i truly loved this series, the third book was my absolute fave, but the details in this trilogy, as a whole, and the depth of every aspect reflect the true work put into each and every sentence. the metaphors and representations and ideologies in these books are truly fascinating, and i loved every second.
the depth of all the characters was so beautifully constructed. from kitays brilliant heart and mind to venkas wit and brutal honesty, i loved them all in some way or another. i am not saying i loved everything about them, or every single one of them, certainly not. more what i mean is i love how they were created, the levels of them. and to trully love a character, personally, i feel i need to be able to acknowledge their flaws. and love them despite it. it makes them real, and all the more beautiful for it.
i applaud rf kuang endlessly for her presentation of female characters. the accuracy in the portrayal of the relationships between women and amongst young girls was so perfect. in a way that could never be understood or written by a man. further, far too often, main characters, specifically girls, are boring and bland, only there so a plot can happen, rin was most certainly not this. her rage and fiery energy was something shown so so rarely in female characters, and the importance of this is often missed. female rage is often portrayed wrongly, in silent glares and lack of action, but rin and venka both trully embodied the depth of emotion and passion and action in that which is the reality of womens emotions. they should not be underestimated. dont get me wrong, i love a good metaphor. but often the message just needs to be written out in blood or singed into people foreheads in large letters, to get the message across. as a woman, topics such as rape and FGM, or even simply periods, are often hidden between the lines and meanings of books. so thank you for this, and even though centuries of speerly rage fuelled rins actions, when she murdered that hesperian, she carried the female rage of centuries of women. words hold power, and we could all feel it.
to read as the characters grow and develop throughout the books, read how they interact and how their relationships shift and change was simultaneously brilliant and devastatingly real. not just truthful in the way peoples feelings always morph through age, but also the acknowledgment of the cruelties at play in these characters situations specifically. how war and duty effect peoples lives in such a deep way. the exploration of elitism and its effects, and how arguably this sense of duty shown in these chatacters stems from that. the cruel idea of duty on so many levels. whether this was to a country or to a family, the exploration of duty and lack thereof was really interesting to me. the difficulties between rin and nezha which it provoked. the way they persieve each other because of it. and how this effected there loyalty to each other. the lives that a nationalist perspective often can take in war. linking back to the idea of elitism and how it is a sort of twisted privilege that they get to care so deeply about their country, and they only do so, because to them their country has done no wrong. but as the book progresses it shows how this is problematic as power, and lack thereof, inevitably creates corruption.
also the recurring idea that fear and love are inevitably intertwined. i could write whole essays on this idea. its pessimistic lense on love is a contrast to how it is so often romanticised, especially in books, to an extent where it no longer portrays romance. instead a morphed utopia. ill admit that this is often the point of books. but relationships and character portrayals mean a great deal to me, personally. i find the more complex the relationship, often the more interesting. this idea of the connection between love and fear reminds me of the quote “beauty is terror” from the secret history by donna tartt. that with that strong emotion there is also weakness. and this is why the ending was so perfect. it sums up the entire thing beautifully. the complexities in each of their sacrifices, made for each other or themselves. “there was no world where rin died and kitay remained alive.” and on top of that, nezha was always meant to rule. his own sacrifices for duty made his fate so true for him. and still so painful.
finally, the cruelty and unfairness of their finale was so unbelievably heartwrenching. i absolutely sobbed my heart out. i loved it. it was so beautiful and devastating and perfect. no other ending wouldve been better, despite the fact it pains me just to think of them. it was so cruelly beautiful.