4 out of 5 stars
Rep: Afro-Cuban autistic pansexual MC, Black non-binary pansexual love interest with two moms, bisexual BIPOC side character, gay side character, trans autistic side character, two other Black autistic side characters
Content warnings: Internalized ableism, overstimulation, disassociation, misgendering, past bullying, friendship distancing
This is an adorable story with possibly the best autism representation I've ever encountered! I felt seen from the very first paragraph. It's so important to let autistic authors tell autistic stories; there's just no way an allistic writer could capture nuanced feelings like squashing the urge to info-dump or knowing you need to watch your facial expressions. Everything Daniel describes is so, so relatable (particularly being hyperempathetic, not understanding the purpose of wedding showers, and assuming that everyone either dislikes or is ambivalent toward you) — it genuinely felt like getting a hug to see my own experiences on the page. I really hope more books continue to get published about people who don't feel like the main character in their own story.
The only part I didn't love was Gabe. They felt like such a manic-pixie-dream-them. As an enby myself, I don't enjoy having to admit to disliking a non-binary character. Although I sympathize with their dysphoria and admire that they aren't shy about being themself, they're also just...cringey. Every time Daniel observed that Gabe iSn'T LiKe OtHeR tEeNs in some way, I found myself rolling my eyes. And I have to admit to having mixed feelings about readers being told Gabe's assigned gender at birth. On one hand, it's always nice to have a character explain misgendering, and the brief plotline about the homecomnig court nomination was cool. On the other, that plotline only lasted a chapter or two, which to me seems too irrelevant to justify revealing such sensitive information. If 1) Gabe had come out over the course of the book, 2) it was dual-POV so we also got to see all of their interactions, 3) it featured sex scenes, 4) Gabe chose to medically transition, or 5) it was more about the trans experience, I would agree with including that. But that's not the case. We're told Gabe's full name, the features on their body, and the exact ways in which they're misgendered. It's tricky because of course that's something they'd complain about — I do too in real life to people I trust. For the purposes of a book, though, I feel like there might have been slightly better (but still meaningful) ways to include that type of conversation without revealing Gabe's biological sex.
However, that’s just *my* opinion! I’m sure other characters I dislike are someone else’s favorites of all time, and vice versa. Plus, the author is non-binary just like I am — and we aren’t a monolith! My preferences don’t speak for an entire community and also don’t reflect Ramos’s talent. They write extremely well and I look forward to reading what they write next!
Also, I would happily read an entire book about Bridge just, like, grocery shopping.
**HUGE thank you to Inkyard Press for granting me an eARC through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review!**