✰ 3 stars ✰
“Ben said, “Take a deep breath.”
“Why?”
“Because when I kiss you, I might not stop.”
And he kissed me.”
The cover art of Snow Boys really caught my eye, so I thought, why not indulge in the temptation? 😊 And indulge I did, and was treated to a soft and tender story of how a high school mathematical genius and a basketball jock unexpectedly, but inexplicably develop strong feelings for each other, while still trying to stave off the onslaught of other personal hardships that could potentially keep them apart.
“Snowball fights were one thing but playing a game of soldiers with a boy you had barely spoken a dozen words to was something else. We weren’t teenagers in that moment. We were little kids and we were warriors.
Boys and men.”
The writing may have been a bit on the simple side, but it wasn't something I minded too much, for it still displayed how distinctively different each of their perspectives were. Ben and Dean were so very sweet together; complete opposites, I liked how Dean slowly was able to bring down Ben's walls, so very softly, but with little displays of kindness and affection nudges and glances that they couldn't help but become friends, and then closer, still. 🤍🤍 Even though they swam in different social circles, their relationship progressed at a very believable and natural pace. They had such soft and intimate moments - endearing and cosy - 'I wanted to say, “If I wrap you up and put you under the tree, can I keep you?' 🥹 🌈
They felt just so at ease with each other - two boys, who had not openly come out as gay to the public eye, but still felt so very comfortable with each other - so full of mirth and merry when they were together. 🥰🥰 Set in Ireland during the Christmas season, I liked how quaint the setting was; how their group of friends could mingle around town and move about at a leisurely pace. Their first kiss, especially, gave my heart butterflies, just at how tender and yet, so full of intense feeling it was - a catalyst that lay the foundation of an onslaught neither of them were expecting or prepared for. 🥺🥺
“Harmony in music, just like in life, comes when every note, every part of you, is in the right place. Singing is just another form of speaking the truth. You need to be heard. So take those fears and face them. And then open your voice, Dean. Sing.”
But, even with their feelings deepening, all is not well elsewhere, and I liked how those conflicting factors played a pivotal and very serious part to the story. When said significant incident takes place, I did feel some of it was left a bit vague and unclear, but the fall-out itself was so integral to their relationship that I didn't factor into that missing part of it till much later. Because after that, so many other problems arose that took precedence and I appreciated how the author addressed each of them, albeit not completely out of the woods, but enough to showcase that times were changing in a positive way. 😟😟
Ben, especially, won over my heart; the troubles at home were really hard for me to see, and it was so painful to see what he was going through, but it also felt so very real. It was not brushed under the rug, and when it became unbearable to the point of it being unavoidable, I really appreciated the mature side of him. There was a lot of growth to his character, and it was really admirable at how he was so caring and self-conscious of all that was happening around him, that he wanted to protect Dean from getting involved in it more than he already was. 🙏🏻 For, even though Dean was shouldering his own personal troubles, I loved how he came to Dean's side, when he needed him - understood why he pushed him away when he did, and finally gained the courage from his family and friends to finally shine when he had to. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
“I had to read the next chapter of Lord of the Flies, but the idea made my brain hurt. William Golding was wrong. Kids don’t need to be stranded on a desert island in order to turn into savages.
They just needed to go to school.”
When I was in the ninth grade, we were assigned to read Lord of the Flies in our English class; I still have some of my essays from my semester exam. There is a latent presence of Lord of the Flies that is prevalent throughout the narrative, which was reflected in the actions and treatment of Ben and Dean's classmates. It's masked in the extreme form of homophobia, emotional abuse and physical aggression, general disregard of one's sexuality and even the coarse way of how we treat one another without fear or remorse.
Seeing how enthusiastic Dean's own set of friends were in their loyalty and support, it was a sharp harsh contrast to Ben's own support group and the ignorance and intolerance displayed by them. It irritated me how Ben's best friend was so very dismissive about him being gay, but when it was slightly addressed later, it made me and Ben understand why she behaved the way she did. 'Tony said, “The only thing worse than being blind is having sight with no vision. Helen Keller. 1880 to 1968,' and I couldn't agree with this more. It was painful and cruel, but sadly, very real. 😢
So, while it wasn't particularly a memorable read, I still don't regret reading it. And that feeling is one I always appreciate. 🩵🩵