I have recently become a religious exile after finding that my long-time spiritual home no longer passed the honesty test. The experience has been nothing short of Matrix-like - a disorienting journey of searching, deconstruction, or whatever name one might give it. At times, it has felt like being adrift without a rudder.
In these moments of wilderness and wandering, my tendency is to look for clear and definitive answers. Reading The Great Search with this intention would undoubtedly lead to frustration—but, for me, therein lies the beauty of this book. Newell introduces us to nine visionary and prophetic voices, allowing their wisdom, philosophy, and ideas to guide us. There are no tidy chapter endings like "five steps to leave the wilderness of exile." And for me, that’s a relief. I’ve had enough of that. Working through this book - I’m now on my second read - at a slow, reflective pace has already been a deeper, more meaningful experience than many of my previous spiritual pursuits.
I’m grateful for the diversity of voices in this book: Thomas Berry, Nan Shepherd, Martin Buber, Carl Jung, Julian of Norwich, Jalaluddin Rumi, Rabindranath Tagore, Etty Hillesum, Edwin Muir, and of course, John Philip Newell himself. Some were familiar to me, but many were new. Some chapters are more esoteric, like Martin Buber’s idea of “I-Thou,” offering a different lens through which to view the world. Others combine new ways of thinking and experiencing with deep stories of how to live in the face of darkness, as in the chapter on Etty Hillesum. For those willing to engage with the book’s contents and the meditative practices at the end of each chapter, there is a chance to deepen our understanding of our interconnectedness with each other, with Earth and with the “divine presence at the heart of all being.” For me, this has already been more transformative than many years of previous spiritual journeying.