Before reading initial thoughts:
What’s worse than a single dad book where he has a child with his ex-wife whom he loved but it didn’t worked out in the end? The answer is, a single dad book where he has a child with his ex-wife whom he loved but it didn’t worked out BECAUSE SHE’S DEAD adding to that a FMC who has never been with a man apart from that ONE FUCKING TIME she lost her virginity. *le siiiiiiiigh*
After reading:
What irked me most about this is the power imbalance, which I guess is what this book is trying to turn into a hot smut scene about. The FMC never as in NEVER had a man in her 26 yrs apart from the boy she lost her virginity with. She had never been in love, been infatuated, never had orgasms with other people, never knew good sex until of course our valiant, super grumpy, hunk of an MMC swooped in. I would be kinda prolly okay with this if the MMC is let’s say a manho who’s never been in love but had a bad case of ONS which resulted with a child. BUT that didn’t happen, the MMC has had good sex, experienced infatuation, love for another woman and even marriage with his “best friend” as he likes to call his dead wife. Soooo romantic 💜
Diving in with this I wasn’t expecting much, I was expecting the usual he can’t move on because he still so much so so much loves his dead wife then cue FMC being doormat. It didn’t happen in that exact scenario. Well not quite.
-From the blurb, Chloe hired by Will, became the nanny of Ava. Her goals include: making both Ava and Will smile and laugh again while she’s employed by him.
I will admit, the bonding of Chole and Ava is cute and touching, the re-bonding of Ava and Will is emotional and smile-worthy.
-So Will and Chloe were attracted to one another but nothing physical happened, though they are starting to form an emotional connection where they talk about their past, open up their vulnerabilities, and all that. Will then proposed a kinda FWB situation without the friends part. Only sex and they don’t talk about their lives with each other so no more late night talks, no more meet cutes in the house, no more opening up. No kissing. No staying and sleeping together.
-This is where I hated how inexperienced the FMC was. The man always set the pace all the while Chloe can only agree and it’s upsetting because she was starting to feel more and of course it’s always the woman who feels it first 🙄 while Will keeps on pulling away as if he wasn’t the one always initiating sex, as he wasn’t the one wanting to know more and when he thinks the conversations were too deep, he’d pull away like the asshole he is and in the end, Chloe was always the one being disappointed. He even sad he knew he was hurting her but continued to fuck her anyways. DISGUSTING.
-Then one sunny day he suddenly missed her because Chloe finally learned self-respect and distanced herself, only communicating with him the bare minimum. Will then opened up and admitted that he missed his ex-wife but he misses Chloe more. Now, I would like to say that Chloe held her end, didn’t gave in and ended up saying, Gee thanks but you could shove your “miss you more” up on your unstretched butthole.
-But that did not happen. Ava got injured then Chloe stepped up as usual then Will broke all the rules, kissed Chloe, made love, said he “needs” her, slept together in the bed. Then in the morning, guess what? HE LEFT….AGAIN. Chloe then started crying because she realized she loved him…. I can’t. How many times would you use the excuse he’s just confused, he has trauma from his previous loved ones, he needed time to regroup, he loves you so much he’s sacred (yuck yuck yuck). Like goddaaaaaaaamnnnnnn just make up your mind, you vile man. I don’t know how readers can still say SWOOOOOON DADDY P🙈 after what he be doing to Chloe over and over again. This part was in the 85% of the book and I honestly lost all hope to redeem him in my eyes.
I checked out. I *think* I finished it but can’t remember how it happened. All I know was that I was disgusted with Will and not satisfied with the resolution.
😮💨
Some quotes to showcase how swoony and sexy Daddy P is 😮💨
“And I knew I was hurting her. When we had sex, I left immediately after. When the talks got too deep, I’d close myself off to her and be a grumpy sonofabitch until she left me alone.
I wasn’t too blind to see the hope in her eyes turn to disheartened pain every time this happened, but I was too emotionally stunted to do a damn thing about it.“
—> THIS right there is the epitome of true love, folks! *faints*
“She rested her head on my chest, and I played with her wet hair, my eyes on the ceiling and hers somewhere across the room.
And I hated myself more in that moment than I ever had in my entire fucking life.
Because I was just counting down the minutes before I could leave.
What the fuck is wrong with you?”
—> YEAH I ALSO HATE YOU YOU DISGUSTING PRICK. Weaponizing his trauma to do nasty things on the woman who was nothing but kind.
“But the longer I was at the rink, the more I worked my body into the ground, the more I realized it wouldn’t stop my mind from racing. It wouldn’t change the fact that I didn’t know what all this meant or what came next.”
—> How privilege of you to have the time and advantage of space and thinking whilst being hot and cold to the woman you “love”…. Oh right…because you’re a grumpy hot man. Make sense.