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336 pages, Kindle Edition
Published October 31, 2024
‘Mysticism is about the possibility of ecstatic life. For the last couple of centuries, with obvious exceptions like Nietzsche and, more recently, Georges Bataille, philosophy has more or less successfully inoculated itself against the kind of experiences of ecstasy we find in the mystics. It is time to reintroduce the virus.’
‘Ecstasy is what it feels like to be alive when we push away the sadness that clings to us. And sadness does cling to us. Reality presses in on us from all sides with a relentless force, a violence, which drains our energy and dissipates our capacity for belief and for joy. The world deafens us with its noise; our eyes sting from the ever-enlarging incoherence of information and disinformation and the constant presence of war. We all feel, we all live, within the poverty of contemporary experience. This is a leaden time, a heavy time, a time of dearth. As a result, we feel miserable, anxious, wretched, bored.’
‘The thinkers to whom this book is dedicated did not see themselves as enemies of reason. Neither did they think of themselves as heretics. On the contrary. They were intensely religious people whose practices and beliefs grew out of their commitment to living the truth of their life. Nor were the mystics traders in the kind of occult, hermetic, and commercially lucrative wisdom which has proved so trendy in recent times. Mysticism is not a religion, it is a tendency, a distillation of existing devotional practice, textual interpretation, theological teaching, and conceptual, philosophical reflection.’
‘My offer to the reader in this book is simple: wouldn’t you like to have a taste of this intensity? Wouldn’t you like to be lifted up and out of yourself into a sheer feeling of aliveness? If so, it might be well worthwhile trying to learn what is meant by mysticism and how it can shift, elevate, and deepen the sense of our lives.’
‘The point is that mysticism is conceptual articulation that can become part of the fabric of our existence, the very movement of its breath.’
‘One writes in order to disappear, evade, merge, or become something other. As Clarice Lispector puts it, “I write and that way rid myself of me and then at last I can rest” (the word “rest” will be important in relation to Julian). Of course, this is the source of my interest in Anne Carson and in mystical practice: I too only want to disappear completely, to annihilate myself, to find the condition of rest. But the self keeps getting in the way, like the earth’s shadow falling across the moon.’
‘(Nothing is going to happen in this book. There is only a little violence here and there in the language, at the corner where eternity clips time. — Dillard) The line that separates eternity from time can be glossed or crossed through violence, the violence of language, the violence of incarnation, the scandal of particularity that cuts through word to flesh.’
‘Let’s be clear, although this will sound like raving: to write is to try and immolate yourself. It is to go at your life with a broad-axe, to become a wick for the sake of the flame. I take what Dillard says very seriously and I don’t care if it sounds romantic—what is art without a decent dollop of romantic naivety? Some endless morality play of social manners?’
‘To write is to try and set yourself on fire, to seek to immolate yourself. The name, the identity, the interiority, the subjectivity of the writer or the artist is of absolutely no interest. One writes without a face. As Dillard puts it, in her wonderfully extreme way, either a writer’s life goes up in flames in the work, or it does not. And if it does not, then the work is a failure. But if it does burst into fire, then it is the flame that we look at. The work and not the wick. The art and not the artist.’
‘To write, to try and craft meanings in words, even to philosophize in the right climate, is not to commit yourself to a search for happiness or even fulfillment. It is not fun. You are not serving some higher expressive purpose nor are you giving shape to some transformative normative political vision. These are comforting careerist illusions. Rather, to write is to lead a non-life devoted to the possibility of fire, of being engulfed by flames.’
‘To write is to try and get yourself out of the way so that the reader can see the moth, or the peregrine, or Julie Norwich, or the godhead. And the people one writes for (if one is lucky enough to find some) do not care about you. They care about the fire. The flame and not the wick. As they should. So, the only question when it comes to writing is whether you are going to try and set yourself on fire or not.’
‘This book tries to describe a countermovement. A movement not from doubt to lovelessness, but from dereliction to delight, from woe to weal. Pushing ourselves aside, ascending above and outside ourselves, we will try to find something else, some kind of joy, some kind of liberation and elevation, a sense that, despite everything, all shall be well.’
‘It is not just a question of an intellectual belief in the existence of God as some kind of metaphysical postulate which can be affirmed or disputed. Rather, mysticism is existential and practical. It is—and this can serve as a rough and ready definition—the cultivation of practices which allow you to free yourself of your standard habits, your usual fancies and imaginings and see what is there and stand with what is there ecstatically.’
‘Fine, you might say, as long as you believe in God, as Julian does. And perhaps that is right. Perhaps the vision of love provided by Julian is easier to understand if it is shaped by a divinity. Yet, what I will try and show in this book is how mysticism lives on as an aesthetic experience, in the world of enchantment opened in art, poetry and—especially—music.’
‘—though I listened to music throughout its writing. We know that the modern world is a violently disenchanted swirl shaped by the speculative flux of money that presses in on all sides. Yet, when we listen to the music that we love, the world seems reanimated, bursting with sense, utterly alive. The only proof of animism I know is music. When we listen, it is as if the world falls under the spell of a kind of natural magic. In music, the cosmos feels divinely infused.’
‘Music can grip us with the energy of a religious conversion. Once it is heard, one never experiences the world in quite the same way.’
‘All is always woe, seen in a certain reassuring twilight. Misery never lets you down. Melancholy is a boon companion, reliable in how regularly it shows up in our lives. Nothing is more reassuring than giving in to our own heaviness, the weight of our being that drags us down and from which there seems to be no escape. As Hamlet’s endlessly chattering soliloquies attest, there is even a perverse consolation in feeling tragically riveted to oneself. It is often what passes in our culture for being smart, a vastly overrated quality in my opinion.’
‘Take Hamlet, and for argument’s sake let’s say he’s the most intelligent person we could ever imagine meeting or even being. He is a creature of doubt where all the grounds for certainty in the world and in himself have evaporated in verbal and physical violence, fear, paranoia, and murderous crime. Hamlet is the anti-mystic par excellence, who seeks to control everything with his solitary cascades of reasoning, with words, words, words. With his doubt, Hamlet kills in himself all love: for Ophelia, for his mother, for the world, and for himself. Man delights not him, no nor woman neither. And we, most Hamlet-like, spin downwards into a melancholy that sits in brood on us like an all-pervading toxic cloud. We find the world to be a sterile promontory, an unweeded garden full of things dead, rank, and rotting.’
‘At her own funeral mass at the age of twenty-one, Christina suddenly revived. Her body rose into the air and levitated to the ceiling until the mass was over. Christina felt such loathing for humanity that she fled into the wilderness and lived from milk from her own breasts. She threw herself into burning-hot ovens, ate only garbage and immersed herself in River Meuse while it was frozen. For two days, she even hanged herself from the gallows. She was astonishing.’
‘Her experiences have a terrifying, violent intensity. She spends an awful lot of time screaming. Where Dionysius is the progenitor of a theology of darkness and negation, Angela practices a corporeal apophaticism, literally tearing away at herself to bring about a bodily darkness. To our eyes, reading Angela is like watching a horror movie. Her visions culminate in her crawling into the darkness of the side wound of Christ.’
‘Breath is the original form of “spirit.” The philosopher’s “I think, therefore I am,” might be more properly conceived as “I breathe and thus it is.” Consciousness is a limited and unhelpfully restricted and dualistic way of conceiving what William James calls “the stream of life,” a stream that embraces both the breath of our thoughts and the vast, slow-breathing cosmos that enfolds us—breath is the original form of “spirit,” and Kant’s “I think” might be more properly understood as “I breathe.” Consciousness is a limited and unhelpfully dualistic way of conceiving what James calls “the stream of life,” a stream that has to embrace both the breath of our thoughts and the vast slow-breathing cosmos that enfolds us.’
‘The work of art empties itself in a fantasy of self-annihilation. Both divinization and death find the form of beauty. As the protagonist (who might be dying, and who is clearly suffering physically), in J.A. Baker’s The Peregrine puts it at the point of his transformation into the bird of prey which he has been pursuing: “Beauty is vapor from the pit of death.” In the self’s death leap, the self is finally released into what it has been seeking: a sacrificial self-immolation. An ecstatic truth which is fatal. This is not a social truth demanding objective embodiment in a stale norm, but a truth of illumination that requires a subjective act of imagination and self-transformation. Here, perhaps, eternity clips time.’
‘Dave Rahm’s final dive is a work of art as the riding of a line, shedding a ribbon in space, a wordless, selfless act that inscribes the air and dissolves in fire. It is transient, improvised and evanescent. Rahm, like the moth, like Julie Norwich, like indeed every hero in the movies of Werner Herzog, immolates himself in a loud band of beauty. At this point of self-annihilation, Dillard sees a liberty that is only possible when one is filled with the Absolute. Here death and divinization fuse in an unsettling and inordinately powerful way, a way that my friend Tom McCarthy and I used to describe as necronautical, where beauty is a downward plunge into the space of death and art is its song.’
‘—the last box, marked Pisces—My star sign—There was a compendious number of obscene epitaphs written in Latin denouncing several of Michel’s academic enemies, of which one has many in France, bien sûr—Then, at the bottom of the box, I discovered a stack of what initially looked like unframed lithographic prints on large pieces of stiff card. On closer inspection, however, they were a series of circular charts covered with numbers, dates and masses of cramped handwriting. Each chart was arranged in concentric circles. Each circle was intersected by irregularly divided lines radiating out from the centre which was left empty apart from some writing. Knowing Michel’s predilection for astrology, I assumed they were star charts—I felt a chill, as if someone had walked over my grave. I knew I’d stumbled onto something interesting. But the charts were impossible to read.’ — from Memory Theatre .