I am unwilling to cease carrying out stuff with scrupulous attention to detail. I was not so full of it when younger but presently I am growing fatter on it. In the summer of 1878 Anthony Trollope told his elder son that he had written a memoir of his own life. How come that one hundred years after, though on a winter’s day, I came visiting this earth? :D This was the first paragraph of the Preface written by Henry M Trollope as linked to his father’s autobiography. Enough to make my eyes grow bigger and plunge myself accordingly into the book.
I have enjoyed it very much and surprisingly during the read I have felt very close to the man he was talking about in various stages of his life. I am candid to say that I was expecting to find some of his own letters too, printed within this work, but alas! he didn’t pass on any of his own letters, nor was it his wish that any should be published. In fact, this is not an autobiography about his personal life, like how we understand nowadays private affairs. This talks more about his literary works, performances, his views on the English novelists, on art, on literary criticism, how he set to writing various of his well-known novels, so on and so forth.
I was especially moved by the first 3 chapters on his Education, his Mother, also a prolific travel books author and novels’ writer, and about his kick-off period at the General Post Office. His early years was a very sorry story – he was wretched, and records years of sufferings, disgrace, inward remorse. I have been particularly struck that he felt himself as a Pariah even amongst his schoolfellows. Later other different horrors fell to his fate. He talks bitterly how he used to take a daily walk of 12 miles, for almost 2 years, through the lanes, to reach to his school. In various moments he even told that the indignities he endured are not be described, and he constantly repeated throughout his autobiography, that
“something of the disgrace of my school-days has clung to me all through life…I acknowledge the weakness of a great desire to be loved, of a strong wish to be popular…”
I was astonished to find out that although the idea of university career was abandoned – due to lack of a scholarship – he managed to achieve his position in everything he has done later in life, by walking and working in his own words,
“by gravitation upwards”
From being
“an idle, desolate hanger-on, that most hopeless of human being”
, he is becoming alive by choosing to start his “life-time” job at London General Post Office, first as a clerk, when surprisingly he was seated at a desk without any further reference to his competency, not even to look at his beautiful penmanship :)
I have followed with high pleasure his adventures during his official term in the civil service – his chief work at the beginning was the investigating of complaints made by the public as to postal matters. And, although he applied the 33 best years of his life to it, he strongly maintained his cherished determination to become a writer of novels. Fortunately, he was right in his own prophecies!
It is always very amusing to watch how a passion grows upon a man. I do see that with myself, too :D I loved that he was so preoccupied that poor people in most remote country places do get their letters fast and reliably. His professional enthusiasm is contagious. The Post Office grew upon him and forced itself into his affections. It got my eyes wet reading how he became intensely anxious that people should have their letters delivered to them punctually :) Really, some letters didn’t arrive at my side because of failures of Post Office! :(
I have enjoyed reading his thoughts in all the walks of life, but especially on how to better organize his workday so to be full of rewarding results, and especially, never to forget the force of the water drop that hollows the stone in the sense that a small daily task, if it be really daily, will beat the labours of a spasmodic Hercules,
“it is the tortoise which always catches the hare. The hare has no chance. He loses more time in glorifying himself for a quick spurt than suffices for the tortoise to make half his journey.”
As for his works, I agree with his opinion that a novel should give a picture of common life enlivened by humour and sweetened by pathos. To make that picture worthy of attention, the canvas should be crowded with real portraits, not of individuals known to the world or to the author, but of created personages impregnated with traits of character which are known. The plot is but the vehicle for all this...There must, however, be a story…
His autobiography is a good place to learn much about his chief literary works. As he said, he has been impregnated with his own creations till it has been his only excitement to sit with the pen in his hand and to proceed with a rapid writing :) He believes that a man who thinks much of his words as he writes them will generally leave behind him work that smells of oil…
Though I don’t agree with some of his ideas (more or less, there was a bunch of them), I think there is wisdom in this counsel given, that
"if it be necessary for you to live by your work, do not begin by trusting to literature. The career, when success has been achieved, is certainly very pleasant, but the agonies which are endured in the search for that success are often terrible"
These 3 chapters
On Novels and the Art of Writing Them, On English Novelists of the Present Day, and On Criticism
were really very interesting and worthy of notice. All the stories told there simply charm and touch the reader’s mind and heart. It makes the reader even shed a tear…
The book ends with a list of the books he has written, with the dates of publication and the sums he has received from them. I understand his point so well. In the end he lays claim to whatever merit should be accorded to him for persevering diligence in his profession. It is neither silly, nor arrogant.
I was very pleased with his delicious and energetic memoir towards which I experienced heart-felt admiration, so I will try to discover him through his novels now, hopefully I will be able to detect his own peculiar idiosyncrasy :)