I read this book a very long time ago, back when it was on the internet as a Xena/Gabrielle Uber fic. Having recently read another wlw romance novel, I thought it would be nostalgic fun to reread this.
It was definitely nostalgic, a quick read and I had fun reading it for the most part, but I couldn’t get over how fucked up the situation was. Spoilers ahead:
Ronnie hits Rose with her car while driving recklessly (and under the influence), then takes care of her initially out of guilt and fear, which turns into true affection. However, she enters into a sexual relationship with this poor woman who has become financially dependent on her, while lying about her motives and keeping this huge, life-altering secret from her.
Ronnie initially feels like having a romantic relationship with Rose is inappropriate, given what has transpired, despite their feelings for each other, and she is 100% correct, but that goes by the wayside without any sort of self reflection or explanation why it no longer seems to matter. She never again thinks that what she is doing is morally reprehensible, never realizes she must come clean if she is to have a truly open and honest relationship with Rose. No, instead Rose finds out in her own, leaves Ronnie for maybe a week, then they come back together after a brief talk about how sorry Ronnie is. Sorry for hitting Rose? Yes. Sorry for lying and not telling her? Unclear. As Rose accuses, Ronnie just seems sorry that Rose found out and left her, she would have lied for the rest of their lives if she could.
The book seemed unable to decide how it felt about poverty. The wealthy elite pseudovillians of the story rant about how poor people are lazy moochers, unwilling to work and instead taking advantage of government resources to enable their laziness. This opinion is painted as bad, bigoted, and wrong, and yet the only impoverished person outside of our noble romantic interest behaves in the exact way the wealthy describe. Don’t even get me started on the depiction of addiction and Ronnie’s wildly hypocritical attitudes toward her brother.
Nobody ever really changed over the course of the book, except the side character of Susan, who was by far the most interesting character in the novel
Overall, it was fine as a romance novel and a quick read, but felt a bit dated and I couldn’t get over the uncomfortable power dynamics in the romantic plot line.