thank you so much to netgalley and the publisher for sending me a free copy in exchange for an honest review!
i was very excited about this book going into it — cool title, pretty cover, interesting premise, maybe there will be crime-solving sapphics and discussions on the ethics of creation and consumption of true crime content. however, i was left feeling severely disappointed.
the plot is still somewhat interesting and compelling and the pacing and the writing are fine, but nothing about this book felt gripping enough to make me want to keep reading out of enjoyment. every character felt underdeveloped, even bettina (and we spend the entirety of the book in her head, since this is told in first person), and her relationships with the other characters felt meaningless.
the writing felt a bit juvenile and choppy at times, even for a YA book, and there are passages that wouldn't look out of place in something written ten years ago (i.e. lengthy descriptions of outfits and appearance instead of proper characterization, a lot of telling instead of showing, slut shaming for literally no reason, bullying for the sake of adding to the 'woe is me' side of bett's character even though, realistically, such a thing for such a reason [being the daughter of a murderer] probably wouldn't happen in real life, etc).
the explanation for everything that happened? flat as an iron board. there are many things that should've been explained and weren't, and the killer reveal felt like a last-minute decision. a pet peeve of mine is crime fiction focusing on some random teenagers solving these mysteries thanks to the sheer incompetence of the police and, while it can be done well, this entire book felt incredibly unrealistic in that regard. bett was just... handed things on a silver platter. it's like using every cheat code while playing a videogame and expecting to be pat on the back for all your hard work.
though this was a plot-driven book, i still expect developed characters, at least the main character. however, bett was just there. she's bland. she has no defining characteristics besides being the daughter of a murderer. that's her personality — her trauma and her past. there's no space for present or future bett to be discussed and, though i'm aware this could have been intentional, it doesn't feel that way. she wants to be an actress, but why? what are her motivations? her interests? who is this girl outside of her trauma, and why am i supposed to care about her when i'm being given no reason to?
there was no reason for her and eugenia to become friends besides convenience; though i know several friendships might start off this way (see: college people you're only friends with at first because you see them every day), they're usually strengthened by the passing of time and common interests, but that also involves people getting to know each other. bett and eugenia knew next to nothing about each other despite knowing each other for years, which is actually lampshaded during the book, but it's ultimately brushed off. eugenia was even less developed than bett, and the rest of the cast of characters aren't better off, either.
overall, this was just meh. it tries very hard to be a spiritual successor to a good girl's guide to murder, but fails. it tries to do a lot of things at once, but lacks the compelling characters and the intricate connections between them, the urgency of the plot, and the originality of the premise. i'm not opposed to reading more stuff from this author in the future, but this just didn't do it for me.