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The Hope in Our Scars: Finding the Bride of Christ in the Underground of Disillusionment
The church is struggling with a major PR problem.
She's lost her respect and significance in the world and in our local, public communities. She's racked with scandals of fraud, abuse, and cover-up. She's mocked on television. She looks like a complete bigot to outsiders. From within, she is embroiled in racism, misogyny, marginalization, and hatred. Our youth are growing up and saying, "No thanks." A whole movement of previously committed Christians are deconstructing. The "nones" are on the rise. Do we blame them?
Those who remain are hurting and struggling to see Christ in their lives. Instead of giving the world a beautiful picture of Christ's love for us, we manifest disillusionment and despair. The world we sing about on Sunday mornings and the world we live in are in complete disconnect. How did we get here? In our quest to be right, we have missed something big--the heart of the matter--that Christ is preparing the church, His Bride, for love. Theology without love is dead, and we are seeing the consequences of this throughout the evangelical church.
Having tread her own path of disillusionment, Aimee Byrd invites us to see Christ amidst the chaos. From the foundation of love, she teaches us how to face disillusionment in ways that strengthen our faith, how our own stories weave with the stories of our brothers and sisters, and how we hold them together as a testimony to where we've come, what we've been through, and the beauty Christ is inviting us into through them together. In this, we find freedom in belonging to Christ that rises above our disillusionment.
Along the way, Aimee guides us through thinking about how we can cultivate healthier forms of trust by recognizing power structures at work, understanding the limits of authority, freeing ourselves from tribes and celebrity culture, taking appropriate social risks, not putting false expectations on other people, saying no, speaking up when uncomfortable, naming red flags, seeking people who stay in the room and with whom we can create beauty together. This is when our scars become part of the artwork. Christ loves his church. We can hold fast to that. He is calling us to join him in bringing us to his love and not to fall for a counterfeit.
She's lost her respect and significance in the world and in our local, public communities. She's racked with scandals of fraud, abuse, and cover-up. She's mocked on television. She looks like a complete bigot to outsiders. From within, she is embroiled in racism, misogyny, marginalization, and hatred. Our youth are growing up and saying, "No thanks." A whole movement of previously committed Christians are deconstructing. The "nones" are on the rise. Do we blame them?
Those who remain are hurting and struggling to see Christ in their lives. Instead of giving the world a beautiful picture of Christ's love for us, we manifest disillusionment and despair. The world we sing about on Sunday mornings and the world we live in are in complete disconnect. How did we get here? In our quest to be right, we have missed something big--the heart of the matter--that Christ is preparing the church, His Bride, for love. Theology without love is dead, and we are seeing the consequences of this throughout the evangelical church.
Having tread her own path of disillusionment, Aimee Byrd invites us to see Christ amidst the chaos. From the foundation of love, she teaches us how to face disillusionment in ways that strengthen our faith, how our own stories weave with the stories of our brothers and sisters, and how we hold them together as a testimony to where we've come, what we've been through, and the beauty Christ is inviting us into through them together. In this, we find freedom in belonging to Christ that rises above our disillusionment.
Along the way, Aimee guides us through thinking about how we can cultivate healthier forms of trust by recognizing power structures at work, understanding the limits of authority, freeing ourselves from tribes and celebrity culture, taking appropriate social risks, not putting false expectations on other people, saying no, speaking up when uncomfortable, naming red flags, seeking people who stay in the room and with whom we can create beauty together. This is when our scars become part of the artwork. Christ loves his church. We can hold fast to that. He is calling us to join him in bringing us to his love and not to fall for a counterfeit.
229 pages, Kindle Edition
Published May 7, 2024
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Aimee Byrd
13 books194 followersAimee Byrd is just an ordinary mom of three who has also been a martial arts student, coffee shop owner, and Bible study teacher. Author of Housewife Theologian, she now blogs about theology and the Christian life and cohosts The Mortification of Spin podcast.
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June 7, 2024
I really can’t say enough about this one. Aimee narrates the struggles she’s had after leaving her church and denomination. Betrayal, disillusionment, uncertainty - and the realization that there may be no perfect church home in the future for her. Despite this she clings to a robust faith, which she shares with the reader, filtered through a skilled and sensitive reading of Song of Songs. Her prose is light and lively and makes this a gentle and easy read. Highly recommended!
June 13, 2024
4.5 stars
I'm so grateful that everything that Aimee Byrd has gone through over the last few years has not caused her to punt the faith but instead has given her more clarity and purpose. This book was so helpful in my own wrestlings and came at just the right time. I've really enjoyed seeing the evolution in Aimee's writing over the years. I'm excited for the next chapter in her journey and how it will inevitably minister to so many, including myself.
"I have become convinced that all the splendor and mystery of our faith, the sacraments and theology, and everything else, has for it's purpose, just to teach us to be able to do the simplest and humblest acts of love in the least ostentatious way possible...when we do that, we are both giving and receiving Christ"
I'm so grateful that everything that Aimee Byrd has gone through over the last few years has not caused her to punt the faith but instead has given her more clarity and purpose. This book was so helpful in my own wrestlings and came at just the right time. I've really enjoyed seeing the evolution in Aimee's writing over the years. I'm excited for the next chapter in her journey and how it will inevitably minister to so many, including myself.
"I have become convinced that all the splendor and mystery of our faith, the sacraments and theology, and everything else, has for it's purpose, just to teach us to be able to do the simplest and humblest acts of love in the least ostentatious way possible...when we do that, we are both giving and receiving Christ"
July 13, 2024
Her experience is raw and relatable. She has suffered grievously and especially from those who should have protected her. Their behavior is unlike and opposed to the way of the Good Shepherd—Who the author clearly treasures.
In spite of her suffering, she has not given up on the Church. This in itself is remarkable evidence of God’s sufficient grace.
You will find fresh insights and compelling reasons to persevere in hope. Chapter 6 was my favorite chapter. I wanted to re-read it as soon as I finished it! The Outro was also helpful and encouraging.
In spite of her suffering, she has not given up on the Church. This in itself is remarkable evidence of God’s sufficient grace.
You will find fresh insights and compelling reasons to persevere in hope. Chapter 6 was my favorite chapter. I wanted to re-read it as soon as I finished it! The Outro was also helpful and encouraging.
July 26, 2024
Throughout this book, Aimee Byrd shares some of her own journey through church trauma, and she explores topics and themes that will resonate with many other people who have experienced disillusionment with the church, whether that disillusionment flows from their own experiences or from a general awareness of the fissures in the Western church today. Byrd reflects on her own journey, includes stories and examples from others, and delves into the Song of Songs to explore the beauty and meaning of knowing that the church is Christ's bride, even when our experiences of church don't match God's intent.
Byrd wrote this book to encourage other Christians who love Jesus and want to love to the church, but who have significant baggage from religious communities. She explores themes related to coping with shame, honoring our stories, and recognizing harmful power structures within the church. Also, even though her own story is still unresolved, she shows that it's possible to keep pursuing God's vision for the church, even when you're not happily situated in a great local congregation. Because many books about religious trauma come from a deconstructionist standpoint, this book will be very helpful for people who remain orthodox in their beliefs and practices, but who are struggling with disillusionment.
Byrd has experienced significant trauma in her previous congregation and denomination, and she experienced a staggering amount of abuse online, with many male Christian pastors and authors running a slander campaign against her after she released the book Recovering from Biblical Manhood and Womanhood. She documented many of these events through her blog, and this book offers additional reflection from hindsight. She draws on her own experiences without oversharing specific details or venting in anger, and she writes in a way that invites sympathy and reflection, rather than just drawing battle lines with her tribe.
I appreciate her admirable approach to writing about this topic, and her story provides a beautiful example of how someone can endure trauma while still holding onto their faith and their desire to behave in a Christlike way towards those who have harmed them. Also, even though this book will primarily appeal to Byrd's longtime followers, people who aren't familiar with her can also benefit from this. Byrd narrates her story in a way that anyone can follow, and she shares deep spiritual reflections that will resonate with her audience.
However, I think that this book's marketing should have indicated what a big role the Song of Songs plays throughout. Byrd explores passages from this book of the Bible in depth, and some readers will feel blindsided by the sheer amount of erotic imagery and language in this book. Byrd explores biblical metaphors related to the church being the bride of Christ, and she does so in great detail, drawing insights and applications from Song of Songs. Some of the connections she made seemed like a bit of a stretch, and people with significant sexual baggage may find this overwhelming and off-putting, especially since it's unexpected. On the other hand, I appreciate Byrd's unique approach of writing about the church through metaphor, instead of focusing on overt teaching passages that people might find guilt-inducing as they struggle with their relationship to church.
The Hope in Our Scars is a unique, heartfelt book that will encourage committed Christians who are struggling with disillusionment and discouragement related to church. Byrd's personal story and spiritual reflections will mean the most to longtime followers who have seen her journey unfold, but this will also appeal to readers who are new to her work. This book is thoughtful and helpful, and I appreciate Byrd's courage and grace in writing it.
I received a free copy from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
Byrd wrote this book to encourage other Christians who love Jesus and want to love to the church, but who have significant baggage from religious communities. She explores themes related to coping with shame, honoring our stories, and recognizing harmful power structures within the church. Also, even though her own story is still unresolved, she shows that it's possible to keep pursuing God's vision for the church, even when you're not happily situated in a great local congregation. Because many books about religious trauma come from a deconstructionist standpoint, this book will be very helpful for people who remain orthodox in their beliefs and practices, but who are struggling with disillusionment.
Byrd has experienced significant trauma in her previous congregation and denomination, and she experienced a staggering amount of abuse online, with many male Christian pastors and authors running a slander campaign against her after she released the book Recovering from Biblical Manhood and Womanhood. She documented many of these events through her blog, and this book offers additional reflection from hindsight. She draws on her own experiences without oversharing specific details or venting in anger, and she writes in a way that invites sympathy and reflection, rather than just drawing battle lines with her tribe.
I appreciate her admirable approach to writing about this topic, and her story provides a beautiful example of how someone can endure trauma while still holding onto their faith and their desire to behave in a Christlike way towards those who have harmed them. Also, even though this book will primarily appeal to Byrd's longtime followers, people who aren't familiar with her can also benefit from this. Byrd narrates her story in a way that anyone can follow, and she shares deep spiritual reflections that will resonate with her audience.
However, I think that this book's marketing should have indicated what a big role the Song of Songs plays throughout. Byrd explores passages from this book of the Bible in depth, and some readers will feel blindsided by the sheer amount of erotic imagery and language in this book. Byrd explores biblical metaphors related to the church being the bride of Christ, and she does so in great detail, drawing insights and applications from Song of Songs. Some of the connections she made seemed like a bit of a stretch, and people with significant sexual baggage may find this overwhelming and off-putting, especially since it's unexpected. On the other hand, I appreciate Byrd's unique approach of writing about the church through metaphor, instead of focusing on overt teaching passages that people might find guilt-inducing as they struggle with their relationship to church.
The Hope in Our Scars is a unique, heartfelt book that will encourage committed Christians who are struggling with disillusionment and discouragement related to church. Byrd's personal story and spiritual reflections will mean the most to longtime followers who have seen her journey unfold, but this will also appeal to readers who are new to her work. This book is thoughtful and helpful, and I appreciate Byrd's courage and grace in writing it.
I received a free copy from the publisher in exchange for an honest review.
December 31, 2024
Taylor Swift's Reputation album meets Jesus in the Song of Solomon.
I don't know why that just came to me :)
I'm not going to get the review perfectly right, but one way to look at it is processing on the page the betrayal and trauma of spiritual-abuse in the church, in the company of Solomon, Augustine, John Calvin, John Owen, Herman Bavinck, Dallas Willard, Walter Brueggemann, and Rowan Williams. I know there are more authors cited in this book, but these stood out for me, perhaps because of the irony that this "Jezebel" who has "betrayed" "The Reformed Tradition" might actually be more deeply rooted in that tradition than her detractors. But I digress
I feel deeply ambivalent about white-evangelicalism, including those who have left/are leaving/were pushed out/etc. On the one hand "it's me!" but on the other hand, I have no desire to set up camp right outside the gate and live there, in sackcloth, in a tent, yelling really loudly so that someone inside might hear me, and others might not go in. It's just not attractive at all. So I typically don't read or listen to much in this "genre" of media. There are way more constructive things to do, and way more interesting things to explore than white evangelicalism, in my opinion.
But, as with any genre, there are exceptions, people who stand out for their sheer honesty and humanity, a true genuineness that shines through, whatever the situation might be, and Aimee Byrd is one of those people for me. I've gone on "purges" where I unsubscribe and unfollow to a bunch of podcasts and substacks, and when I get to Aimee's, I hesitate, and then I stick around, because I find over and over that, while I may not be attracted to the genre, I am repeatedly ministered to by her honesty, a fellow traveler in the underground.
I don't know why that just came to me :)
I'm not going to get the review perfectly right, but one way to look at it is processing on the page the betrayal and trauma of spiritual-abuse in the church, in the company of Solomon, Augustine, John Calvin, John Owen, Herman Bavinck, Dallas Willard, Walter Brueggemann, and Rowan Williams. I know there are more authors cited in this book, but these stood out for me, perhaps because of the irony that this "Jezebel" who has "betrayed" "The Reformed Tradition" might actually be more deeply rooted in that tradition than her detractors. But I digress
I feel deeply ambivalent about white-evangelicalism, including those who have left/are leaving/were pushed out/etc. On the one hand "it's me!" but on the other hand, I have no desire to set up camp right outside the gate and live there, in sackcloth, in a tent, yelling really loudly so that someone inside might hear me, and others might not go in. It's just not attractive at all. So I typically don't read or listen to much in this "genre" of media. There are way more constructive things to do, and way more interesting things to explore than white evangelicalism, in my opinion.
But, as with any genre, there are exceptions, people who stand out for their sheer honesty and humanity, a true genuineness that shines through, whatever the situation might be, and Aimee Byrd is one of those people for me. I've gone on "purges" where I unsubscribe and unfollow to a bunch of podcasts and substacks, and when I get to Aimee's, I hesitate, and then I stick around, because I find over and over that, while I may not be attracted to the genre, I am repeatedly ministered to by her honesty, a fellow traveler in the underground.
May 25, 2024
I like Aimee Byrd's writing. I feel like she is able to hold the reins of the mystical and the practical - the spiritual and the concrete - in such a way that enables you to get a fuller, richer, and more holistic view of her subjext matter. There is a lot to love about this book.
Especially for any that are disillusioned by the image of (and in some cases the reality of) how the church has failed to be a healthy place to grow in knowledge and delight of the very Christ they purport to follow. Instead of letting that be a catalyst to leave the church and her faith behind, she helps us re-direct our eyes to the realities that are no less true and more important than ever to cling to in the aftermath of disillusionment.
I think some of the detail connections she makes are a stretch, and I think she verges on too mystical in some areas. I love the Song of Songs, and I agree with her general trajectory of thought concerning its meaning and importance, but I think she makes assumptions and connections which are more imaginative perception than direct connection.
She laughs, in the book, about reviews probably saying she repeats herself too much, but it's not that the ideas are too repetative. It's that the words are. She has specific words and phrases she loves (don't we all) but they get way too much screen time. It takes me out of the process when a word or a phrase is repeated too often, like it is the only way to explain her view in the way she wants. It makes it feel limited, in a way.
Also, feels like it borrows way too heavily from her previous book, the Sexual Reformation, rather than adding a lot of new material.
Overall, though, a lot of helpful thoughts and a fair bit of underlining.
Especially for any that are disillusioned by the image of (and in some cases the reality of) how the church has failed to be a healthy place to grow in knowledge and delight of the very Christ they purport to follow. Instead of letting that be a catalyst to leave the church and her faith behind, she helps us re-direct our eyes to the realities that are no less true and more important than ever to cling to in the aftermath of disillusionment.
I think some of the detail connections she makes are a stretch, and I think she verges on too mystical in some areas. I love the Song of Songs, and I agree with her general trajectory of thought concerning its meaning and importance, but I think she makes assumptions and connections which are more imaginative perception than direct connection.
She laughs, in the book, about reviews probably saying she repeats herself too much, but it's not that the ideas are too repetative. It's that the words are. She has specific words and phrases she loves (don't we all) but they get way too much screen time. It takes me out of the process when a word or a phrase is repeated too often, like it is the only way to explain her view in the way she wants. It makes it feel limited, in a way.
Also, feels like it borrows way too heavily from her previous book, the Sexual Reformation, rather than adding a lot of new material.
Overall, though, a lot of helpful thoughts and a fair bit of underlining.
June 26, 2024
This book will be marmite.
I found it incredibly helpful. Firstly, her honesty about the pain of disillusionment with the Church is sensitively and responsibly unpacked. Secondly, taking us to the song of songs is wonderful. It has always been one of my favourite books in the Bible, but I never thought about it in the midst of struggle.
If you have been hurt by the church. If you have suffered abuse at the hands of church leaders. If you feel like you’re in the underground . Then this book is for you.
I found it incredibly helpful. Firstly, her honesty about the pain of disillusionment with the Church is sensitively and responsibly unpacked. Secondly, taking us to the song of songs is wonderful. It has always been one of my favourite books in the Bible, but I never thought about it in the midst of struggle.
If you have been hurt by the church. If you have suffered abuse at the hands of church leaders. If you feel like you’re in the underground . Then this book is for you.
October 20, 2024
From her epilogue. Powerful:
“No one should stick around in abusive cultures, under bad theology, or where their personhood is diminished because of sex, ethnicity, class, age, and the like. And I don’t mean only if it’s happening to you. Staying because you aren’t affected by it while others are harmed gives safe passage for cruelty and dehumanization of Christ’s bride. It legitimizes it. Ask yourself, what benefit am I getting at the cost of the personhood of my siblings and partners in Christ? Am I their partner in affliction, kingdom, and endurance here?”
“No one should stick around in abusive cultures, under bad theology, or where their personhood is diminished because of sex, ethnicity, class, age, and the like. And I don’t mean only if it’s happening to you. Staying because you aren’t affected by it while others are harmed gives safe passage for cruelty and dehumanization of Christ’s bride. It legitimizes it. Ask yourself, what benefit am I getting at the cost of the personhood of my siblings and partners in Christ? Am I their partner in affliction, kingdom, and endurance here?”
January 16, 2025
I find books like this both desperately sad and also nervously hopeful. The power abuse seen in churches is widespread, destructive, and ongoing. And yet. As Aimee beautifully writes, we are Christ’s bride, beloved, secure, and in the underground and messiness He is using us to offer Himself to one another. I pray that in the waiting for glorification, we learn more about true authenticity, true grace, true endurance, and reflect even more the true beauty of the Saviour.
June 28, 2024
A very well-written and carefully constructed combination of scriptural reflection and autobiography. Honest and moving, and I could see this being really helpful for someone in the midst of spiritual trauma, though it wasn't exactly for me.
Video review here: https://youtu.be/I5xalxBNPqA
Video review here: https://youtu.be/I5xalxBNPqA
June 8, 2024
A moving, well written and important book.
Some niggles and some annoying editorial/formatting choices, but deeply valuable.
Some niggles and some annoying editorial/formatting choices, but deeply valuable.
February 15, 2025
I feel bad giving this book two stars. It was a good book on an important topic, but the writing felt a little disjointed to me. My wife was encouraged by the book, but it didn’t quite land for me.
November 7, 2025
Love this one
May 18, 2025
I took some issue with the author's use of Song of Solomon (enough so that I made a video processing some of my thoughts - for anyone interested: https://youtu.be/68gq8ajRQqI).
But over all, I think she has really helpful things to say about the Church, and recovering from spiritual abuse.
But over all, I think she has really helpful things to say about the Church, and recovering from spiritual abuse.
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