我想生下妈妈

by Rin Usami, 宇佐见铃, 千早 (Translator)

对母亲极致的爱的告白，就是我想生下妈妈，让她重新开始幸福完美的人生。

这是一个讲述爱与拯救的故事，也是女儿对母亲极致的爱的告白。

小兔今年19岁，正在复读，可她和妈妈快撑不下去了。妈妈从小就没有感受到姥姥的疼爱，又因丈夫出轨、家暴而离婚，还患上了心病，整日买醉，小兔只有在狭小的社交网络里才能找到一丝安慰。

脆弱的母亲、自私的父亲、破碎的原生家庭……小兔痛恨束缚自己的一切，更痛恨被束缚的自己。她带着莽撞的祈祷，一人动身前往熊野，想要拯救即将崩坏的母亲。

Genres: Japanese Literature

118 pages, Hardcover

Published July 1, 2023

About the author

Usami was born in Numazu, Shizuoka, and raised in Kanagawa Prefecture.She was awarded Bungei Prize for her first work Kaka (かか) in 2019. She was successively awarded Mishima Yukio Prize for the same work, which made her the youngest holder of the prize.She was also awarded the 164th Akutagawa Prize for her second work Oshi, Moyu (推し、燃ゆ).

Reviews

[Vj · Rating 4 out of 5]

that someone, not just a 20 year old but anyone, could write this is a bit startling. the concept of 推し、燃ゆ seems like easy and ripe material for a writer to tackle, whereas かか, Usami's first novel, is centered around the maelstromic relationship between a mother and daughter in which the mother, once revered by the daughter, descends into madness as the result of neglect by her parents and her children's father/ex-husband. the conceit is really sort of niche, but on top of that the relationship itself seems far too complex for the average writer to attempt. and sure enough, the novel ends up dipping into the psychospiritual, with Usami putting to paper some extremely intimate psychological images. the story is also both told in second-person, in the manner of a parent telling a tale to their child, and narrated in a specific idiolect (かか弁, which something like a pseudo-Kansai dialect mixed with childish speech patterns). the narration perfectly encapsulates the dynamics between the protagonist and her mother, giving weight to all the events.

[January · Rating 3 out of 5]

繊細。

[Wenjing · Rating 3 out of 5]

很可爱的写法，但可惜不是我喜欢的类型，甚至是我特别讨厌的写法。就算是严肃写作中，我也非常不喜欢因为不注意而随意地改变视角和主语，更何况全文这样写。能get到其中的女性意识（反性缘）和母女关系，甚至很有代入感，很同龄人的感觉。看完才知道作者比我还小很多，期待她未来的作品。

[Giulia Shahinaj · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5 ⭐️