5 ✰
“𝒀𝒐𝒖’𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒆,” 𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒔𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚. “𝒀𝒐𝒖’𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒚 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚, 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒂𝒄𝒉𝒆, 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒖𝒓𝒅𝒆𝒏. 𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆, 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒐𝒏 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒖𝒔, 𝒚𝒐𝒖’𝒓𝒆 𝒇𝒖𝒄𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒆, 𝑳𝒆𝒐.”
I binged this book last night and finished it this morning and what an emotional, heart-wrenching, poignant, moving, gripping, and cathartic experience it was.
There is not a single thing I would change about this book or any criticism I have for Jesse and Leo’s story. Marley Valentine wrote one of the most heartbreakingly beautiful love stories I have ever read and it was such a privilege to be taken into the minds and depths of these characters through their journey of grief, turmoil, pain, loss, hopelessness, and then getting to see them slowly but surely reconcile, heal and start finding light, clarity, and hope again from the never-ending darkness they had been living in.
Jesse and Leo have an otherworldly kind of love. The type of love you wish, hope, and pray to have one day because it is just so powerful, life-changing, beautiful, awe-inspiring, feels bigger than life, and just so raw and real; though not without its faults and extremely difficult and challenging times.
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“𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝑱𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒆𝒙𝒑𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝑰 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒚𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇. 𝑯𝒆’𝒔 𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒐𝒏𝒆, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰’𝒗𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒉𝒊𝒎, 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒔𝒏’𝒕 𝒂 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑰 𝒘𝒐𝒏’𝒕 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑 𝒉𝒊𝒎.“
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The mental health rep in the book was done with so much care and appreciation and as difficult as it was to read Leo’s downward spiral and his living with serious depression for over a year, stemming from experiencing the most devastating loss to him, his husband Jesse, and their family, I felt Marley put the extra time and effort into doing his journey justice and his character arc was written with so much grace, compassion, while still holding him accountable for his actions and the consequences that came from them; especially when he starts to realize his part in the destruction of his marriage and wanting to start changing his unhealthy coping mechanisms, finally participating in therapy and getting the proper help he needed from the beginning, and just overall, seeing him determined to mend himself and the fractures that were created between Jesse and their daughter Raine—who he has neglected severely over the past year.
Finally, seeing Leo be a rock for Jesse—who has been the family caretaker, provider, and bearer of all the pain they have endured—and letting Jesse at last, break and grieve the way he was never able to because he needed to keep Leo afloat all the while he kept drowning in silence was such a powerful moment between the two of them and had me unwell!🥲
The last 30% of the book had me ugly crying (what else is new) and seeing Leo and Jesse live in their HEA when it seemed impossible the majority of the book was what my battered heart needed.❤️🩹
The past chapters were a soothing balm for the pain the present chapters brought and I’m so happy we got that insight into Leo and Jesse’s beginning and so many heartwarming moments between them as well.
This is a book I will remember for a long time and Jesse and Leo are a new top fictional couple for me. Jesse’s unwavering, selfless love and determination to not let Leo go and continue to fight for their marriage till the end when Leo had given up and let his self-sabotaging take over and win was a level of stubbornness and unrelenting will I didn’t know I needed to read about but was EVERYTHING and more, ughh I just love him and Leo so much!!!!
❥ One last quote to perfectly sum up their all-consuming and unreal love:
⁀➷ “𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝑰’𝒍𝒍 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒍𝒆𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒈𝒐 𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒇 𝑰’𝒎 𝒔𝒊𝒙 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒕 𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓.” 𝑰 𝒈𝒍𝒊𝒅𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒊𝒑 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚 𝒏𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒕𝒉 𝒐𝒇 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒏𝒂𝒑𝒆, 𝒆𝒏𝒋𝒐𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒊𝒕𝒄𝒉 𝒊𝒏 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒉 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒃𝒐𝒅𝒚 𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒕 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒆. “𝑰𝒕’𝒔 𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒅𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒉 𝒅𝒐 𝒖𝒔 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕, 𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒚. 𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒆’𝒓𝒆 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒉 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆.”
excuse me while I cry myself to sleep tonight thinking about Jesse saying this to Leo. 😭🫠🦋😫❤️😫
p.s. I will need 3-5 business days to recover from this book.
p.p.s. the bonus epilogue was the cutest and sweetest thing ever and getting a glimpse at Leo and Jesse’s wedding day was the cherry on top of their perfectly imperfect cake.🥹🤭