2 stars. 3 for the second half, 1 star for the first half
I’m not sure where the stalking comes from, because if it’s in the title, I’m gonna have some expectations 😒. Just like The Catcher claiming to be a grovel romance (🙄), this didn’t have stalking in it 🙄; it DID have obsession in it, but not until almost halfway into the book. It had other similarities to The Catcher (like the things I hated), but it had other things I liked as well.
Elowyn (27) gets hired as a conflict management specialist for the Heavenly Lights Drag Club because of an extreme diva drag queen, Je Sweets AKA Beau (29) who keeps making mistakes and causing problems for the club. On top of that, there’s a mystery surrounding some random occurrences that are happening at the club.
Je Sweets/Beau is a huuuuuge man hoooooar 😐. He has the BDE of a typical man hooooar, so when Elowyn comes, starts questioning him and making demands, he doesn’t like it 😅. At times, he gets a bit… physical (and not the smeeexy kind), until one day, he looks at Elowyn and decides that he wants to see her full of milk and her belly rounded with his baby 😅.
Once the breeeeeding k clicks in, there’s no turning back. He wants her and he wants her now.
What I liked: SPOILERS
—the LGBTQ+ aspect 🫶. This was VERY unique in this. Not only is Elowyn bi and even tries dating both men and women in the book, but she works with mostly gay men, and then some. I love that there was no discrimination between the characters in how they perceive each other. I especially loved that Elowyn refers to Beau as a female when Beau is in drag (Je Sweets). It was confusing at first 😅, but then I understood.
—the breeeding 😅. Once Beau becomes obsessed with this, he’s locked in. He’s OTT 👏🏻O B S E S S E D👏🏻 with her, her body, and the kids they’re going to have 😅
—the 🔥. The second half of the book is full of it, including some non and dub con
—obsessed with making her 💦 (unlike The Catcher). At least he cares
—MINEMINEMINE 😈. He sabotages all her dates 💅
—the OMD related to Beau being jealous 😈. No one can have Elowyn
—he reads a Wiki article on how to make her O 🤣🤣. I love it when a man does his research 🤷🏻♀️
—he can’t help but 💦 fast when he’s with her 😅. He’s never been with a woman before, so his body can’t hold back 🤣
—he sets off the fire alarm to her hotel when she’s running from him 😅😈. He’s gonna do what he’s gonna do 🤷🏻♀️
—he sees a future with her
—Elowyn’s first time meeting the diva Je Sweets is when she has her face meeting the table 🤣
What I HAAAATED/didn’t like: SPOILERS
—the AMOUNT of OM smeeeexx 🤬. I got this rec from an fb group, and I asked about owd or ow smex, and I was told none 😐. I didn’t realize I had to specify since he’s supposed to be obsessed and a stalker (based on the title). I guess next time I’ll ask about any other people anything
—just like The Catcher, the H (Beau) orchestrates it so that the h (Elowyn) walks in while he’s being serviced 🥴. Why am I STILL seeing this in books?!? It’s NOT smeexy, it’s not even necessary 🥴. Is it to show how much of a douche he is? We get that with SOOOO many other things 🙄. At least she doesn’t stick around 😒 (unlike in The Catcher 🤬). And then, we get a video of Je Sweets servicing a rando in the middle of the club, which is before s/he takes two men to be with 😐 after Elowyn tries to hook the other men up (and Beau decides he also wants in on the fun 😐). Sigh. I don’t know about Elowyn, but I don’t wanna know what the man I’m gonna marry/have kids with looks like while he’s with other people 🥴. Luckily, we don’t see the last scene 😐
—the first half of the book 😵💫. What. In. The. Actual. F?!?! It’s such a different book! I prefer the second half when we actually see Beau and Elowyn together, acting out the breeeding part and him being obsessed (like the title claims). The first half is basically Beau/Je Sweets with other men 😐 not my idea of fun seeing the H with others 😒
—just like The Catcher, Beau is aggressive and not very likable 😐. I don’t know what Elowyn sees in him 🤦🏻♀️. He DOES get better in the second half, but come on 🙄
—inconsistencies and grammar mistakes. There are times when we’re in a middle of a scene and suddenly something’s happened, but we don’t get the transition for it. On top of this, there are grammar mistakes/missing words:
••I panted, trying to vain to free myself••
••come or cum••
—the mystery going on needed to be more consistent/realistic, especially when the ending happens
—a better epilogue 😒. Maybe a few years in the future?
—although I appreciate a bi awakening, I wish I knew for a fact that Beau is all about Elowyn and knows how to be faithful to ONE person 😐. A better epilogue might’ve helped this
Overall, I liked this better than The Catcher, but still found myself extremely irritated with a lot.
⚠️Safety Squad⚠️
-no cheating*/sharing/owd
-noncon/dubcon
-prejudice and discrimination against the LGBTQ+ community
-OMD and OM SEX: although there’s no owd, we see the H with four, yes FOUR different men. The first time, she walks in on his getting a blow job 😐 which he does on purpose because she irritated him. The second time we see the H giving a random OM a blow job while working (the h sees it from a video that the mayor shows her). The third and fourth men is a threesome when the h tries to set up one of her male friends with another respectable male friend and the H takes both of the men into the sauna and f’s them 😐. This is all before either of them show interest in each other
-OMD: once the H is interested, he fights OM who’s on a date with h
-breeding/biting/marking/spanking/slight edging/lactation kink
-no condoms/they’re both clean/she’s on birth control but he gets rid of it
-HEA/epilogue/9 months ish later