Don't fall in love. Hide and you'll make it through.
The last thing on Esther Dunja’s mind is falling in love. Her goal is to keep her head down and slide through the next twelve years until her son graduates. After being run out of the last school she taught at by her ex, Esther needs to make this new teaching job work. It’s her last chance to retain custody. The problem is she never anticipated falling for her son’s kindergarten teacher.
Melanie Przybyla is a single mom to four grown kids, and she finally has time for herself—or so she thought. With family drama on the rise and a new teacher in her school that she can’t stop thinking about, Melanie comes to a startling realization. She’s attracted to women. She just has to figure out why Esther Dunja is so terrified and how she can date her student’s mom.
When conflicts of interest abound, Melanie and Esther have to navigate what they’re willing to risk to let their love blossom.
Adrian J. Smith has been publishing since 2013 but has been writing nearly her entire life. With a focus on women loving women fiction, AJ jumps genres from action-packed police procedurals to the seedier life of vampires and witches to sweet romances with a May-December twist. She loves writing and reading about women in the midst of the ordinariness of life. Two of her novels, For by Grace and Memoir in the Making, received honorable mentions with the Rainbow Awards.
AJ currently lives in Cheyenne, WY, although she moves often and has lived all over the United States. She loves to travel to different countries and places. She currently plays the roles of author, wife, and mother to two rambunctious kids, occasional handy-woman. Connect with her on Facebook, Twitter, or her blog.
Nothing adds to the angst of starting a new job than worrying about losing your child to a vengeful ex. This is the scenario that Smith dips us into. Elementary teacher Esther is consumed with doing well at her new job while providing a stable, loving home for her young son, Anthony. Fellow teacher, Melanie is tasked with helping her to settle in but her attempts are met with chilly and prickly behavior from Esther. Melanie is written as a caring, mature woman (and single mom to four adult children) completely thrown for a loop when she realizes that she's interested in and been flirting with her younger counterpart. Esther is closed off and beaten down emotionally and mentally by her abusive ex unable to see a happy future without turmoil. The natural progression from growing friendship through uncertainty of emotions (on Melanie's part) to recognition of mutual feelings is cleverly handled. Life has ups and downs but even as she deals with her own family messes, Melanie's support helps Esther to trust again and eventually regain control of her life. I detested Skip and longed for his downfall. Chris and Carissa are wonderful supporting characters along with Melanie's adult children dealing with their own problems but also playing cupid and pushing our leads to a HEA. Smith once again tackles tough issues with a light smattering of romance and lays out the difficulties faced by teachers in today's environment. The politics that hamstring teaching more often at the prompting of individuals who are not educators. I easily recommend this 5 star emotional read.
"Just because she's straight doesn't mean you are, and it doesn't mean you don't have feelings for her."
Esther and Melanie are teachers in Cheyenne, Wyoming. Melanie is 42 years old, outgoing and vivacious and teaches kindergarten. Esther is around fifteen years younger—I don't believe her age is stated—very guarded and withdrawn and teaches fifth grade. Melanie teaches Esther's son, Anthony, who is five.
Esther's life is hell. She suffers constant emotional abuse from Skip, her ex-boyfriend and Anthony's father. Esther left Skip when she discovered she was pregnant, but he remains in her life as they share custody of Anthony.
"Inside These Halls" is a story of found family and new love. It is a story of discovery for both Esther and Melanie, one of whom identifies as "straight" when their story begins. It is a story of finding the courage to stand up to a bully. It is the story of an adorably precocious five-year-old boy.
The romance here is a slow burn. There are some deliciously intense intimate scenes, but they're not the focus of this story and it would have earned its ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ from me for its feels alone.
Very highly recommended. If you don't usually read queer romance, keep this one in mind for your next reading challenge.
This was a good novel, with a few places that could have used some improvement. There was a lot going on and the multiple plotlines and relationship dynamics were juggled quite well, which resulted in a very full novel and reading experience. This book tackled some heavier and more serious topics including spousal abuse and toxic relationships, and I think it did a decent job. Other topics addressed included motherhood and the related judgements that accompany it, different types of family structures and dynamics, dating as an older individual with adult children, and discovering your sexuality later in life. There was a romance plotline which was nice, but I felt like it took the backseat to everything else that was taking place in this story.
There was a scene where the older character (who is a grandmother) has her adult children attempt to sit her down and give her the sex talk, and it was absolutely hilarious. There were 2-3 other scenes which stood out for me as very well done and incredibly enjoyable.
Unfortunately, this novel had a couple of trouble points for me. There were several plot holes or inconsistencies which meant some parts of the story didn’t completely make sense. The central conflict of the story, which everything revolved around, was also never resolved (at least to a capacity I thought was satisfying). I found that this novel dragged in sections and I am not sure if it was the pacing or that there was just a lack of development throughout some of the sections; it felt longer than it actually was.
Another wonderful, engaging story from this author! Being a teacher for 18 years before taking on the role of my life a few years ago made this story resonate that much more! Empathizing with both Esther and Melanie with their nerves and excitement as a new school year approaches. Cultivating friendships and relationships with co-teachers and admin. Standing up. Supporting one another. Gossip. There is just all the feels with this book. The strength and development of Esther is so well done and there were many times I just wanted to jump in the book and hug and protect her. Melanie did a pretty good job too ;). I didn’t realize there were other books related to this universe, they are on my tbr but went for this one first. So off to read another and looking forward to the next!
The plot is so bad … the idea of a younger ice queen was tempting… I did finish the book because I am committed to the journey but I didn’t buy the story.
I have loved this little world — “When the Past Finds You,” “Don’t Quit Your Daydream,” “Love Me at My Worst,” and this!! I sincerely hope there shall be more!!
This one was amazing!! I loved how much Esther develops throughout, and not even due to the romance!! Her finding and embracing a safe space for herself, and overcoming the past number of years of abuse…it was so wonderful to watch!! I wanted her to have all the happiness in the world, and then some!!
I love the ice queen trope so was excited to read a story in which the ice queen was the younger main character. Our young ice queen, Esther, seeks to go through life as invisible as possible while raising her son, Anthony. Melanie is Anthony's kindergarten teacher and Esther's mentor. It was nice to see the growth of both characters, especially that of Esther as she learns to trust again. I became pretty invested and couldn't wait to see whether or not she ultimately stands up for herself against a domineering ex.
This is a great story with well developed characters. Although not required, Love Me At My Worst provides some backstory for their principal, Chris, who is Melanie's best friend, and a couple of other characters mentioned in the book.
I received an ARC from the author and am voluntarily leaving a review.
3.75 I really loved this book and I loved the theme of it. My only problem was that it felt like there were holes in it. There would be events or things that came up / talked about or would be a huge climax … only to be skipped over. It was sort of frustrating and happened more than once which is what subtracted from the rating. Otherwise, worth the read.
i never thought about the ice queen being younger but i loved it! a very slow burn, melanie and esther have such a healthy relationship together and throwing in their kids to the mix? precious.
Adrian J. Smith Inside These Halls New Release Arc Release Date 8/1/2023
Favorite quote There was so much beauty in the chaos.
Esther was riddled with fear and apprehension about her fresh start at a new school. She was constantly worried about her ex-partner taking away their son, making it crucial for her to succeed in this new environment. Melanie, a fellow student, could see the terror in Esther's eyes. No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't decipher the depth of Esther's fear. Every attempt Melanie made to approach Esther, especially when she was assigned as her mentor during Esther's first year, only seemed to increase her nervousness.
It’s worth noting that this is the second book in the series. The author continues to portray the lead character with a hint of nervousness and anxiety, which is engaging because it piques my interest in understanding the root of Esther’s anxiety.
Esther's guarded disposition was a result of the cruelty and abuse she suffered at the hands of her son Anthony's father, Skip. She was trying to give her son the best life possible, but Skip threatened her at every turn, making her feel insane and excluding her from school board meetings.
Melanie, a kind-hearted person, was determined to help Esther let down her guard and trust her. As the story progressed, it became evident that Esther needed someone like Melanie - someone patient, gentle, and understanding.
From my perspective, the story is intriguing. It portrays the struggles of a young mother dealing with a difficult past and trying to adjust to life with her son's abusive father. Esther's decision to join the school and find a safe haven there, along with the support of Chris and Melanie, was commendable.
Taking a step aside, I must mention that the last two books by this author have been nothing short of brilliant. They've kept me engrossed throughout, and the author, Adrian, is a wonderful writing. I am grateful to be part of her advance reader copy (ARC) team, especially given her understanding of my personal circumstances.
Melody, another important character, wouldn’t let Esther give up on their relationship. She was patient and understanding of Esther's traumatic past and the damage caused by her son's father. Melody became Esther's safe haven.
Anthony, Esther's son, was the beacon of light in the narrative. His innocent and kind nature warmed my heart, and I was glad that he had Esther and Melody in his life.
Skip, the antagonist, was a pure narcissist and manipulator who abused his power and position to harm women and his son. His constant torment of Esther was unsettling, highlighting the unfortunate reality that many women face daily.
This story has made me contemplate the long-term impact of our choices, especially when it involves bringing a child into the world with a toxic partner. It's a powerful reminder of the importance of making informed decisions concerning our future.
I would like to thank the Author for the arc ! The book is a new Release and now available on Amazon KU! This is a heavy read that deals with some serious issues but it mostly definitely a must read.
this When The Past Finds You-verse is the weirdest literary universe I swear. we've jumped from Wil and Lynda at some kind of white collar job I honestly cannot remember (When The Past Finds You), to Lynda's friend Laura and Skylar at an actuarial firm (Don't Quit Your Daydreams), to Wil's best friend and Lynda's stepdaughter Isla and Andry at a primary school (Love Me At My Worst), to Esther and Melanie at a different primary school where Andry's ex-wife works. and then for the fifth book (Maybe Someday) we get Chris, said ex-wife, who was honestly a rockstar here even after she was kinda dodgy in Love Me At My Worst which takes place at the same time as this book. truly the MCU of problematic sapphic romances
so we have Esther, sad broken bird being beaten down by her abusive ex-partner slash co-parent who's only invested in childrearing insofar as he gets to keep ruining her life. and Melanie, somewhat older woman with a heart of gold looking to win a toaster oven. we're back with taboo and drama with this book, as Melanie is the teacher of Esther's child and they work together at the same school, and also Esther's co-parent is a monster
it's a very sweet romance though, as Melanie and Esther communicate strongly and support each other and are effective and capable teachers. the book makes an interesting decision regarding the main plot with Esther's piece of shit ex-partner, in that it's never really resolved? the journey isn't Esther figuring out how to get rid of him once and for all (murder. the answer is murder. I wanted him to be murdered.), but finding a community willing to stand with her and the strength to fight back. because it wasn't about him, it was about Esther
and I get it, I do, and it's very moving. but I would have also really enjoyed the murder thing
i almost dnf‘d because i could not stand the younger one whom i dubbed „grumpy“. i usually like the grumpy / sunhine romance trope and it was interesting to read a wlw age gap book where the younger one is the ice queen.
that being said she was annoying, rude and outright mean spirited at times. i had sympathy for her since she is the survivor of sexual, emotional and narcissistic abuse. she is obviously deeply traumatized but seeing her lash out at everyone who literally does not know anything about her made her so unlikable. she never faced consequences and was always being catered to because „its ok she has trauma“ had me like… huh??
the the entire plot based on the conflict with the ex which was frustrating. at first it made no sense. how did the principal best friend not know that she’s encouraging her friend to go on a date with the grumpys ex? he is on the school board and literally bombarded the principal with emails about his ex, the grumpy one. she had to know. and them she gets salty when grumpy gets pissed at sunshine?
seeing him abuse grumpy had me on the edge of my seat and it was almost unbearable until sunsines good influence made grumpy more resilient / confident. i loved when she stood up for herself and could not wait to see the showdown, grumpy standing up for herself and holding the narcissistic ex accountable. i was waiting for it. but it did not come. the conflict that carried this book was not resolved by the end. all we got is a girlboss moment where she tells him off, and decides its time to make a complaint. thats it.
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This book tells a very slow burn romance between two elementary teachers, there is age gap, friends to lovers, mental health trauma, spousal abuse, single parent with a young kid, single parent/grandparent with four adult adopted kids, friendship and finally tentative and sweet love. The pace is too slow for me, it is hard to read at the beginning, and I really don't like Ester, the young and single mother/new teacher, she is so closed off to the world, only talk to her older sister. Also she has so many baggage, and her way of dealing with her abusive ex boyfriend/her kid's father is absolute tolerance, and a total doormat. I am glad to see her progress in the end, that she finally grows her backbone and face her ex bravely. On the another hand, I love Mel, she is warm, friendly and selfless, compassionate and wise, she gets along very well with all her adopted kids and she is well respected by her peers and the parents of her students. She is confident and considerate, and she is very patient with Ester, treats her with kindness and respect, takes baby steps towards their budding relationship. Mel is the perfect girlfriend. This book is frustratingly slow paced, deals more with family life, mental health and friendship than romantic love, and it also involves fair treatment and respect of teachers. Overall, an unique approach to sapphic romance.
4.5 stars rounded to 5 Wow, what a roller-coaster of emotions! My heart went out to Esther. Adrian has done a great job of creating Esther’s character, and her son is so adorable.
Inside These Halls by Adrian J. Smith sees Esther, the proverbial ice queen, move to a new school with her son Anthony as she takes the position of 5th grade teacher. Anthony’s new teacher in kindergarten is Melanie, who has quite a bubbly and outgoing personality. The headteacher has assigned Melanie to mentor Esther whilst she settles into the school.
The harassment that Esther endures to maintain the joint custody of her son is heart-breaking. Her work and personal relationships suffer, and she feels she cannot let anyone in or have a life of her own. Her son is her only focus. The mental control her ex-partner Skip has is overwhelming and annoyed me to no end. Esther longs for stability in her life and to be happy without constantly looking over her shoulder.
The growing relationship between Esther and Melanie is tender and heart-warming. Melanie gives Esther the space to elaborate on aspects of her life when she is comfortable to do so as she tries to break down her walls.
This book makes you think of people in the same position as Esther and the hope that they can find solace and support.
This was one book that I remember scrolling past a few times before finally deciding to take the plunge to read it. I'm glad I gave it a chance. Wasn't too excited about the plot before reading it but I started reading it anyway. I love the Ice Queen trope and I think this one delivered! It was better than I expected! I had the perfect two women in my head for the MCs, lol.
My only criticism is that some of the dialogue in certain conversations in the novel was a bit redundant. I also feel like some of the pacing was off towards the end of the story. It felt as if the author was trying to get to the good parts quickly instead of gradually and naturally leading to the good parts; in other words, it felt a bit rushed.
But with that being stated, I still enjoyed it immensely and found myself thinking about it during my dreaded work hours, lol. It never fails to put a smile on my face when I've started a book and can't wait to just have more alone time so I can dive back in! Inside These Halls was no exception. Great job, Adrian J. Smith!!!
I listened to this an audiobook form. It was narrated by two of my favorite narrators.
The subject matter at first was very dark. The one main character having been abused, in a difficult set of circumstances, and with a very controlling man. Thankfully, she managed to get out of the relationship, but due to having a child with this person contact had to continue. Add in the fact that he’s on the School board and she’s a teacher, he relented in doing anything he could to hurt her career.
Along comes a wonderful patient teacher who becomes not only a friend, but later a girlfriend after many obstacles thrown to dissuade it.
The teacher friend also happens to be the teacher for her son, who is an amazing part of the story.
I know I must be gargling this review up, but essentially it’s a story that becomes so joyous at the end when trust has been had, love is revealed, and her son moves to another grade level so they can have a relationship in the open.
The principle of the school also was such a lovely caretaker.
I would like to start by saying that I really like the caracter developpement at first and the indeap developement of the psychological fonctionning of Esther. The book really make you understand why she's the way she is, it doesnt just tell you, it show u. So I really liked that part, the lengh of the book and the rythme of the evolution also.
My biggess probleme with the book what the ex partner and co-parent abuse. First the summary of the book dont really let you know its part of the story. Also, the way the author wrote it made me at some point also nervous for was was going to happen which took me out of the romance a little.
So if you are like me and like light rom-com, I feel this isnt the book for you, if you like more complexe rom-com then you should go for it.
So all in all, its about what are your expectation and what you are in the mood for reading.
A pseudo-ice-queen meets an older, much warmer woman in a workplace romance. It's a good story and a nice try at writing an ice queen in a different way but I don't think it worked. The ice queen wasn't icy at all. The characters are great. One MC is going through a real development arc, and it's impressive to see it build up throughout the story. The other MC is older, and maybe this is why she doesn't develop so much. She's good the way she is. The happy-for-now ending is incomplete in my opinion because the villaine is still looming in the background. I did not enjoy the pacing. I felt the story could be tighter, with fewer inner monologues telling me what's on the MC's head and more focus on actions and dialogue. It kind of gave me the feeling that it was too long and unnecessarily so.
I rarely review books but this time I'm going to because I have a request for anybody who's reading this. I love the age-gap trope and the ice queen trope; I love it even more when it's both. I LOVED this book and part of the reason I loved so much was because of those two tropes. But what I wasn't expecting was the fact the the older MC was the bubbly one and the younger MC was the closed off one.. I don't remember reading many books like this, it's usually the other way around. I identified so much with their story (I'm attracted to older women and I'm what they call a "reserved person", so I kinda saw myself in the book) and I would love to read more books like this.
So I ask of you, do you know of any other books like this one? I would like to get some recommendations. Thanks!
Inside These Halls This is the third book in this universe. It takes place during the same period as Love Me At My Worst. This book is another slow burn that does have some discussion about past abuse. It also shows you how standing on your own is important but having a good support system makes a huge difference. It would have been nice if there had been more resolution between Esther and Skip. I liked how we got to see a different side of Chris and I hope there will be another book about her. She intrigues me. This book can be read as a stand-alone Overall another great book by Adrian Smith.
This well written, engrossing age gap, younger ice queen romance novel brought back memories about teaching and feelings about family. (Esther was right - don’t diss a kid’s parent to the kid.) Inside These Halls definitely kept my attention as a result, but it is a great book for everyone to read, touching on some serious and complex issues. I loved the strength of both main characters and how so many of the secondary characters were also supportive of Esther and Melanie, and of Anthony. There are several aspects and details I could discuss, but you’ll have to read the book. You won’t regret it.
A beautiful journey between two single mothers, one on a journey of healing and one who is just so damn nice I wish she were real!
Age gap, (younger) ice queen, dealing with past trauma and abuse. This books contains some heavy topics but they are dealt with so well. It shows how you can be the catalyst to your own healing but having the love and support of those around is always a good thing.
This book caused so much emotion in me and it stuck with me for days after. As always, Adrian provides an amazing and well-written story, excellent characters, and a journey that is guaranteed to melt hearts.
I think this is my favourite of her books and I already cannot wait to re-read it.
Wow, what a storyline, I love reading any Adrian J. Smith books as she doesn't hide away from hard facts of life,her books always allows the reader to follow the main characters emotions their inner strength it shines through each and everyone. This story though has had a much deeper emotional termal than normal on me. I found the main characters emotions hard to swallow at times,I was screaming at them to find the strength they didn't realise they had on their own let alone together. This is a story you wont easily forget . it's one i dont think will leave me its a highly recommend MUST- READ Adrian. J.Smith congratulations
I really enjoyed this book. It does talk about emotional and physical abuse but Adrian does a great job handling both topics. The things that Esther has been through is enough to completely break someone but it has only made her stronger. Even if she can't see it herself. It takes the love of Melanie and the support from her boss to make her see just how strong she can be. Esther and Melanie's love story is sweet and compassionate. The way they both are with their kids, especially Esther with Anthony, made me love them even more. A great book you don't want to miss. I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
I am not ashamed of not liking guys like Skip who uses his power and money to bully and abuse women as he sees fit.
The way he treats Esther is why u wish she had a Jack Reacher or Jack Bauer as a brother to teach him a lesson. A bully acts big and bad until someone bites back. Melanie and Chris are heros in my view to stand by her side. Most school wouldn't want the press or backlash from over dramatic parents especially hateful ones that would fear two women liking each other.
Its a shame to me Skip was never arrested for prior actions.
3.75 stars. I enjoyed reading this book and liked the relationship between Mel and Esther and how it grew from friendship to lovers. The thing that bothered me though is Skip, he was so infuriating and I was waiting for Esther to finally get some justice against him and put him in his damn place, but other than a brief decision to file a complaint against him, there was no resolution. We didn’t find out what happened after, how he reacted, whether Esther was going to have to fight for custody. It just ended with a new school year… So in all, I enjoyed the romance and relationship in the book, but the ending ultimately felt incomplete and a bit unsatisfying.
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Adrian has this special way of unfolding each book she writes so naturally, so beautifully, that the reader has fallen in love with the story and characters without realizing it.
Melanie and Esther are no different.
Inside These Halls was created with two strong women who are thrown together like fire and ice. The timeless age gap trope - as well as the late-in-life sexual awakening-are highlights in this amazing book, with the sensitive topic of abuse as a backdrop. Toss in kids and other awesome side characters, and you've got another epic slow burn page turner for your TBR!