2.5 stars rounded down but maybe more because of my mood than the book
This one didn't resonate with me the way I'd hoped. I found the inner monologues and introspection, along with constant mentions of the past, with comparisons, to really negatively impact my enjoyment of the characters' arcs. Loved that the H was actively in therapy and his therapist did not pull punches, but the h genuinely needed to also go to therapy. Her growth felt more stunted in comparison to the H's esp in the third act. Other readers will enjoy the small town elements and the emotional aspect of feeling like you're boxed in or held back and how the main characters push themselves to want more. The execution did not work for me personally, however I'd still be interested in trying other books by the author.
Written in first person, dual POV. No ow/om drama and both are experienced, though it's uneven. The H seemed to have slept around and had short relationships that were never serious. The h had only ever been with her husband and she'd been a widow for 10 years. The H needs to practice emotional connection and intimacy in order to have more meaningful relationships and the h has to practice easing back into physical intimacy so there are multiple times where one of them thinks about how their past experiences were compared to their present.
Some tropes/themes:
☆ Widowed FMC
☆ MMC is the principal at FMC's daughter's school
☆ Failed ONS
☆ Practice relationship - they tell people but decide on an end date to "protect" themselves
☆ Therapy rep
☆ Mentions of complex family dynamics - foster care, drug addicted parent, overbearing parents, teen motherhood
☆ Finding connection
☆ Small town
☆ Nosy neighbors
☆ Learning how to be a good partner
☆ Third act breakup
The h is essentially stuck in a place where her small town treats her as a figure of pity because of her young widowhood. She also struggles with being the town sweetheart and making her own choices vs. going along with whatever others need. She was a feisty teen who had to settle down fast and she's dissatisfied with where she is now but unsure how to change it. The H has a background of instability and emotionally protects himself from deeper relationships. He's in town for a new job and to possibly connect with family. He's both nerdy and caring, but with a wealth of insecurity under the surface. The h meets the H at a bar following a failed night out with her best friends and the two have instant attraction and a failed ONS follows that does have a touch of sweet connection before they separate. Imagine both of their surprise when the H turns out to be the new principal of the local private school and the h is one of the most beloved parents.
I did like these two together and how when they weren't in their own heads, their natural chemistry shined. Because of the premise, it did make sense why we were treated to so much processing of their internal emotions, I just felt that some of it wasn't necessary or became repetitive. They also both felt somewhat naive at times as they attempted to navigate a practice relationship, which I did actually enjoy since the h's main experience was as a teenager and the H wasn't able to be emotionally open in prior relationships, even as it was hard to see adults struggle like this. Emotional vulnerability and intimacy are slow to build, but do gradually get there and it was lovely. Physical intimacy was a little easier for these two and there are multiple spicy scenes that are definitely not fails. The best scenes were ones like their first date and her caring for him when he's ill. There are some good couple moments between them, aside from their uncertainty.
I was let down by the side characters. The h's friends were not as supportive and present as I would have liked. I did like that the local men seemed to nudge at the H in a way that opened him up to the start of friendships. There also was a good bit of talking about the h's relationship with her teen daughter and less on page time of them doing things together. And the h's parents, specifically her mom, needed to be set down on page. The third act has the h making an important step but we hear about that from someone else and then get to see it on page rather than being present in the scene of the h firmly sharing what her choice is. One townsperson apologizing to the h for their nasty behavior was appreciated though.
The third act is emotional because of a breakup and their individual reflections on it, as well as outside commentary on what they should do. I wanted more from the h honestly. The ending is HFN/HEA though with an epilogue six months into the future and with them in a real relationship and him planning to propose. It's sweet and does reflect on how the characters are taking their time. Overall, this wasn't a win for me, but I did enjoy the author's writing style in general and I think that a different group of characters and premise could be more enjoyable.