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How Could I Love Her?
I am at rock bottom with nowhere to go but up. My desperation is answered by fate and it sends Sharma to save me, but how can she be the one when she is the reason I am at rock bottom in the first place? Am I to overlook all that she has done and make us a family? Am I insane? There is no place in my life for her, yet she is the only solution and there is no way forward without her. She is meant to be the one to make me whole again and she comes with so much love in her heart, but fate is fighting a losing battle because…how could I love her?
244 pages, Kindle Edition
Published September 12, 2023
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May 14, 2024
This was insane
OMG! This was one of the most devastating stories. It was so filled with grief. I don’t even know how to describe how I feel about it. Having two daughters and having that fear that someone would take them is real. However, nothing like that ever happened. Meeting Roman and hearing what happened to her daughter and how it happened left me prostrate. I could just feel it.
Then you meet Leela and the first thing I was thinking that it wasn’t possible that this little girl was the same. I went to crazy places thinking government experiment, something with the donor and being watched, and everything else under the sun. But Leela and how she was and the things she said didn’t match the other heinous thoughts I had about what happened to her during her disappearance.
Then finally, we met someone. And I didn’t want anything good to happen for them but at the same time I am looking at Leela and knowing that it is only possible because of this person. It was the hardest thing to reconcile. I had no idea how MP was going to bring something so disparate together. It just seemed too fractured. I will admit that this reminded me a bit of “My Baby and Me” except for the obvious differences. But Leela was more focused on that other person than her biological mother, her loss, and her wellbeing. When you hear Leela describe her relationship there vs her mother she was taken from bothered me. And I had a hard time with it. There were times when I just wanted to wash my hands with the little girl and give her back. It seems that is what she wanted in the first place. I didn’t get that she wanted to be reunited with her biological mother at all. I didn’t feel a connection from the moment she returned through the end of the book. Her only and sole purpose was to be back with that other person.
But for them to move on, it is the only way that it could work. Leela would have to be steadfast in that love that was cultivated and strengthened under those circumstances. Because she was honest the whole time and she was scarily honest. I am not sure Roman would have ever gotten her daughter back, not just from those dire circumstance but emotionally from Leela’s attachment to them. And I had a harder time with that. But Leela had the right idea. And she was brilliant. I think that brilliance and intelligence was noted and tapped into. I think it was already there by nature and then it was highly developed and nurtured because her brain had the capacity for it. Now her nightly “affirmations” make sense. There was no escaping the past but to bring it into the future. Without the past, there was no real path for Roman and Leela to come together truly and overcome that separation. Her mental capacity and aptitude needed that continued guidance from the one just like her.
MP did it again. It started in tragedy and ending wonderfully. I just wish there were more conversations with Roman and that special person about what happened and how Leela and her drew very close. Some of that happened a little too quickly and I needed to hear more before I could believe any moves toward someone like that. Because I cannot say she was blameless. May not have been apart of the crime, but after the fact, regardless she should have done something more. Maybe it felt rushed because Leela was quite demanding and she wasn’t letting up. Either way, it is a great read. But I won’t revisit it as much. It’s way too emotional for me for some reason. Or, I will just skim to the happier parts. ;)
OMG! This was one of the most devastating stories. It was so filled with grief. I don’t even know how to describe how I feel about it. Having two daughters and having that fear that someone would take them is real. However, nothing like that ever happened. Meeting Roman and hearing what happened to her daughter and how it happened left me prostrate. I could just feel it.
Then you meet Leela and the first thing I was thinking that it wasn’t possible that this little girl was the same. I went to crazy places thinking government experiment, something with the donor and being watched, and everything else under the sun. But Leela and how she was and the things she said didn’t match the other heinous thoughts I had about what happened to her during her disappearance.
Then finally, we met someone. And I didn’t want anything good to happen for them but at the same time I am looking at Leela and knowing that it is only possible because of this person. It was the hardest thing to reconcile. I had no idea how MP was going to bring something so disparate together. It just seemed too fractured. I will admit that this reminded me a bit of “My Baby and Me” except for the obvious differences. But Leela was more focused on that other person than her biological mother, her loss, and her wellbeing. When you hear Leela describe her relationship there vs her mother she was taken from bothered me. And I had a hard time with it. There were times when I just wanted to wash my hands with the little girl and give her back. It seems that is what she wanted in the first place. I didn’t get that she wanted to be reunited with her biological mother at all. I didn’t feel a connection from the moment she returned through the end of the book. Her only and sole purpose was to be back with that other person.
But for them to move on, it is the only way that it could work. Leela would have to be steadfast in that love that was cultivated and strengthened under those circumstances. Because she was honest the whole time and she was scarily honest. I am not sure Roman would have ever gotten her daughter back, not just from those dire circumstance but emotionally from Leela’s attachment to them. And I had a harder time with that. But Leela had the right idea. And she was brilliant. I think that brilliance and intelligence was noted and tapped into. I think it was already there by nature and then it was highly developed and nurtured because her brain had the capacity for it. Now her nightly “affirmations” make sense. There was no escaping the past but to bring it into the future. Without the past, there was no real path for Roman and Leela to come together truly and overcome that separation. Her mental capacity and aptitude needed that continued guidance from the one just like her.
MP did it again. It started in tragedy and ending wonderfully. I just wish there were more conversations with Roman and that special person about what happened and how Leela and her drew very close. Some of that happened a little too quickly and I needed to hear more before I could believe any moves toward someone like that. Because I cannot say she was blameless. May not have been apart of the crime, but after the fact, regardless she should have done something more. Maybe it felt rushed because Leela was quite demanding and she wasn’t letting up. Either way, it is a great read. But I won’t revisit it as much. It’s way too emotional for me for some reason. Or, I will just skim to the happier parts. ;)
September 17, 2023
Smashing 5 🌟's continues
Oh wow.... Gripping from the start. Mardria has done it again. This is the 4the book of the author that gutted me so intensely. Trauma in any form, if not properly and proffecianaly helped, devastation would follow. This story really hit a mark in making readers aware of evil that's still out there. Besides the painful, soul killing 4 years of not finding and knowing, love is more powerful when reunited.
Oh wow.... Gripping from the start. Mardria has done it again. This is the 4the book of the author that gutted me so intensely. Trauma in any form, if not properly and proffecianaly helped, devastation would follow. This story really hit a mark in making readers aware of evil that's still out there. Besides the painful, soul killing 4 years of not finding and knowing, love is more powerful when reunited.
September 30, 2023
Wow! This Will Take Your Breath Away!
I am a big fan of Mardria Portuondo but this has to be the best that she has ever written. I was very nervous where this story was going to go, not a subject that appears often in Sapphic Romance. A story that hits your gut and makes you question “What would you do? Can you forgive? Do you believe in Faith? “
When your daughter is taken from the mall by a man when she was standing by her grandmother and disappears for four years. There are no words. But after four years, a knock on her door reveals her daughter, now eight years old, looking healthy and safe. Roman can not believe her eyes, this can’t be real but Leela, smiling tells her she is real. This girl looks eight but speaks like she is a university student. Where Mardria takes the story, reaches in to touch our heartstrings and questions everything we ever knew. Loved It!
I am a big fan of Mardria Portuondo but this has to be the best that she has ever written. I was very nervous where this story was going to go, not a subject that appears often in Sapphic Romance. A story that hits your gut and makes you question “What would you do? Can you forgive? Do you believe in Faith? “
When your daughter is taken from the mall by a man when she was standing by her grandmother and disappears for four years. There are no words. But after four years, a knock on her door reveals her daughter, now eight years old, looking healthy and safe. Roman can not believe her eyes, this can’t be real but Leela, smiling tells her she is real. This girl looks eight but speaks like she is a university student. Where Mardria takes the story, reaches in to touch our heartstrings and questions everything we ever knew. Loved It!
September 17, 2023
WOW
Only, in Mardria's mind, could this work. As I read this book I was putting myself in Roman shoes and dying for her. But Sharma wasn't totally innocent. In the end the author made me believe it could work out for their family. That is how good her work is.
Only, in Mardria's mind, could this work. As I read this book I was putting myself in Roman shoes and dying for her. But Sharma wasn't totally innocent. In the end the author made me believe it could work out for their family. That is how good her work is.
November 22, 2023
Very unique and crazy storyline
In the beginning, I started liking the book a lot, but after she started falling for the woman who kept her child for four years, I couldn’t see past that.
In the beginning, I started liking the book a lot, but after she started falling for the woman who kept her child for four years, I couldn’t see past that.
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