I really like books about young people, especially this age: Brandy is believable as a recent high school graduate who has to figure out what she's going to do with her life and it's Freaking Her Out. I don't really read straight-up romance so I'm so glad there's so much beyond the romance to sink my teeth into here, but I will say I really liked the romance and thought that was kind of the best part. I had no issues whatsoever with the way they got together because it was so, so clear that it was a long time coming and Brandy was in denial about being into Ben. It was cute as hell.
The other best part of this for me is Brandy's feelings being so big. I remember being eighteen and everything was HUGE and TERRIFYING, and it was ABSOLUTELY VITAL that you figure it out RIGHT NOW or you're going to worry yourself into a frenzy and need to be scraped off the floor. Brandy has issues with her mom believing she wants to follow in her footsteps to become a nurse, but it turns out that was a fanciful kid aspiration Brandy had before she knew how much blood and guts nursing can have. She's always loved art but her mother thinks it's a ridiculous hobby, has never shown interest in fostering her talent, and has an axe to grind over the idea of art as a profession because Brandy's dad was an artist and he abandoned the family to go chase his art dream. Brandy's worried that pursuing art at all echoes her father's harmful choices way too much, so she's afraid to be honest with her mother. It's all very relatable, and I COMPLETELY get why she didn't want to have the conversation or tell the truth.
Here are just a few disorganized positive thoughts about it:
The atmosphere of the deserted carnival was really nice!
There were great descriptions of how Brandy needed to process a nursing school acceptance that did NOT feel like good news for her and she wanted to just pretend the e-mails weren't there.
I loved that Ben could see Brandy's real feelings. (I don't love that sometimes he teases her about them, but he believes she's in on the joke, and she often feels that way too.)
It's so true that it's hard to consider something as personal as art as a business as well. And getting rejected is definitely far more personal.
It felt very relatable that her mom is "supportive" but only if it's about a career that will definitely put food on the table.
I loved the mention that describing skin in food terms is racist. LOL
It's great that Ben's ability to really read Brandy's moods leads to them helping each other with things they're hopeless about.
It's pretty cute how there's this creeping realization after she left on the bus that she's starting to like Ben. Everybody reading knew! Seeing her start to catch on is fun.
Very interesting that Brandy runs to her father's gallery after her mom reacted poorly to her bravery. I love that she asks to sketch him as a way of dealing with meeting him.
Mentally protesting that she can't date Ben because it would be exhausting to keep up with him and one-up him all the time, only to realize she's been doing it anyway . . . classic.
I'm so glad Ben respects her art and asks her when she knew she was an artist. Besides the "he's cute and we've always teased each other" thing wouldn't have been enough for me to believe in them.
The book REALLY nails the high expectations on older teens and how black and white they sometimes see the world.
When Brandy gets in trouble with her uncle, it's really interesting that they acknowledge how being a Black cop works in society but then also show how knowing the officer leads to a privileged status--getting away with something because of who you know. It actually is like that in real life sometimes.
When Shai was super obviously inviting Ben over but not telling Brandy, I was wondering OKAY SISTER IS YOUR OBLIVIOUSNESS A DEFENSE MECHANISM OR WHAT? She is so clueless.
I don't have a lot that's negative to say but there were just a couple little things:
I wasn't sure about the exposition at the beginning, but I almost always have this problem with books--I felt like it was talking directly to me a little much.
I was a little confused as to why a maternity doctor got a message that she needed to go to the hospital now because "she's crowning." Maybe this is more common than I'd have thought? I've heard babies can be born within a few minutes after that starts sometimes, so I was surprised that the doc would just start heading over there at that point. (I know it's also sometimes a lot longer than a couple minutes, and I'm sure some people didn't have their doctor safely already in attendance when they started the active process. I'm no expert though.)
I saw a couple weird editing mistakes like "free reign" instead of "free rein" (very common one, though) and an implication that a brother and sister had a practically telepathic ability to communicate just through their expressions but it was referred to as "telekinesis" (eh, some people know why that glitch is a pet peeve of mine!). There were occasional bits where longer spots of dialogue didn't feel as natural as the shorter back-and-forths.
There was a mob of middle-school kids following Ben around at one point kind of giving him the groupie treatment. I had trouble picturing it. Little kids, middle school kids, aren't usually running around in unsupervised swarms stalking a rising TV star, right? (At least, not on a big enough scale that they became a problem and ambushed them.) This weirded me out a little.
Some of the solutions did feel simplistic, I think, though I don't know if this is necessarily a negative--the one that stood out to me was that after Brandy hits upon the idea that she might actually be able to go to art school if she also gets some education that she can fall back on if she can't fully make a living with art, she just . . . Googles good minors for art students, announces she could minor in marketing, and pleases her mom enough to get her to sign on. I think if the format of this hadn't been 24-hour, I would have liked to see Brandy talk to a guidance counselor about this. Like "I want to go to art school but my mom thinks I'll starve or make unsustainable choices and I'm worried she's right. What do?" and the counselor says "minor in marketing? Figure out how to Business your art? Use those skills for other things too if you can't fully make it?"
Brandy also threw in a little "Well the art supply store is hiring, so I could make some money in the meantime" as if it's just a done deal that she'll apply and they'll automatically hire her so that's solved. Brandy had a lot of successes in a short time--winning prizes on literally every art contest she entered, for instance--and on the one hand it's good to see that she has external validation suggesting she's actually really good, but I also thought it felt a little too simple for everything to fall her way and made it feel condensed. I think some of that is just a side effect of the "everything happens within one day" format.
All things considered, I had a great time with the book and got sucked into the individual moments and bumped up against some eloquently rendered truths that made me get misty-eyed, remembering similar moments from my own youth. I'd be more than happy to read anything else by this author.