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624 pages, Kindle Edition
First published August 1, 2019



Alec had told me he loved me, but I hadn’t said it back, and none of the others had broached the subject.This is a very delicate subject to me because I’ve been mad at Evelyn on this matter since the previous book. She PUSHED Alec on having sexual relationship WITH HER but she herself CAN’T RECIPROCATE his feeling. Like what the-? Are you playing with his feeling, Miss Evelyn who-gets-flustered-when-Alec-refused-her-sexual-advance-but-she-cowards-away-when-he-confessed?
Add that to the fact that any time I tried, he found a way to avoid sex with me, and I knew something more was festering in that complicated, broody mind of his.Oh my goodness. Is it really a mystery? Really, Miss Evelyn who-claims-Alec-as-hers-but-runs-away-when-he-says-the-three-big-words? What is so hard to understand about that? He loves you and finds it hard to share? Honestly, he’s the only one who seems truly in love with Evelyn. How can others be so easily “Oh, it’s okay I can just share you because they’re my family too”? That’s even more messed up because family don’t get involved sexually.
I knew Alec wasn’t interested in her anymore. He’d told me so himself. He loved me. He’d told me that too. But he hadn’t said it since, and he was once again keeping his distance. My insecurities were getting to me. I hadn’t said it back to him—I wasn’t sure I felt it yet—but I still didn’t like the idea of him being with another woman. Especially her.Oh wow, you’re saying you’re being insecure when Alec is the one who should feel that? He literally confessed to you and you didn’t even say it ONCE even after you slept with him. Then, you expect him to say it again when you’ve been sleeping with OTHERS!? PLEASE. You told him you want him but can’t even say I love you to him. Alec’s right. She’s literally just acting purely because of ‘Light pushing her to do it’. If I were Alec, I’d be hurt too. TOO DAMN HURT.
I’d lit a spark with Alec that I hadn’t allowed to ignite fully, but the music was pulsing and so was my desire. Someone was getting lucky tonight... maybe a few someones.I guess Alec will be hurt with this. This is what he meant. If you can control it, you won't have sex with others. It's just another proof that it's not really Alec that you want. Just to satisfy the Light. So basically any guy in the Bond will do. That's precisely what Alec hates most. But she keeps denying that’s not it.
He smiled back, a rare genuine smile that almost made his eyes sparkle. Happiness shone in his gaze too, and... love. He had that same look on his face as when he’d first declared his love to me.I can't stop thinking how selfish this is. I don’t know what to say. If the setting is a normal world without some weird Light ‘insisting’ them to have sex for a balance power or something, people would literally hate Evelyn for treating Alec like this. Because she knows exactly how he feels but she pretends as if nothing big happens.
To stop him from voicing it again, I tilted my head up and kissed him. I wasn’t ready to hear him say those words again. I wasn’t ready to say them back. Alec and I were moving forward in our own stunted, fucked-up way, but I couldn’t go that far yet.
“Evie.” He spoke just loud enough to be heard over the rush of the wind. “We’re trying to get out undetected here. This is a stealth mission. I need you to keep your mouth shut.”Aren’t you being purely stupid, Miss Evelyn who-thought-fighting-with-Alec-even-in-the-midst-of-a-dangerous-mission-is-appealing-to-him? Her so called ‘lady boss’ attitude is not lady boss anymore. It’s like she felt the need to be above her Bonds especially with Alec. It’s her own personal issue and she’s trying to drag Alec along with her. I mean what is her deal in just shutting up her mouth when danger is just behind them? Childish.
I was about to snap back at him—even if we were flying down the side of a building in a life-and-death situation, I was not about to let him get away with telling me to keep my mouth shut—but without waiting for a response, he pushed off again.
Maybe it was fucked up that I wanted sex after the horrific shit I’d just been through, but it was never just sex with them. It was healing and comfort and connections and coming home all at once.I AM SOOOOO PISSED OFF AT THIS. ALEC IS LITERALLY DYING AND BATTLING HIS LIFE IN THE HOSPITAL. LIKE HIS LIFE IS ON THE LINE! AND WHAT THE HECK IS SHE ACTUALLY DOING WHEN ALEC IS IN THAT KIND OF CONDITION BECAUSE HE TRIES TO PROTECT HER!? WHAT IS ACTUALLY WRONG HER!? IS SEX THE ONLY THING IN HER PETTY MIND?!
It couldn’t have been healthy, but that didn’t change the fact that I was so ready to go that my abdominal and vaginal muscles were clenching and relaxing in anticipation.At this point, I feel like the author just try to make things too complicated between Alec and Eve just to show how ‘special’ and different their relationship is. Honestly, it didn't have to drag until this point. What they are doing is purely toxic. Evie is trying to be this ‘feisty girl’ who’s apparently ‘brave’ enough to fight Alec back. I am sorry but at this point, I feel like every Eve's remark on Alec is just purely dumb and unnecessary.