For me, this was just . . . OK. It had a great premise but it just fell flat. Which is a real shame because I was drawn in by the fact the MC, James, has schizophrenia and was admitted to a mental hospital after being accused of a crime he doesn't recall committing. The story takes place 10 years later, when he is released back in to society and back to his family home which hides many painful memories for him and his twin sister, Janet, many that he has repressed. The book had real promise but I felt like there was something missing to this story. In the beginning I couldn't put my finger on it. But what I think is missing is depth. It's lacking depth. The story, the way things within it were explained, it felt too brief. The writing was immature; James is an adult but the way in which he speaks makes him seem younger. Janet, his sister, was just insufferable and their dynamic had me so frustrated (which was actually a good thing because it made me feel something). James is such a doormat when it comes to Janet. On so many occasions he let her walk all over him. She was controlling, manipulative and gaslit him. I didn't like her the moment she was introduced. I didn't like her the moment it was said she was in his corner and had his back. And why on earth would you agree to let your sister have full access to your bank account simply to avoid arguments (she didnt think he could be trusted to control his own finances)? In reality, no lawyer would agree to setting up a second fake bank account to have the sister believe she has access to his real account. No lawyer would humour him and go along with her having access to his account. There were several occasions throughout the book that I felt weren't realistic.
I found it a little irksome when James revealed to Janet over the phone that he felt his meds weren't working as things around the house kept going missing. We, as a reader, had no idea this was happening! As a reader, this was our first time finding out about it and I'm not a fan of things happening off page. It just seemed a bit disjointed.
Although it's hinted at there being some attraction between James and his probation officer, Brianna; a few smiles here, brief touching of hands, clutching hands while he was having a panic attack . . . It just didn't make sense for her to appear in his bedroom when he got out of the shower and proclaim she missed him. It felt too sudden. Like things had developed too quickly. The sex scene was so unnecessary. For this to happen, there really needed to be more building of their relationship beforehand. It felt like it came out of nowhere. Not to mention the whole thing with them was unrealistic anyway becasue she was his probation officer.
In the epilogue it is 6 months later, after it had all concluded, but James is only just now being released from his probation. He was found innocent, so why was he still on probation? That doesn't make sense. Another hole is that when he finds out the truth about everything that happens when they were kids, he acts shocked when his sister implied she was sexually abused by their dad. Yet much earlier in the book, this had already been revealed. This book could have been great but it just needed delving in to a bit more, more research done on the law side of things. The real killer was very predictable. I'd figured it out from the start. Although this book wasn't for me, don't let that stop you from reading it to see what you think for yourself.