his entire life was born to gain praise from those around him.

The so-called rare confused. We sometimes cannot control ourselves to think about these issues. I'm thinking that if we don't have the urge to think about these issues from the bottom of our hearts, we may live more comfortably. Although the search process can occasionally receive some gifts, most of the time struggled with contradictions.

What a painful consciousness of struggling consciousness is for it. In a house about to catch fire. It’s so sad to be woken up but unable to get out.

I am very interested in such computer software. People always lack enough enthusiasm for their own lives but are interested in the lives of others instead. Therefore, with the existence of human beings, the desire for stories will not disappear.

Due to physical limitations, we may not have visited many places, many things have not been experienced, many people have not communicated. But wherever the soul is, there is no border. From ancient times to modern times, it travels 100,000 miles. Our soul can be included in the entire universe.

Taking a step back, even our self-righteous spiritual power is an illusion. That is, what I think so is that the creator who created me wants me to think so. But if this is both a foregone conclusion, then a non-negative face is also a fact, and a positive face is also a fact, so why not actively face it?

We have been searching for the rest of our lives, some people know what they are looking for, some people think they know what they are looking for, and some people do not know what they are looking for but believe that they can find it in the future. critical.

If one's life is filled with work. After finishing work every day, he enters the trunk at night. I just want to drag my tired body to sleep. How is this kind of life different from farming? The night is coming, the material is far away from us, this time should be the time when the soul power rises and the freedom spreads.

One can only evaluate the behavior of another person, but he cannot evaluate his heart. When we artificially create deities and make false gods perform priesthood to evaluate people's hearts, it is easy to generate power.

Freud further divided "I" into id, self, and superego. The desperate self seeks satisfaction and pleasure. The ego is the individual's perception of his existence. The superego evolved from suppressing instinct requirements.

The god in the author's eyes represents infinite and absolute. The gods in "King of Light", "Chronicles of the Earth", and even "Mythology of Ancient Greece" are more like people with powerful forces, and they are still limited.

The flesh is material, such as physical fitness, strength, and health. The spirit also depends on the material, such as good or bad memory, strong and weak insight, and chaos, and a clear mind. But the soul is immaterial. The soul of a person with a strong body and spirit may not be noble. The soul of a weak and mentally chaotic person may not be humble.

What is the basis of judgment for the superiority of the soul? What is the significance of soul cultivation? For the previous question, I think human beings are not qualified to judge. One can judge the strength of another person's physical quality and spiritual strength, but he cannot judge his soul.

So only you know what your soul looks like. As for the latter question, I think that our pursuit of the soul is to find a way out of the material limitations. Mankind awakened from ignorance and realized that he would suffer suffering and death. How terrible this ability to predict the future?

If we don't have this ability, we can live like a beast in peace and contentment. However, we do not know whether it is lucky or unfortunate, we have this ability to predict our destiny. It makes us shrouded in the shadow of misery and death all day long, worrying about its negligence. At this time, we can only turn to the soul.

We need some kind of power higher than material to comfort our horrified heart. So that when we know the ending of the story, we can walk toward it without turning back.

Science enables us to understand the physical world that imprisons souls. Art is our attempt to explore the possibility of transcending the material.

I think life may be like a wave. Throughout the ages, individual individuals, like water molecules shaking on the spot. The interaction of water molecules forms a ripple, but the ripple itself is not a water molecule.

I have seen some proponents of creationism use the strangeness of nature as an argument to prove the existence of God. I can hardly judge right from wrong. But I know that nature itself deserves to be called a miracle. As for whether it came from the interesting hand of God or the unconscious probability theory, it is difficult for me to judge.

Perhaps the pursuit of GDP as the country ’s first task may not be correct, but the problem is that this is a vicious circle. As long as some countries do not take this as their first goal, it will lag behind other countries and suffer unfair treatment.

And for the country that has become the first, it must ensure its leading position through more powerful material strength. So, where will this economic arm-race ultimately lead mankind?

There is a Tiesheng Hall in the school. I initially thought it had anything to do with Shi Tiesheng. Later, after inspection, it was discovered that it was built by the alumni Qin Benjian of the 1938 and Sun Yuying and his wife to commemorate Mr. Sun Tiesheng, the father of Ms. Yuying.

This book uses a lot of space to discuss issues of faith, divinity, and God. I don't know whether Shi Tiesheng believes in Christianity, but at least I can see that he quite agrees with the teachings of Christianity.

When I read the Old Testament and the New Testament, I was confused. God draws people with miracles and scares them with punishment. Is this any different from the power in the world? Obedient to me, I promise glory, health, and wealth. Those who do not obey me will be destroyed.

Then the believers obtained in this way, whether it is to redeem the suffering of this life, or to pursue the kingdom of heaven after death, or to escape the punishment of the judgment day. Isn't this all like a bribe lured by interests?

The author has also considered this issue. He believes that true faith is not greed for benefits or fear. True faith pursues a path, firm confidence, and the other side that cannot be reached.

Christianity's view of God is similar to Laozi's view of Tao, Confucius' view of man, and Sakyamuni's view of Bodhi. These ultimate meanings are extremely vague. The believers firmly believe that it exists, but at the same time it is not any real thing. It transcends time, space, and individual.

This reminds me of the theory of the constant speed of light. The special theory of relativity points out that no matter what inertial frame (inertial frame of reference) is observed, the speed of light propagation in a vacuum is a constant and does not change with the relative movement of the light source and the reference frame of the observer.

The ultimate truth pursued by Buddhism and Confucianism, and the God of Christian belief, are invisible and intangible, and cannot be directly defined in words. Humans can only describe it laterally, but all the description is not itself. It's like a blind man touching an elephant. Those who have not seen the elephant can only speculate on the whole picture of the elephant through a description. But each description is not like itself.

Sometimes I can't help but be confused. Everyday life is exhausting. Why do we have to spend precious time and energy to think about these things that are not helpful in real life? Even if it can bring some psychological comfort, isn't it a thing where the input-output ratio is too small?

That being the case, why don't we just be purely physical people, and think about these questions that have no answers, neither satisfying the appetite nor obtaining assurance? Where did this restless seed come from? How did it sprout?

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[Yvonne123 · Rating 4 out of 5]

Not very impressed

[Yvonne · Rating 4 out of 5]

睡前读物。随笔的风格非常容易没有context的阅读 很适合我这种不定期阅读记性又不好的人
探讨了很多有趣的人生问题 有点像高阶的知乎回答

[Vera]

not my type

[Gioia Jin · Rating 5 out of 5]

史老师的文笔令我惊叹 人与人之间的交往与爱都直击心灵

“当它熄灭着走下山去收尽苍凉残照之际，正是它在另一面燃烧着爬上山巅布散烈烈朝辉之时”

“我站在今天设想过去又幻想未来，过去和未来在今天随意交叉，因而过去和未来都刮着现在的风”

“爱，本就是自卑弃暗投明的时刻”

[Sinan · Rating 4 out of 5]

前两部分讲性与爱，一直在“我觉得”“私以为”，不爱看。后面渐入佳境，不断用疑问来叩开观察世界的窗口。无论是讲生或死，神或天命，都是如此的灵巧，这一颗颤抖的、身陷囹圄的心魂在追问。在追问“这到底怎么了？人类究竟怎么了？这世界到底怎么了？”
或爱或恨或神或鬼或信仰或罪恶都作罢，就去追问吧！追问的尽头世界自会浮现。

[Yiwei · Rating 4 out of 5]

一开始对宗教部分无感，有弃书的念头了，到第六卷才开始喜欢起来，阅后心态的转变可能是对当下拥有的一切而心怀感恩了，比以往更相信爱、信念的力量了。

[XUE · Rating 5 out of 5]

没想到史老师这么的存在主义...这本书超乎意料的好。充满哲思但又非常接地气。

喜欢的段落太多，借此摘抄一段：

“人即残缺，因而苦难是永恒的。 非人之所愿，恰神之所为。因此，信仰就可能有了非同凡响的方向。看见苦难的永恒，实在是神的垂怜。惟此才能真正断除迷执, 相信爱才是人类惟一的救助。 这爱,不单是友善、 慈悲、助人为乐, 它根本是你自己的福。这爱, 非居高的施舍, 乃谦恭地仰望, 接受苦难, 从而走向精神的超越。这样的信仰 是众妙之门。其妙之一: 这样的一己之福人人可为, 因此它又是众生之福。不是人人可以无苦无忧,但人人都可因爱的信念而有福。其妙之二: 不许诺实际的福乐, 只给人以智慧、 勇气和无形的爱的精神。这, 当然就不是人际可以争夺的地位, 而是每个人独对苍天的敬畏与祈祷。其妙之三: 天堂既非一处终点, 而是一条无终的阪依之路, 这样, 天堂之门就不可能由一二强人去把守, 而是每个人直接地谛听与领悟, 因信称义, 不要谁来做神的代办。再有, 人既看见了自身的残缺, 也就看见了神的完美, 有了对神的敬畏、 感恩与赞叹, 由是爱才可能指 向万物生灵” 。”

《病隙碎笔》之《造人为神》

[Liya Wu · Rating 5 out of 5]

this is a book writer is telling his thought from his own experience and reflection from life, philosophy, and religion. Good to keep read, and maybe a great book to bring with you in your hand bag for leisure time,especially travelling (for me).

[j11x · Rating 5 out of 5]

在这本书里看到了他超越躯体和精神的限制一步一步走向灵魂自由的过程～ 喜欢史铁生温柔又有力量的文字，喜欢这种随笔，喜欢他跳跃的思维，喜欢他对于人生、疾病、死亡、以及信仰的哲思。