Read: 5Oct25, 14Jan26
4.6 stars. A lovely story that I enjoyed again on the reread. highly romantic. in this one you get hints the H fell for her quite quickly but was masking his feelings, but we still got a bit of delicious angst later on and got the runaway h ending that I love.
Lucy, 23, is a plain little student nurse, youngest of a large and loving and attractive family. (no waif here.) she meets Fraam, 39, a visiting consultant lecturer, when she falls asleep during his lecture, in the front row, no less! he mercilessly picks on her to answer a question and she is jolted awake and has to ashamedly confess in front of the whole lecture hall that she was asleep. she apologises but with slight annoyance, after all, she fell asleep after a horrible night shift so was exhausted. when the head nurse calls her into the office later and tells her to apologise to him, she is annoyed with him and finds him high and mighty and tells him so, before stomping off. aha. it was a nice little bit of attitude from a normally sweet and placid heroine.
so anyway, she meets him again when she rescues a child from being run over by a car and he, despite being in his own car and on a date with a gorgeous girl, gets out to help her and takes the time to examine her for injuries. he even replaces the food she'd been shopping for and had dropped, and sends her lovely flowers afterwards. thus she sometimes finds herself thinking of him.
she thinks she won't see him again because he returns to Holland. but when her dad's dutch friend invites her to go visit him and his pretty daughter Mies, Lucy goes to Holland and is surprised to meet Fraam again over there, even if it does seem like the lovely Mies is set on marrying him.
SPOILERS
we see the handsome Fraam out on dates with one gorgeous girl after another. but even in her old dresses, Lucy impresses him with her graceful dancing at the hospital dance, her kind heart when rescuing a cat, and by the time she has to leave Holland, she spots him staring longingly at her across a restaurant when while he's on a date with a redheaded beauty. but in typical humble fashion, she decides he must have been staring at Mies...
we get those lovely hints early on that he might be a bit besotted with our sweet little Lucy e.g when she asks him about his date, "are you going to marry her?" and he responds with a harsh impatient, "it'll be all your fault if I do!" plus a few stolen kisses on the slimmest of excuses because he just can't help himself!
we see him watch over Lucy, like finding excuses to see her safely onto her flight home. and he even comes looking for her once she's back in England, not that she can tell from his bland impersonal face and attitude towards her.
we get to see them working together to save a pregnant mother who is snowed in and about to deliver breech twins, and when Lucy is exhausted by the ordeal, gently carry her up to bed and kiss her on the cheek and unashamedly tell her mother he thinks she is the darlingest of darling girls!
he makes himself useful shovelling snow, washing dishes etc while he remains snowed in with her family for a couple of days, and she has her epiphany that she's fallen in love with him. she thinks he will pity her in the nicest way should he find out, so she is desperate to hide her feelings from him, and keeps him at arms length after that.
Fraam takes Lucy back to Holland on the slim excuse of needing her to nurse her dad's dutch friend while he recovers from an operation (despite her later finding the hospital is very well staffed.)
when she gets to Holland, it is him waiting for her at the airport and the first thing he does is drive her to his house to have dinner with his family, who welcome her in with open arms. however, while she does her nursing job and determinedly hides her feelings, he mentions sometimes that he is busy because he is going out on dates. poor Lucy. but she's a girl who has no good opinion of her own looks and has no expectation of him feeling anything for her, so she feels sad and lonely but not overly anguished.
imagine our surprise when at 80% he suddenly proposes to her. when she accepts, he even makes her confess that she loves him, but he doesn't say the same. he tells her he knew she loved him and saw it on her face the moment she realised it. that the other girls meant nothing and asks her if she is jealous, and when she says no (to hide her horribly jealous feelings), he says he wishes she was. he gives her a lovely ruby ring and she is so happy, but also insecure, not fully understanding why he wants to marry her and aware he hasn't said he loves her.
to make things worse for her, when told of their engagement, Mies (herself happily engaged to another guy by now) is utterly shocked and says he's only had eyes for the gorgeous Adila and taken her out on many dates after Lucy went back to England.
when she asks him who Adila is, he says she meant nothing. but he also comments on Lucy being very much a parson's daughter and old fashioned and says maybe he is rushing her and they should go back to slowly getting to know one another.
after some thought, Lucy regrets this thought of a delay and wants to tell him she wants to marry him ASAP, but he's busy with work and she doesn't get a chance.
ENDING SPOILERS
by this time, he's taken her to stay in his own home with his pretty younger sister. he has the nerve to bring adila to have lunch with them one day, apparently to show Lucy that adila is just a shallow beauty, but Lucy feels confused and insecure by the encounter. and a mean old aunt of his makes matters worse by telling her he is a ladies' man and that he must have chosen lucy to marry because she is the sort of quiet girl who will turn a blind eye to his infidelities. he quickly comes and rescues her from his spiteful aunt, but later when Lucy sees him driving with Adila one day and confronts him, he says comments that his aunt's mischeif must have worked. but says that he never had lunch with adila and she had begged a lift from him.
the man has plenty of chances to say he loves her, but he never does.
when he has to go away for a few days, saying he's going to Brussels to see a patient, adila comes to visit Lucy and cause mischief. she says that Lucy is the type of old fashioned idiot (that will give him kids and never question him) that he needs while he carries on living his own life. that he doesn't care who he marries ever since Adila turned him down because she doesn't want a boring married life or kids. she says that he lied about Brussels and he actually went to London, where adila is shortly going to meet with him. but tells her not to worry about their ongoing affair because adila is discreet. when Fraam's manservant confirms that Fraam went to London, not Brussels, poor Lucy believes the worst. she immediately runs out of the house after flinging her ring mindlessly into a teacup.
unable to bear it, she is determined to never go back even though she's left her purse behind. she wonders the streets of Amsterdam and eventually checks into a reputable hotel where she and Fraam dined once. but after her overnight stay, as she can't pay, she must ask the skeptical clerk woman to phone fraam's house and ask the manservant to deliver her purse. the clerk sneers at her, not believing that she is engaged to fraam due to her plain looks and lack of a ring.
she waits in her room until someone arrives and is horrified to find it is a furious fraam who has come. he is angry and scathing until he realises that adila caused mischief, after which he immediately becomes softer and demands Lucy explain and comforts her about some of the cruel things adila said. i love how he says he rushed back to Holland the moment his manservant called to say she had run off and he's exhausted and had been terrified.
he says he never gave a crap for adila and that she was being nasty out of sheer boredom. he confesses he went to england to get Lucy released quickly from her job without notice because he couldn't bear to wait to marry. and that he didn't tell her because she would only have made excuses to delay. he finally expresses his love for her and its very sweet. he says he fell for her at first sight in that lecture theatre and wanted to get off stage and carry her off. that he has been terrified she wouldn't have him. etc. it's sweet. it doesn't explain why he was dating girls left right and center but I don't care because I love a bit of OW drama and angst. I am gona assume he was falling back on old habits and 'passing the time' and also trying to soothe his ego during his lovelorn wait for Lucy to fall in love with him. lol.
CONCLUSION
the angst towards the end and the runaway heroine ending (and the hero having to suffer his own angst while chasing her down) made this a stronger read for me. It livened things up with some much needed angst and drama. the book also had a nice balance of inscrutability and snark from the hero and subtle pining from him too. plus they were both likeable characters and there was plenty of plot to keep the pace and depth interesting. I liked it and enjoyed rereading it.
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Content Note: The version of the book i read has a main character use a racist saying which i found jarring. even if published in 1979, it was offputting. I hope modern versions of this book will have removed it.