1.75 stars
Just fair warning: it’s my most emotional review. It’s a rant.
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It’s hard to say something positive about this book. I have finished it, and that’s something. Other book, other story, and I wouldn’t bother. I would just stop in the middle and then try to forget of its existence (dramatic, I know). But I have kept reading, for some reasons. I’m giving it not the lowest rating possible, for some reasons... One, the writing style is quite good and entertaining enough. Two, the idea for the story - the Shrine Maiden thing - is interesting. And three, this was my first harem romance and I’d been curious how it’s going to play out. Yeah, it has been disappointing, so far. And damaging for my psyche. (Just joking. Kind of.)
And what’s SO BAD about it? A lot of things, actually. I’ll say quite bluntly that, most of the time, Noah to Haru is a shitshow. The brothers’ behavior, Noah’s especially, is toxic and it’s being allowed, and rarely acknowledged by characters. It’s like Haru is saying, “Ah, Noah is so abusive but he loves me so much and cares about me so much and he just wants to protecc me... So he’s forgiven cause I love him so much I can’t be mad at him more than two weeks. In a matter of fact, ME, HARU, I’m SO SELFISH because my brothers were going through a hard time and I didn’t even ask, I just sulked cause Noah forced himself on me, and though I enjoyed it very much (I always do), he shouldn’t do that before saying he loves me first and, MAYBE asking for my consent... Wait, consent, who cares about that? It’s not important when my body enjoys this forced pleasure so much...” . That’s Noah to Haru in a nutshell. And, even worse than that, is using the Shrine Maiden... curse? (seems like a curse to me...) magic? ... as the cause of everything. The ‘cursed’ brothers have no control over themselves when it comes to Haru. It’s his smell or something, like with animals, y’know. Like a heat. 🙄 They’re exhausting him sexually, not minding poor Haru is tired, because he enjoys it, he comes several times, it’s all right. Haru says it’s all good, so no problem. Nada. Everything is right in the world. But it’s so selfish, each ‘love’ scene is selfish, because one time is never enough for these alphas. The other time, creepy Mason stars kissing Haru when he’s sleeping. And they aren’t even dating. It’s not cute. Mason was my biggest hope but he’s as bad as the others.
So, what I’m saying is that the Shrine Maiden thingy is used as the excuse for all this toxic, abusive behavior. And sorry, fantasy or not, there’s is no excuse for that. No, it’s not hot. It’s not fun. It’s wrong and fucked up. And at the end Haru is absolving all of this, saying that Noah is an “idiot”. 👏🤝👍 Not nearly good enough for me.
Btw, where are the trigger warnings, hmm?
Dubious consent, cheating... kidnapping... sex exhaustion...
Now, let’s talk about sex scenes in this book. They’re selfish but also boring because very schematic, and ridiculous. Schematic? They’re always the same. Aiden does the same, Noah does the same. Mason will do the same...? Seriously, I can recite it from memory: super passionate kissing, nipple-play, first one then the other, blowjob, little ass-play but not too much, Haru can take everything, then condom or maybe not, depends on the mood, they won’t even mention it, it doesn’t matter, then penetration, slow at first, what a courtesy, then fast and furious, cause he can’t help himself, it’s too good, and then, let’s do it all over again. Like, ten times more. Is it enough? No? Wait, too much? He doesn’t care, Haru is enjoying it, Haru can take it. Haru comes more than three times in one go, and is always ready and steady for another orgasm. Haru always cums too. Ahh, youth. I’m still amazed. It’s the Shrine Maiden gen magic, certainly. See? Ridiculous.
And some may say: but Haru is orgasming so many times, how can it be selfish? It is when someone is exhausted and maybe sore but their partner doesn’t even care. But then again, there’s a nice touch of asking in the morning if Haru feels sore. Real nice, thank you very much. And Haru, of course, after a minute of consideration, says, “Not at all. I’m fine”. MAGIC. It’s a fantasy read, all right.
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It’s an honest review—honest to my feelings and views, so not objective—and I admit that the author changed a bit dynamic in sex between Aiden and Haru in this book, making Haru not so passive. Like, Haru was doing something more than just lying there and taking it, but that was during, I guess, one sex session. Most of the time, it’s schematic. I was quite shocked that Aiden let Haru do... anything. But also nicely surprised.
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Yes, I am ranting quite a bit. I am reeling in amazement that someone is trying to sell it as love. ‘It’s allowed when there’s love in it’ yada yada. Well, that screams toxicity to me. Using someone as a sex toy. Love making, my ass.
Just needed to get it out of my chest. The first two books are okay, even fun at times, though Aiden is selfish in bed (Haru’s first time was so bad, ugh). I really don’t know if I’m going to read the fourth book. Mason still seems like he’s better than the others but if I’m going to get a repeat of Noah to Haru... No thanks, I‘ll pass.