One of my favorite things about Allie Lasky is how she can seamlessly go from writing sports romances to writing adult neurodivergent romances. And being neurodivergent, both ADHD and high functioning autistic, I love this. The representation is fantastic. The cast feels and looks familiar even if you are not personally neurodivergent. And now that they are out of college, they are different people, and yet they are still the same as they were in high school and college.
I loved so many of the great tropes in this book. Tropes like, no third breakups, autism rep/LGBT rep, no miscommunication, no other man/other woman drama, a reformed player who's wanted the FMC for 7 years, shared apt, dual POV/HFN, perfect amount of spice
Allie wrote Johanna's portrayal of an autistic adult woman, so spot on. There were times when I felt like Allie had been living in my head and just taken elements from my head and just put them on the page. For one of the first times in my life, I felt like I was seen and truly being represented.
7 years ago, Johanna and Sullivan met when they were freshmen in college, and from the first day they met, Sullivan has been smitten with her. Sadly, she hasn't reciprocated the feelings. In fact, she hasn't really thought of him as anything more than just a friend. He's known as a play. Everything changes, though, when she finds herself in need of a place to live and her friend Theo suggests his brother. Theo's brother just happens to be none other than Sullivan.
I love how open and honest Sullivan and Johanna are and how great the communication they have, they share everything. He actually has the ability to see through her masking and see the real her. For reasons she doesn't yet understand, she feels connected to him and feels like he is her safe place, and she is very comfortable with him, and she is happy when he is around. She doesn't mention to him that she is neurodivergent. He is actually the first one to bring that up.
Sullivan struggles with himself, and if he is in love with the mask that Johanna wears or the real her, even though he doesn't really know the full real her yet. I can't help but give him credit for recognizing the difference in the two differences in the way Johanna presents herself and accepts that he has to figure out which one he actually is in love with. It is a very real struggle for a lot of people.
I do with this book had been a bit longer so that Sullivan could address this and figure it out not only within himself but also with Johanna. I feel like this was kind of rushed through and brushed off. I feel like it's put off into a fog and tried to be forgotten, and Johanna just falls for him, and Sullivan just reciprocates without figuring out his truth so he can be 100% honest with himself and Johanna.
Without Sullivan being honest with himself and Johanna, it is hard to say how long this relationship will last. Maybe Sullivan will eventually figure things out and be honest with himself and Johanna, we don't know what will happen as everything happens so quickly and in such a short period of time and the epilogue isn't that far in the future.
There's a huge part of me that wants to believe that they can make it and that they'll be together. But, I just needed and wanted a bit more time with that closure, so I knew for sure that there was a HEA and I wasn't left with these unanswered questions.
There was spice and it was spicen. But, it was perfectly written without being gratuitous and overly descriptive. It was perfect, just enough that you feel full after a great meal. And it has just enough kink.
I can't wait to read the next book in the series and see where we go next. I love the representation, and I want more of it. We truly don't have enough of it, and our community definitely deserves more great representation in all forms. I also loved that this wasn't a heavy read and that it was nice and short and light. Sometimes, you need that in a good read, and this is just that.