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these violent delights
The RMS Titanic is the Ship of Dreams—considered unsinkable and insurmountable in her luxury, she is the largest ocean liner in the world. Her maiden voyage from Southampton to New York begins 10 April 1912 with more than 2,000 souls on board.
Regulus and Sirius Black are English-French royalty and First Class passengers. It's a luxury most can only dream of. But for both brothers, the Titanic is a nightmare bringing them closer to futures they do not want.
James Potter and Remus Lupin aren't supposed to be on the Titanic. They get lucky winning Third Class tickets in a poker game just moments before she sets sail. For them it's a fresh start, a sure shot to new lives and freedom across the sea.
It's purely by accident that their paths cross; First and Third Class passengers don't often end up in the same spaces. Yet this time they do, and what begins is a tumultuous and harrowing love story marked by a tragedy none of them will ever forget.
Regulus and Sirius Black are English-French royalty and First Class passengers. It's a luxury most can only dream of. But for both brothers, the Titanic is a nightmare bringing them closer to futures they do not want.
James Potter and Remus Lupin aren't supposed to be on the Titanic. They get lucky winning Third Class tickets in a poker game just moments before she sets sail. For them it's a fresh start, a sure shot to new lives and freedom across the sea.
It's purely by accident that their paths cross; First and Third Class passengers don't often end up in the same spaces. Yet this time they do, and what begins is a tumultuous and harrowing love story marked by a tragedy none of them will ever forget.
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251 pages, ebook
Published May 17, 2023
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September 6, 2024
Made me cry more than the film did 🤗
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March 30, 2025“What’s that from?”
“Romeo and Juliet.”
“Isn’t that a tragedy?”
“Aren’t we?” Regulus counters softly.
“Romeo and Juliet.”
“Isn’t that a tragedy?”
“Aren’t we?” Regulus counters softly.
January 24, 2024
Glad to report, it did in fact, destroy me. But it was written so beautifully, & it was so fast paced, I got completely swept up. Not better than Choices - Volume 2 but, perhaps equally as good.
Pre-Read:
This has the potential to destroy me
Pre-Read:
This has the potential to destroy me
July 1, 2024
“You’re letting them win.” James reaches out, fingers brushing along Regulus’ arm. “You burn so bright, love. Like the star you’re named after.”
“Give him time. Let him heal. You’re still healing, too.”
“I know, but I have you. Who does he have?”
They let him sleep on the couch. Remus ushers Sirius into their bedroom, telling him to walk quieter and quit sighing so much. Neither of them ever tell James to go home on these nights. They know he doesn’t really have one anymore.”
“A sky full of stars and the sun that chased them for a lifetime.”
This was so good omg. A jegulus and wolfstar titanic au is a blessing for the universe. And it was a decently short fic as well.
James and Regulus were so cute. They were a little rush but that’s to be expected from a short fic. The soulmatism really popped off. Can’t pretend I wasn’t surprised to see Regulus die, it was very reminiscent of Art Heist, Baby!, particularly the epilogue.
Wolfstar was also adorable. I liked Andromeda as the Molly from the film. Walburga and Orion sucked as per usual.
A lovely fic.
“Give him time. Let him heal. You’re still healing, too.”
“I know, but I have you. Who does he have?”
They let him sleep on the couch. Remus ushers Sirius into their bedroom, telling him to walk quieter and quit sighing so much. Neither of them ever tell James to go home on these nights. They know he doesn’t really have one anymore.”
“A sky full of stars and the sun that chased them for a lifetime.”
This was so good omg. A jegulus and wolfstar titanic au is a blessing for the universe. And it was a decently short fic as well.
James and Regulus were so cute. They were a little rush but that’s to be expected from a short fic. The soulmatism really popped off. Can’t pretend I wasn’t surprised to see Regulus die, it was very reminiscent of Art Heist, Baby!, particularly the epilogue.
Wolfstar was also adorable. I liked Andromeda as the Molly from the film. Walburga and Orion sucked as per usual.
A lovely fic.
July 19, 2025
the first half was slow but i read the entire second half in a day.
damagecontrol is SUCH a good writer hoping and praying they'll write stuff w/out 20 year age gaps in the future so i can read it 🤗🤗🤗
damagecontrol is SUCH a good writer hoping and praying they'll write stuff w/out 20 year age gaps in the future so i can read it 🤗🤗🤗
May 7, 2025
UWIELBIAM TO, TO JEST TAKIE TRAGICZNE. DAJE MI VIBE ART HEIST BABY Z TYMI WSZYSTKIMI
„Najgorsze jest to, że wciąż na ciebie czekam, Reg. Sześć lat i wciąż tu jestem, mając nadzieję, że przejdziesz przez moje drzwi i powiesz mi, że przeżyłeś, ale jakoś udało ci się wrócić do Francji, albo — albo gdzieś tak daleko, że zajęło ci sześć lat, żeby znaleźć drogę powrotną do mnie. Bo zawsze znajdziemy drogę powrotną, prawda? Tak powiedzieliśmy. „Gdziekolwiek pójdziesz, ja też pójdę”. Więc znajdę drogę powrotną do ciebie, nawet jeśli zajmie mi to całe życie”.
„Daj mu czas. Pozwól mu się wyleczyć. Ty też wciąż się leczysz”.
„Wiem, ale mam ciebie. Kogo on ma?”
Pozwalają mu spać na kanapie. Remus prowadzi Syriusza do ich sypialni, mówiąc mu, żeby chodził ciszej i przestał tak wzdychać. Żaden z nich nigdy nie mówi Jamesowi, żeby poszedł do domu w te noce. Wiedzą, że on już tak naprawdę nie ma nikogo.
Ale nawet gdy się goi, jest w nim część, która pozostaje... nieodkryta. To ta część jego samego, o której wie, że nigdy jej nie odzyska. To ta część jego samego, na którą wciąż czeka, mając nadzieję, że wejdzie przez drzwi wejściowe i powie mu, że to wszystko był zły sen, że nigdy nie odeszła.
Nawet po upływie tak długiego czasu James Potter nadal czeka.
POPŁAKAŁAM SIĘ, POMOCY.
JAMES NIE PAMIĘTAŁ GŁOSU REGULUSA.
DOPIERO W WIEKU 90. LAT ZOBACZYŁ PONOWNIE RYSUNEK REGULUSA.
JAMES ZOSTAŁ SAM.
TO BYŁO TAKIE TRAGICZNE.
„Najgorsze jest to, że wciąż na ciebie czekam, Reg. Sześć lat i wciąż tu jestem, mając nadzieję, że przejdziesz przez moje drzwi i powiesz mi, że przeżyłeś, ale jakoś udało ci się wrócić do Francji, albo — albo gdzieś tak daleko, że zajęło ci sześć lat, żeby znaleźć drogę powrotną do mnie. Bo zawsze znajdziemy drogę powrotną, prawda? Tak powiedzieliśmy. „Gdziekolwiek pójdziesz, ja też pójdę”. Więc znajdę drogę powrotną do ciebie, nawet jeśli zajmie mi to całe życie”.
„Daj mu czas. Pozwól mu się wyleczyć. Ty też wciąż się leczysz”.
„Wiem, ale mam ciebie. Kogo on ma?”
Pozwalają mu spać na kanapie. Remus prowadzi Syriusza do ich sypialni, mówiąc mu, żeby chodził ciszej i przestał tak wzdychać. Żaden z nich nigdy nie mówi Jamesowi, żeby poszedł do domu w te noce. Wiedzą, że on już tak naprawdę nie ma nikogo.
Ale nawet gdy się goi, jest w nim część, która pozostaje... nieodkryta. To ta część jego samego, o której wie, że nigdy jej nie odzyska. To ta część jego samego, na którą wciąż czeka, mając nadzieję, że wejdzie przez drzwi wejściowe i powie mu, że to wszystko był zły sen, że nigdy nie odeszła.
Nawet po upływie tak długiego czasu James Potter nadal czeka.
POPŁAKAŁAM SIĘ, POMOCY.
JAMES NIE PAMIĘTAŁ GŁOSU REGULUSA.
DOPIERO W WIEKU 90. LAT ZOBACZYŁ PONOWNIE RYSUNEK REGULUSA.
JAMES ZOSTAŁ SAM.
TO BYŁO TAKIE TRAGICZNE.
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October 25, 2025
“Ruin me. I’ll let you. I don’t care. You’re worth it. You’ve ruined me already. There won’t ever be anyone else for me but you.”
Imagine my eye twitching after reading back that quote. The storyline was literally in front of me and I didn’t get it.
Listen I’ve never watched titanic so I was not aware this was how it was gonna go. I had my intuition but there was no mcd tag so yeah. This means this was genuinely the most devastating two chapters of a book I’ve ever read. I didn’t need to know this.
Imagine my eye twitching after reading back that quote. The storyline was literally in front of me and I didn’t get it.
Listen I’ve never watched titanic so I was not aware this was how it was gonna go. I had my intuition but there was no mcd tag so yeah. This means this was genuinely the most devastating two chapters of a book I’ve ever read. I didn’t need to know this.
November 3, 2024
4/5⭐️ por lo mal que lo he pasado el 75% del libro
osea si, se que la historia era literalmente sobre el titanic, pero no esperaba pasarlo tan tan mal
Iban a ser 3/5 porque encima tenia miedo de que se muriese alguno en la guerra, pero el bendito final le ha aumentado una estrellaza
juro que a partir de ahora voy a leer y releer todos los tags antes de empezar un fic porque no necesito que esto se repita
osea si, se que la historia era literalmente sobre el titanic, pero no esperaba pasarlo tan tan mal
Iban a ser 3/5 porque encima tenia miedo de que se muriese alguno en la guerra, pero el bendito final le ha aumentado una estrellaza
juro que a partir de ahora voy a leer y releer todos los tags antes de empezar un fic porque no necesito que esto se repita
June 20, 2025
The story was fine but THE TITANIC!!!!! (I really, really love the Titanic. I went to the Titanic immersive experience. I use a Titanic keyring. Every couple of years the hyperfixation comes back in full force)
November 20, 2023
If you’re a titanic and jegulus girlie, you HAVE TO read this fic! This one will always hold a special place in my heart 🫶🏻
May 26, 2025
4.5/5- “a sky full of stars and the sun that chased them for a lifetime.”
October 19, 2025
Ugh. Die car-szene? Fand alles sehr sehr gut und richtig schön und schrecklich, aber lets be for real: this dramatic nach fünf tagen? Najaaaaa. Sonst loved it.
He could be happy like this—out on the open ocean with no one around him. Alone. It would be so much easier to disappear beneath the waves. And really—who would miss him if he was gone?
It is at this precise moment—on the tenth of April at nearly two in the afternoon—that James Potter falls in love. So ridiculously and unbelievably and all-consumingly in love.
“We’ve got a week on this ship,” James says. “I guarantee you that I can get him to fall in love with me in less than that.” Remus groans and rubs a hand down his face. “We are so fucking screwed.”
Regulus watches as the other men lift their glasses and echo, “To George!” He debates the merits of using his dinner fork to stab himself in the eye.
Can’t Sirius see how exhausted he is? Can’t he see that his little brother is drowning?
He wants and wants and wants, but he will never have it, and oh, if that isn’t the greatest disappointment of all.
“What do you care if I jump? You don’t know me.” “I want to know you.” It’s risky, but James goes for it. What does he really have to lose? Regulus’ entire body tenses; his knuckles turn white on the railing. “What did you just say?” “I want to know you. But if you jump then I’ll always wonder who Regulus Arcturus Black really was.”
“So what do you care about?” “Poetry.” There’s no pause between James’ question and Regulus’ answer, as if he expected James to ask. Or at least hoped that he would. “I care about poetry. Literature. Art.” “I’m an artist,” James tells him. “I do mostly portraits with charcoal but I like oil paintings, too. Can’t write for shit, though.” Regulus laughs—it’s as bitter as his voice, but there’s a beauty in it that James can’t quite place. He wants to hear it again. “Of course you’re an artist.”
“Regulus. Don’t jump.” Regulus turns at the sound of his name. He looks at James and James is certain that no one has ever looked at him like this before. It feels like Regulus is staring straight through to his soul, forcing it open and demanding that it tell him what it holds.
Amber eyes, like warm whisky. A scar that cuts from brow to chin. Sandy brown hair. Tall and broad-shouldered. Familiar.
“He looked at you like he’s in love with you, Reggie.” “He is not,” Regulus snaps quietly, glancing at their mother. “He’s—He’s annoying. And I—” “And you looked at him like you wanted to murder him,” Sirius continues, unperturbed by his brother’s protests. “Which means you’re in love with him, too.”
They are two people destined to meet, but not to be.
They’re impossible. This meeting is impossible, surely.
They are precious things that he does not deserve. That he wants, but cannot ever have.
I know you, Sirius Black. I know you, and I have thought of you every day for two years.
I know you, Sirius Black. Don’t you remember me?
Regulus huffs a breath and says in a low, unbelievably velvety voice, “Tu es la personne la plus agaçante que j’ai pu rencontrer et pour une raison que j’ignore j’ai quand même envie de t’embrasser.” James makes a small noise in his throat and stops walking. It’s sudden, and Regulus nearly walks right into his chest. “That was the sexiest thing I’ve ever heard. But I have no idea what you said.” At this, Regulus rolls his eyes.
“You’re insufferable. You know that, right?” Regulus mutters. “I think you told me that already. Aren’t you supposed to be a poet? You need new words, love.” James watches Regulus’ breath hitch, his eyes widening a fraction.
He’s still admiring the clock when the third beautiful thing he sees that evening steps into his line of sight. This is when James decides that the English lexicon is not adequate enough to describe just what he feels for and thinks of Regulus Black.
We won our tickets with a lucky hand of poker.” He glances at Regulus, catching his eye as he adds, “A very lucky hand.” Regulus’ cheeks go slightly pink, and he looks quickly away.
A waiter dips beside him, offering caviar. “No, thank you. Don’t much care for that stuff. It smells weird.” Regulus coughs suddenly and grabs for his napkin again. Sirius pats him on the back, shooting James a look that seems to say, Stop making him laugh. Now.
Regulus watches—and decides that this is what it truly feels like to fall in love. It’s hurtling forward faster than the ship they’re on. It’s standing on the edge of a precipice except James is there too, smiling at him over champagne and caviar and elaborate dinner spreads, holding out his hand as he says, This time, it’s okay if you jump. We’ll do it together.
Nor would he ever admit that he is decidedly in love with James Potter. The first time he thinks it at dinner, he has to cough loudly, muffling it in his napkin. The second time he thinks it, he clears his throat and reaches for his champagne. Sometimes it’s a laugh that bubbles up out of his throat at the ludicrousness of it; those are much harder to hide but he manages, even as Sirius glances over at him with concern.
“It was his expression, Reggie,” Sirius explains, gesturing at his own face. “It looked like trouble.” Regulus groans. “Then we should not be going to find him.” Sirius shoots him a grin. “It’s exactly what we should be doing.”
Regulus shudders at the feel of James’ mouth against his skin. Drunk—he is so, so drunk on all of this.
“If we stay here long enough we might see a shooting star.” “Do you know what you’d wish for?” He can feel James still looking at him. “Something I can’t have.” James inhales sharply. “You can have it, Regulus,” he whispers. The warmth of his breath fans across Regulus’ cold cheek. “You don’t need to wish on a star. You can take it for yourself.”
“Only if you want.” “Je te veux plus que je n’ai jamais voulu quoi que ce soit dans ma vie,” Regulus says softly. James makes a strangled noise low in his throat. “I practically begged you to speak French earlier and now you want to? You’re killing me here.”
Remus’ mouth quirks again, and Sirius could die right where he stands.
“How much did we drink? I didn’t think it was this much. It’s getting worse by the second.” “Too much.” Remus cracks an eye open to look at Sirius. He’s flushed and glowing from the heat of the dining hall. Remus’ heart pangs in his chest. “Might’ve not drank enough,” he mumbles.
Sirius huffs, rolling his shoulders back. “Would you just let me walk you to your door, you stubborn ass?”
“You’re driving me mad.” Sirius’ voice is soft and low. It’s velvet, blanketing Remus, sending shivers down his spine. Sirius leans closer. “Do you know that, Remus Lupin? Absolutely mad.” Remus swallows. “I’m not sure why.”
shouts, This is an awful, terrible, very bad idea, Remus John Lupin, and you will regret it until the end of your days if you say—“Yes,” Remus breathes.
“I stared at you for ages,” Sirius starts to protest, but Remus finds his mouth again, sealing their lips together in a searing kiss.
“That was a bad idea,” he says quickly, standing straight and adjusting his own trousers. “That was—” “Something I want to do again,” Sirius finishes.
“Because it’s always me that gets left, Sirius.” He grips the doorknob, fingers curling against the cool iron. “And I’m so tired of not getting to keep the things I want most. I'd rather never have them at all.”
“Can we please talk? It’ll only take a second.” “I doubt that. You talk too much.” “Only when it’s important.”
“You’re letting them win.” James reaches out, fingers brushing along Regulus’ arm. “You burn so bright, love. Like the star you’re named after.”
“You’ve ruined me already. There won’t ever be anyone else for me but you.” “You’re mad.” “I’m in love.” Regulus laughs softly. “Is there a difference?”
“Sirius looks like he would buy you a bouquet of roses. Regulus looks like he would shove them down your throat.”
“And for you?” James asks. “What would it take?” Sirius grins. “For Remus to ask it of me.” James bangs his head against the heavy metal of the mast. “Of course I had to pick the stubborn brother.”
But here James is—still with his bleeding heart in his hands, holding it out, offered with a choice and a chance to run away, and Regulus is so fucking in love with him that he can feel it crawling up his throat, begging to burst free.
“How would it have been different, if Narcissa and Bellatrix had been with you?” Andromeda smiles. She doesn’t look up from her book when she answers, “I don’t think I would have come back at all.”
The sky turns from deep purple to fathomless black. Stars wink into existence, blanketing the night sky. And James Potter waits.
When soft little smiles meant just for Regulus were enough to make him fall in love, and James stood with his hand outstretched, saying, This time, it’s okay if you jump. We’ll do it together.
“I can’t forget him. He’s—He’s a nuisance. A handsome, wonderful, fucking sunshine of a nuisance and I want—” “Oh, my God,” Sirius groans, dropping his forehead into his hands. “You are so drunk. I can’t deal with this.” Regulus grips the back of Sirius’ neck and leans down, shaking him. “You can’t deal with this? I can’t deal with this. Why do you think I’m drinking the entire bar?”
“I’m leaving with you, Reg. Whether that means it’s with our parents, or with James. I’m leaving with you. That’s my final decision.” “So if I don’t go?” “Then I don’t.” “And if I do go?” “Then I do, too.”
He could travel, and write, and he would never be a pawn again. He could be a king.
“Where are you going?” There’s hope in Sirius’ voice, and Regulus smiles. “I’m going to find James.” Sirius startles, but quickly corrects himself, schooling his expression back into boredom. “Are you sure?” “I’ve never been more sure in my life.”
This is happiness. This is what it is to be loved, and cherished, and wanted.
Regulus supresses a smile as James stumbles in his dance steps, cursing quietly when his toe stubs against the rigging. Oh, he loves James. Inexplicably, unreasonably—he loves him.
There was simply before James Potter, and now there will only ever be after him.
Regulus steps from the shadows and out into the light.
He would know that voice anywhere. Posh London accent with a lilt of French. The best thing he’s ever heard. Devastating and beautiful and—
“Sirius is coming, too.” “I expected that.” “Him and Remus?” “A disaster. But I suppose they’d say the same about us.”
“You see, I have this—this problem, where I want to kiss you the second I wake up, and right before I fall asleep, and every moment in-between.”
Kissing Regulus feels like holding a star in his hands, the burn of it against his palms the best thing he’s ever felt.
“Do you want to keep it on?” Regulus takes his bottom lip between his teeth. “I can wear just the locket, if you’d like.” James drops the locket as though burned. “I’m trying to be professional, love. You’re making this very difficult for me.”
“What do you—Oh.” James has never been a religious man. He has little interest in the semantics of worship. But as he lowers himself to his knees in front of Regulus, who looks down at him with heavy-lidded, black eyes, every bit the benevolent god, James understands.
“I like you best like this,” Regulus whispers, soft as silk. “Like what, love?”
“On your knees for me.”
“And you are perfect. So perfect it pisses me off sometimes.” Regulus snorts. “Romantic.”
“Let me—” “Leave it.” Regulus yawns, and buries his face in James’ neck, just under his chin. “It lets me know that what we just did wasn’t a dream.”
“Remind me, what does James see in you again?” Regulus replies, deadpanned, “My shining optimism and winning personality.” “Oh, don’t make me laugh.”
“Stop that.” James reaches out and grips Remus’ wrist, stopping the trajectory of scotch to his mouth. “You’re being pathetic. And annoying.” Remus glares at him. “You are pathetic. And you are annoying.”
“You’re no fun sometimes.” “I’m fine with that. Can you leave me alone to drink in peace now? Your sunny disposition is really killing my mood.”
“Do you ever think about the way the sun and stars are never in the sky at the same time?”
“Shit,” Sirius says, stumbling backward. The collision knocks the breath from his lungs, and he wheezes, bent over, hands on his knees. “That hurt. What are you, made of stone?” “Oh. I’ve been looking for you.” Sirius blinks.
Sirius smiles up at him. There’s breath in his lungs again. Too much of it, filling him up so that it bubbles up and out in a laugh. “Hello, Remus,” he says. “I’ve been looking for you, too.”
“And you mean it? Do you truly mean you’ll go?” Sirius blinks up at him beneath long, dark lashes. “Of course I do. I wouldn’t be here if—What are you doing?” Remus has reached around him for the door handle. Instead of opening it, he turns the lock with a soft click. “Taking what I want,” he answers.
Sirius looks back at him with a wild, bright grin, and oh, Remus would follow him to the depths of hell if he asked.
“What are you?” “Yours,” Sirius answers. And oh, if that isn’t the finest thing Remus has heard all day.
Do you remember me at all, now that you know?” There’s a pause. It stretches, infinite and unbearable, between them. “I remember you, Remus Lupin,” Sirius says. “Now I just hope I can forget you.”
Sirius reaches out, ready to help him step into the lifeboat. A hand outstretched. A small, soft smile, just for him. Always just for him. No.
“I’m sorry,” Regulus calls to Sirius. “But I won’t let him die. Not like this. I'll find you. But I—I need to do this. For me.” “Regulus!” Sirius screams into the night. “Fuck, let me off!”
There’s no guarantee he’ll survive this, or that he’ll even be able to find James amidst the chaos. But he has to try. For James. For himself. For the life he so desperately wants to live. Regulus turns on his heel—and he runs.
“Since you'll never find out otherwise, I just thought you should know,” he says, bending his knees in a slight crouch, “that I let Remus Lupin fuck me in the Renault's backseat.”
“If I die, Reggie, I’m haunting you for the rest of my fucking life.”
“What is going on?” shouts a woman nearby. She gestures frantically at Sirius as he tries to haul himself over. “Why are people jumping back onboard?” “Because I’m fucking stupid,” Sirius manages to choke out. “And my brother is also an idiot.”
“But I’d rather die with you than live without you.” “That’s very poetic, love,” James jokes. “You should write it down.”
“You know, I could still leave you here. If you’re going to be annoying, I just might.” James bites his lip to keep from smiling. “But if you leave me here, who’s going to find that little spot you like? You know, the one between your—” “James Potter, I will leave you here to die,” Regulus seethes, cheeks tinged slightly pink. “Shut up.”
Sirius shrugs. “I asked him to let people through and he wouldn’t. Told him if he didn’t, I’d punch him. He still said no, so I did what I told him I’d do. Simple as that.” Remus blinks at him, dumbstruck. “You’re a fucking marvel.”
James walks ahead with Regulus’ hand in his, their fingers laced together. A quiet affection, something that makes Remus’ heart twinge. Until Sirius reaches out and intertwines their fingers, squeezing Remus’ hand with gentle reassurance.
He falls asleep slowly, blinking up at the night sky. Thankful that even though Regulus isn’t here beside him, at least he can still look up and find his star.
Mostly Regulus is thankful that for at least a little while, he could hold the sun in the palms of his hands. Feel its laughter and warmth. All of its love—every bloody ray of it, finding all of his dark corners, all the ugly bits he tucks away, only to love all of them anyway.
“These violent delights have violent ends,” Regulus replies. “And in their triumph die, like fire and powder.” James cocks his head. “What’s that from?” “Romeo and Juliet.” “Isn’t that a tragedy?” “Aren’t we?” Regulus counters softly.
And for as cruel as the universe may be, Regulus is thankful it let him feel the sun one last time before his heartbeat slows. Quiets. Stops.
It’s here in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean, surrounded by dark waters and beneath a blanket of stars, that James Potter’s heart cleaves in two.
“I’ll never be the same,” Sirius whispers the night before they’re meant to arrive in New York. “I—I feel wrong waking up in a world where he isn’t in it.” “I know. I feel it, too,” James replies, reaching out to squeeze Sirius’ shoulder.
He thinks, I need to tell Reggie—This is when it hits him. It’s a thousand ton weight on his chest, knocking the air from his lungs. He’s awake in less than a second, aware that he doesn’t need to tell Regulus anything because he isn’t here. His little brother is dead. This is what he feels fresh and new each day, every time he wakes.
Until the dips and valleys of Regulus were memorized by James’ hands. Until he would know Regulus anywhere, from touch alone.
It takes him a year of grueling, nonstop work, but on a blustery summer’s day in August of 1927, James finishes building a grand, magnificent house with five rooms.
Even after all this time, James Potter still waits.
It may never be enough. Not really. But it is, at least, some semblance of peace. ☾
On the day that Remus Lupin dies, the moon is full.
“Regulus,” he breathes, fingertips still on the screen even after they take the drawing away. James makes a strangled noise at the loss of it. “Regulus? Dad’s brother?” James smiles. “One and the same. Andi, we need to make a call.”
“I’ve loved you every second of every minute of every day, just as I promised you I would. I hope it was enough.” Before he can think twice about it, James lets the locket fall from his fingers—and watches it slip beneath the ocean waves. That night, in the quiet dark of his cabin and warm in his bed, James Potter breathes his last breath.
“I only made you wait two days, James. You made me wait seventy-three years.”
“I’m so sorry, love,” James says. “I’m so sorry that it took me this long to find my way back to you.” Regulus leans into him, winding his arms around James’ neck. “It’s alright. You have an eternity to make it up to me.”
He could be happy like this—out on the open ocean with no one around him. Alone. It would be so much easier to disappear beneath the waves. And really—who would miss him if he was gone?
It is at this precise moment—on the tenth of April at nearly two in the afternoon—that James Potter falls in love. So ridiculously and unbelievably and all-consumingly in love.
“We’ve got a week on this ship,” James says. “I guarantee you that I can get him to fall in love with me in less than that.” Remus groans and rubs a hand down his face. “We are so fucking screwed.”
Regulus watches as the other men lift their glasses and echo, “To George!” He debates the merits of using his dinner fork to stab himself in the eye.
Can’t Sirius see how exhausted he is? Can’t he see that his little brother is drowning?
He wants and wants and wants, but he will never have it, and oh, if that isn’t the greatest disappointment of all.
“What do you care if I jump? You don’t know me.” “I want to know you.” It’s risky, but James goes for it. What does he really have to lose? Regulus’ entire body tenses; his knuckles turn white on the railing. “What did you just say?” “I want to know you. But if you jump then I’ll always wonder who Regulus Arcturus Black really was.”
“So what do you care about?” “Poetry.” There’s no pause between James’ question and Regulus’ answer, as if he expected James to ask. Or at least hoped that he would. “I care about poetry. Literature. Art.” “I’m an artist,” James tells him. “I do mostly portraits with charcoal but I like oil paintings, too. Can’t write for shit, though.” Regulus laughs—it’s as bitter as his voice, but there’s a beauty in it that James can’t quite place. He wants to hear it again. “Of course you’re an artist.”
“Regulus. Don’t jump.” Regulus turns at the sound of his name. He looks at James and James is certain that no one has ever looked at him like this before. It feels like Regulus is staring straight through to his soul, forcing it open and demanding that it tell him what it holds.
Amber eyes, like warm whisky. A scar that cuts from brow to chin. Sandy brown hair. Tall and broad-shouldered. Familiar.
“He looked at you like he’s in love with you, Reggie.” “He is not,” Regulus snaps quietly, glancing at their mother. “He’s—He’s annoying. And I—” “And you looked at him like you wanted to murder him,” Sirius continues, unperturbed by his brother’s protests. “Which means you’re in love with him, too.”
They are two people destined to meet, but not to be.
They’re impossible. This meeting is impossible, surely.
They are precious things that he does not deserve. That he wants, but cannot ever have.
I know you, Sirius Black. I know you, and I have thought of you every day for two years.
I know you, Sirius Black. Don’t you remember me?
Regulus huffs a breath and says in a low, unbelievably velvety voice, “Tu es la personne la plus agaçante que j’ai pu rencontrer et pour une raison que j’ignore j’ai quand même envie de t’embrasser.” James makes a small noise in his throat and stops walking. It’s sudden, and Regulus nearly walks right into his chest. “That was the sexiest thing I’ve ever heard. But I have no idea what you said.” At this, Regulus rolls his eyes.
“You’re insufferable. You know that, right?” Regulus mutters. “I think you told me that already. Aren’t you supposed to be a poet? You need new words, love.” James watches Regulus’ breath hitch, his eyes widening a fraction.
He’s still admiring the clock when the third beautiful thing he sees that evening steps into his line of sight. This is when James decides that the English lexicon is not adequate enough to describe just what he feels for and thinks of Regulus Black.
We won our tickets with a lucky hand of poker.” He glances at Regulus, catching his eye as he adds, “A very lucky hand.” Regulus’ cheeks go slightly pink, and he looks quickly away.
A waiter dips beside him, offering caviar. “No, thank you. Don’t much care for that stuff. It smells weird.” Regulus coughs suddenly and grabs for his napkin again. Sirius pats him on the back, shooting James a look that seems to say, Stop making him laugh. Now.
Regulus watches—and decides that this is what it truly feels like to fall in love. It’s hurtling forward faster than the ship they’re on. It’s standing on the edge of a precipice except James is there too, smiling at him over champagne and caviar and elaborate dinner spreads, holding out his hand as he says, This time, it’s okay if you jump. We’ll do it together.
Nor would he ever admit that he is decidedly in love with James Potter. The first time he thinks it at dinner, he has to cough loudly, muffling it in his napkin. The second time he thinks it, he clears his throat and reaches for his champagne. Sometimes it’s a laugh that bubbles up out of his throat at the ludicrousness of it; those are much harder to hide but he manages, even as Sirius glances over at him with concern.
“It was his expression, Reggie,” Sirius explains, gesturing at his own face. “It looked like trouble.” Regulus groans. “Then we should not be going to find him.” Sirius shoots him a grin. “It’s exactly what we should be doing.”
Regulus shudders at the feel of James’ mouth against his skin. Drunk—he is so, so drunk on all of this.
“If we stay here long enough we might see a shooting star.” “Do you know what you’d wish for?” He can feel James still looking at him. “Something I can’t have.” James inhales sharply. “You can have it, Regulus,” he whispers. The warmth of his breath fans across Regulus’ cold cheek. “You don’t need to wish on a star. You can take it for yourself.”
“Only if you want.” “Je te veux plus que je n’ai jamais voulu quoi que ce soit dans ma vie,” Regulus says softly. James makes a strangled noise low in his throat. “I practically begged you to speak French earlier and now you want to? You’re killing me here.”
Remus’ mouth quirks again, and Sirius could die right where he stands.
“How much did we drink? I didn’t think it was this much. It’s getting worse by the second.” “Too much.” Remus cracks an eye open to look at Sirius. He’s flushed and glowing from the heat of the dining hall. Remus’ heart pangs in his chest. “Might’ve not drank enough,” he mumbles.
Sirius huffs, rolling his shoulders back. “Would you just let me walk you to your door, you stubborn ass?”
“You’re driving me mad.” Sirius’ voice is soft and low. It’s velvet, blanketing Remus, sending shivers down his spine. Sirius leans closer. “Do you know that, Remus Lupin? Absolutely mad.” Remus swallows. “I’m not sure why.”
shouts, This is an awful, terrible, very bad idea, Remus John Lupin, and you will regret it until the end of your days if you say—“Yes,” Remus breathes.
“I stared at you for ages,” Sirius starts to protest, but Remus finds his mouth again, sealing their lips together in a searing kiss.
“That was a bad idea,” he says quickly, standing straight and adjusting his own trousers. “That was—” “Something I want to do again,” Sirius finishes.
“Because it’s always me that gets left, Sirius.” He grips the doorknob, fingers curling against the cool iron. “And I’m so tired of not getting to keep the things I want most. I'd rather never have them at all.”
“Can we please talk? It’ll only take a second.” “I doubt that. You talk too much.” “Only when it’s important.”
“You’re letting them win.” James reaches out, fingers brushing along Regulus’ arm. “You burn so bright, love. Like the star you’re named after.”
“You’ve ruined me already. There won’t ever be anyone else for me but you.” “You’re mad.” “I’m in love.” Regulus laughs softly. “Is there a difference?”
“Sirius looks like he would buy you a bouquet of roses. Regulus looks like he would shove them down your throat.”
“And for you?” James asks. “What would it take?” Sirius grins. “For Remus to ask it of me.” James bangs his head against the heavy metal of the mast. “Of course I had to pick the stubborn brother.”
But here James is—still with his bleeding heart in his hands, holding it out, offered with a choice and a chance to run away, and Regulus is so fucking in love with him that he can feel it crawling up his throat, begging to burst free.
“How would it have been different, if Narcissa and Bellatrix had been with you?” Andromeda smiles. She doesn’t look up from her book when she answers, “I don’t think I would have come back at all.”
The sky turns from deep purple to fathomless black. Stars wink into existence, blanketing the night sky. And James Potter waits.
When soft little smiles meant just for Regulus were enough to make him fall in love, and James stood with his hand outstretched, saying, This time, it’s okay if you jump. We’ll do it together.
“I can’t forget him. He’s—He’s a nuisance. A handsome, wonderful, fucking sunshine of a nuisance and I want—” “Oh, my God,” Sirius groans, dropping his forehead into his hands. “You are so drunk. I can’t deal with this.” Regulus grips the back of Sirius’ neck and leans down, shaking him. “You can’t deal with this? I can’t deal with this. Why do you think I’m drinking the entire bar?”
“I’m leaving with you, Reg. Whether that means it’s with our parents, or with James. I’m leaving with you. That’s my final decision.” “So if I don’t go?” “Then I don’t.” “And if I do go?” “Then I do, too.”
He could travel, and write, and he would never be a pawn again. He could be a king.
“Where are you going?” There’s hope in Sirius’ voice, and Regulus smiles. “I’m going to find James.” Sirius startles, but quickly corrects himself, schooling his expression back into boredom. “Are you sure?” “I’ve never been more sure in my life.”
This is happiness. This is what it is to be loved, and cherished, and wanted.
Regulus supresses a smile as James stumbles in his dance steps, cursing quietly when his toe stubs against the rigging. Oh, he loves James. Inexplicably, unreasonably—he loves him.
There was simply before James Potter, and now there will only ever be after him.
Regulus steps from the shadows and out into the light.
He would know that voice anywhere. Posh London accent with a lilt of French. The best thing he’s ever heard. Devastating and beautiful and—
“Sirius is coming, too.” “I expected that.” “Him and Remus?” “A disaster. But I suppose they’d say the same about us.”
“You see, I have this—this problem, where I want to kiss you the second I wake up, and right before I fall asleep, and every moment in-between.”
Kissing Regulus feels like holding a star in his hands, the burn of it against his palms the best thing he’s ever felt.
“Do you want to keep it on?” Regulus takes his bottom lip between his teeth. “I can wear just the locket, if you’d like.” James drops the locket as though burned. “I’m trying to be professional, love. You’re making this very difficult for me.”
“What do you—Oh.” James has never been a religious man. He has little interest in the semantics of worship. But as he lowers himself to his knees in front of Regulus, who looks down at him with heavy-lidded, black eyes, every bit the benevolent god, James understands.
“I like you best like this,” Regulus whispers, soft as silk. “Like what, love?”
“On your knees for me.”
“And you are perfect. So perfect it pisses me off sometimes.” Regulus snorts. “Romantic.”
“Let me—” “Leave it.” Regulus yawns, and buries his face in James’ neck, just under his chin. “It lets me know that what we just did wasn’t a dream.”
“Remind me, what does James see in you again?” Regulus replies, deadpanned, “My shining optimism and winning personality.” “Oh, don’t make me laugh.”
“Stop that.” James reaches out and grips Remus’ wrist, stopping the trajectory of scotch to his mouth. “You’re being pathetic. And annoying.” Remus glares at him. “You are pathetic. And you are annoying.”
“You’re no fun sometimes.” “I’m fine with that. Can you leave me alone to drink in peace now? Your sunny disposition is really killing my mood.”
“Do you ever think about the way the sun and stars are never in the sky at the same time?”
“Shit,” Sirius says, stumbling backward. The collision knocks the breath from his lungs, and he wheezes, bent over, hands on his knees. “That hurt. What are you, made of stone?” “Oh. I’ve been looking for you.” Sirius blinks.
Sirius smiles up at him. There’s breath in his lungs again. Too much of it, filling him up so that it bubbles up and out in a laugh. “Hello, Remus,” he says. “I’ve been looking for you, too.”
“And you mean it? Do you truly mean you’ll go?” Sirius blinks up at him beneath long, dark lashes. “Of course I do. I wouldn’t be here if—What are you doing?” Remus has reached around him for the door handle. Instead of opening it, he turns the lock with a soft click. “Taking what I want,” he answers.
Sirius looks back at him with a wild, bright grin, and oh, Remus would follow him to the depths of hell if he asked.
“What are you?” “Yours,” Sirius answers. And oh, if that isn’t the finest thing Remus has heard all day.
Do you remember me at all, now that you know?” There’s a pause. It stretches, infinite and unbearable, between them. “I remember you, Remus Lupin,” Sirius says. “Now I just hope I can forget you.”
Sirius reaches out, ready to help him step into the lifeboat. A hand outstretched. A small, soft smile, just for him. Always just for him. No.
“I’m sorry,” Regulus calls to Sirius. “But I won’t let him die. Not like this. I'll find you. But I—I need to do this. For me.” “Regulus!” Sirius screams into the night. “Fuck, let me off!”
There’s no guarantee he’ll survive this, or that he’ll even be able to find James amidst the chaos. But he has to try. For James. For himself. For the life he so desperately wants to live. Regulus turns on his heel—and he runs.
“Since you'll never find out otherwise, I just thought you should know,” he says, bending his knees in a slight crouch, “that I let Remus Lupin fuck me in the Renault's backseat.”
“If I die, Reggie, I’m haunting you for the rest of my fucking life.”
“What is going on?” shouts a woman nearby. She gestures frantically at Sirius as he tries to haul himself over. “Why are people jumping back onboard?” “Because I’m fucking stupid,” Sirius manages to choke out. “And my brother is also an idiot.”
“But I’d rather die with you than live without you.” “That’s very poetic, love,” James jokes. “You should write it down.”
“You know, I could still leave you here. If you’re going to be annoying, I just might.” James bites his lip to keep from smiling. “But if you leave me here, who’s going to find that little spot you like? You know, the one between your—” “James Potter, I will leave you here to die,” Regulus seethes, cheeks tinged slightly pink. “Shut up.”
Sirius shrugs. “I asked him to let people through and he wouldn’t. Told him if he didn’t, I’d punch him. He still said no, so I did what I told him I’d do. Simple as that.” Remus blinks at him, dumbstruck. “You’re a fucking marvel.”
James walks ahead with Regulus’ hand in his, their fingers laced together. A quiet affection, something that makes Remus’ heart twinge. Until Sirius reaches out and intertwines their fingers, squeezing Remus’ hand with gentle reassurance.
He falls asleep slowly, blinking up at the night sky. Thankful that even though Regulus isn’t here beside him, at least he can still look up and find his star.
Mostly Regulus is thankful that for at least a little while, he could hold the sun in the palms of his hands. Feel its laughter and warmth. All of its love—every bloody ray of it, finding all of his dark corners, all the ugly bits he tucks away, only to love all of them anyway.
“These violent delights have violent ends,” Regulus replies. “And in their triumph die, like fire and powder.” James cocks his head. “What’s that from?” “Romeo and Juliet.” “Isn’t that a tragedy?” “Aren’t we?” Regulus counters softly.
And for as cruel as the universe may be, Regulus is thankful it let him feel the sun one last time before his heartbeat slows. Quiets. Stops.
It’s here in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean, surrounded by dark waters and beneath a blanket of stars, that James Potter’s heart cleaves in two.
“I’ll never be the same,” Sirius whispers the night before they’re meant to arrive in New York. “I—I feel wrong waking up in a world where he isn’t in it.” “I know. I feel it, too,” James replies, reaching out to squeeze Sirius’ shoulder.
He thinks, I need to tell Reggie—This is when it hits him. It’s a thousand ton weight on his chest, knocking the air from his lungs. He’s awake in less than a second, aware that he doesn’t need to tell Regulus anything because he isn’t here. His little brother is dead. This is what he feels fresh and new each day, every time he wakes.
Until the dips and valleys of Regulus were memorized by James’ hands. Until he would know Regulus anywhere, from touch alone.
It takes him a year of grueling, nonstop work, but on a blustery summer’s day in August of 1927, James finishes building a grand, magnificent house with five rooms.
Even after all this time, James Potter still waits.
It may never be enough. Not really. But it is, at least, some semblance of peace. ☾
On the day that Remus Lupin dies, the moon is full.
“Regulus,” he breathes, fingertips still on the screen even after they take the drawing away. James makes a strangled noise at the loss of it. “Regulus? Dad’s brother?” James smiles. “One and the same. Andi, we need to make a call.”
“I’ve loved you every second of every minute of every day, just as I promised you I would. I hope it was enough.” Before he can think twice about it, James lets the locket fall from his fingers—and watches it slip beneath the ocean waves. That night, in the quiet dark of his cabin and warm in his bed, James Potter breathes his last breath.
“I only made you wait two days, James. You made me wait seventy-three years.”
“I’m so sorry, love,” James says. “I’m so sorry that it took me this long to find my way back to you.” Regulus leans into him, winding his arms around James’ neck. “It’s alright. You have an eternity to make it up to me.”
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September 23, 2024
Titanic Au meets Marauders (Jegulus). Heavy angst, Major character death, love at first sight.
I carry your heart with me and I am never without it Wherever you are, I am, my love; And you are whatever a star has always meant And whatever a sun will always be is you.
I knew picking this up will put be through three hours of hell. And it did. Do I regret it? No. Did I cry? Yes. Was it beautifully written? FUCK Yes!
The way James is so open for his love for Regulus and how expressive it is was so loving:
He realizes in that moment that he would do anything Regulus asks of him--he doesn't care what it is. He would steal. Beg.
Bend himself in half until he snaps. Regulus could ask him for the moon and James would find a way to pull it down to Earth Just to keep this, to keep him.
But how bittersweet and beautiful as the story goes.
I don’t think I’ve felt this much while watching the og movie.
I carry your heart with me and I am never without it Wherever you are, I am, my love; And you are whatever a star has always meant And whatever a sun will always be is you.
I knew picking this up will put be through three hours of hell. And it did. Do I regret it? No. Did I cry? Yes. Was it beautifully written? FUCK Yes!
The way James is so open for his love for Regulus and how expressive it is was so loving:
He realizes in that moment that he would do anything Regulus asks of him--he doesn't care what it is. He would steal. Beg.
Bend himself in half until he snaps. Regulus could ask him for the moon and James would find a way to pull it down to Earth Just to keep this, to keep him.
But how bittersweet and beautiful as the story goes.
I don’t think I’ve felt this much while watching the og movie.
April 21, 2024
After art heist baby I promised myself to never read a story including mcd... but well this took a quick turn again🤠
August 21, 2025
when i saw this was marauders x titanic, i was instantly like sign me up!! i love the movie titanic (young leonardo dicaprio 🤤) and marauders fanfics. unfortunately, this was not for me. i think i just like long fanfics because there’s more story and time to develop characters and romance more. this was just too short i think and wayyy too insta lovey (which is like my least fav trope i love slow burn). now i know not to read really short fanfics bc this was my least fav marauders fic that i read so far.
November 24, 2023
im actually numb
December 26, 2023
Well. It did hurt
April 14, 2025
jamespotterjamespotterjamespotterjamespotterjamespotter
May 5, 2024
I’ve never in my life cried so hard.
This is absolutely devastating. I know the story of the Titanic, ok? And I’ve seen the MCD tag (dreaded it half of the time, tbh) But NOTHING prepared me for this. Someone just took my heart out and ripped it apart.
My thoughts on this fic are as follows:
Quite fast paced but I really don’t care because they’ve lived several lifetimes in my head as lovers. So nothing fast about that.
I wanted more. Nah, needed more. I want this to be a 600,000 words fic. With all the hp characters.
The writing is beautiful ❤️❤️❤️❤️ loved aaaaaall the hp references and the stars and the moon and the sun are my favourite 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️
Sirius…ok, so this Sirius was not the Sirius I love and adore. He got some real trust issues (I’m not saying those issues might have not been with a good reason) but behaving like this with his Moony is just something that would never happen. Ever.
But he’s the best big brother 😭😍 so I forgive him
I am so happy Peter is not here to betray them. Peter is the iceberg.
James Potter. Sweet sweet baby 😭😭😭please I can’t talk about him. He’s so special and precious. All he went through…he’s braver than me because as soon as I would have enrolled in the army for the war I would have been one crazy bitch, looking for so many ways to go join Reggie.
But he’s a Gryffindor through and through 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I love him
First Reggie. Than Sirius. Remus. And James 😭😭😭 I literally had no break. My head hurts, my tear ducts keep overflowing. And I have no peace. I loved this fic so much!!!!!!
This is absolutely devastating. I know the story of the Titanic, ok? And I’ve seen the MCD tag (dreaded it half of the time, tbh) But NOTHING prepared me for this. Someone just took my heart out and ripped it apart.
My thoughts on this fic are as follows:
Quite fast paced but I really don’t care because they’ve lived several lifetimes in my head as lovers. So nothing fast about that.
I wanted more. Nah, needed more. I want this to be a 600,000 words fic. With all the hp characters.
The writing is beautiful ❤️❤️❤️❤️ loved aaaaaall the hp references and the stars and the moon and the sun are my favourite 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️
Sirius…ok, so this Sirius was not the Sirius I love and adore. He got some real trust issues (I’m not saying those issues might have not been with a good reason) but behaving like this with his Moony is just something that would never happen. Ever.
But he’s the best big brother 😭😍 so I forgive him
I am so happy Peter is not here to betray them. Peter is the iceberg.
James Potter. Sweet sweet baby 😭😭😭please I can’t talk about him. He’s so special and precious. All he went through…he’s braver than me because as soon as I would have enrolled in the army for the war I would have been one crazy bitch, looking for so many ways to go join Reggie.
But he’s a Gryffindor through and through 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I love him
First Reggie. Than Sirius. Remus. And James 😭😭😭 I literally had no break. My head hurts, my tear ducts keep overflowing. And I have no peace. I loved this fic so much!!!!!!
May 6, 2024
" I know you, Sirus Black.
Don't you remember me?"
" He realizes in that moment that he would do anything Regulus asks of him-he doesn't care what it is. He would steal. Beg. Bend himself in half until he snaps. Regulus could ask him for the moon and James would find a way to pull it down to Earth."
" Death is not so cruel when he comes with a hand outstreched, offering gentle passage to whatever exists in the after. There is peace in death when the body, broken by time, can no longer hold the soul."
" Wherever you are is where I'm meant to be."
" "Isn't that a tragedy?"
"Aren't we?" Regulus counters softly."
" "In every lifetime, Regulus. I will find you in every sigle one""
"He can't move, can't even cry. Everything is frozen an he is so cold and there is only this-a ripping, a tearing, as the claws that sunk themselves deep are ripped right out, taking with them something vital. A whole piece. Maybe all of it. All of him."
"James isn't sure if you can die from a broken heart, but in this moment, he wishes that he would."
I don't think I could begin to describe the absolute pain that I felt while reading this, out of all the fanfictions i've read this is the 3rd best, 2nd being Art heist, baby! and 1st being Crimson rivers. The fact that this doesn't have more hits makes me depressed because it's actually such a amazing story, and I cried for about and hour and then, half an hour later, I cried again.
Don't you remember me?"
" He realizes in that moment that he would do anything Regulus asks of him-he doesn't care what it is. He would steal. Beg. Bend himself in half until he snaps. Regulus could ask him for the moon and James would find a way to pull it down to Earth."
" Death is not so cruel when he comes with a hand outstreched, offering gentle passage to whatever exists in the after. There is peace in death when the body, broken by time, can no longer hold the soul."
" Wherever you are is where I'm meant to be."
" "Isn't that a tragedy?"
"Aren't we?" Regulus counters softly."
" "In every lifetime, Regulus. I will find you in every sigle one""
"He can't move, can't even cry. Everything is frozen an he is so cold and there is only this-a ripping, a tearing, as the claws that sunk themselves deep are ripped right out, taking with them something vital. A whole piece. Maybe all of it. All of him."
"James isn't sure if you can die from a broken heart, but in this moment, he wishes that he would."
I don't think I could begin to describe the absolute pain that I felt while reading this, out of all the fanfictions i've read this is the 3rd best, 2nd being Art heist, baby! and 1st being Crimson rivers. The fact that this doesn't have more hits makes me depressed because it's actually such a amazing story, and I cried for about and hour and then, half an hour later, I cried again.
May 18, 2025
I carry your heart with me and
i am never without it
Wherever you are, I am, my love;
And you are whatever a star has always meant
And whatever a sun will always be is you
Nunca nadie te prepara para lo mucho que Jegulus te puede romper y curar el corazón. Son una eterna tragedia y eso los convierte en mi droga favorita
Sabía a lo que venía, sabía que alguien moriría porque está basado en Titanic, aún así he llorado tanto pero tanto con el último capítulo que wow increíble
Mostly Regulus is thankful that for at least a little while, he could hold the sun in the palm of his hands
Podría pasarme horas y horas hablando de Jegulus en cada universo que leo porque nadie se quiere como ellos
Do you ever think about the way the sun and stars are never in the sky at the same time?
It's often said that the sun and moon ar always chasing one another, but I think the sun is always chasing the stars. Think about it - the sun spends the whole day traveling the sky, and then it leaves and the stars appear in all of the places the sun always looked. The sun will never stop chasing them, and the stars will never be there when the sun is awake
October 4, 2025
i don’t think i’m capable of describing the amount of pain this caused me… IM BROKEN HEARTED!!
such an underrated fic of james and regulus. probably one of the best fics i’ve read and it deserves so much more recognition. it truly is great !!
moments i loved/broke me (cause i can’t separate them)🫶🏻💔:
“𝐼 𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑛 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝐽𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑠. 𝐼’𝑙𝑙 𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠, 𝑡𝑜𝑜. 𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛’𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠. 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛’𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠.”
“𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒓𝒖𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒆.”
~//~
“𝑯𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒉.” 𝑆𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑢𝑠 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑠 𝑢𝑝 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚. “𝑰𝒕 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔 𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒓𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒈𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒂 𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆. 𝑯𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔𝒏’𝒕 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒔𝒆.”
~//~
“𝑹𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑱𝒖𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒕.”
“𝐼𝑠𝑛’𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑎 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑔𝑒𝑑𝑦?”
“𝑨𝒓𝒆𝒏’𝒕 𝒘𝒆?”
~//~
𝐼𝑡’𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑖𝑑𝑑𝑙𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝐴𝑡𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑐 𝑂𝑐𝑒𝑎𝑛, 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑘 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑏𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑎 𝑏𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑘𝑒𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑠, 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐽𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑃𝑜𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟’𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑐𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑡𝑤𝑜.
~//~
𝐴𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑠𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑖𝑠 𝑅𝑒𝑔𝑢𝑙𝑢𝑠 𝐵𝑙𝑎𝑐𝑘, 𝑤ℎ𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑖𝑠 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑.
~//~
𝑹𝒆𝒈𝒖𝒍𝒖𝒔 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒉𝒊𝒎. 𝑱𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒛𝒆𝒔 𝒂𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒂 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑹𝒆𝒈𝒖𝒍𝒖𝒔 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔𝒏’𝒕 𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒌 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒆 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒉𝒆’𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝑹𝒆𝒈𝒖𝒍𝒖𝒔’ 𝒗𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆.
~//~
“𝑰 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒅𝒂𝒚𝒔, 𝑱𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔. 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒚-𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔.”
such an underrated fic of james and regulus. probably one of the best fics i’ve read and it deserves so much more recognition. it truly is great !!
moments i loved/broke me (cause i can’t separate them)🫶🏻💔:
“𝐼 𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑛 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑦𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝐽𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑠. 𝐼’𝑙𝑙 𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠, 𝑡𝑜𝑜. 𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛’𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠. 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛’𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑢𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠.”
“𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒓𝒖𝒊𝒏 𝒎𝒆.”
~//~
“𝑯𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒃𝒐𝒕𝒉.” 𝑆𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑢𝑠 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑠 𝑢𝑝 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚. “𝑰𝒕 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏𝒔 𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒓𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒉𝒂𝒔 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒈𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒏 𝒂 𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒊𝒏 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆. 𝑯𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔𝒏’𝒕 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒉𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒐 𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒐𝒔𝒆.”
~//~
“𝑹𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑱𝒖𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒕.”
“𝐼𝑠𝑛’𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑎 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑔𝑒𝑑𝑦?”
“𝑨𝒓𝒆𝒏’𝒕 𝒘𝒆?”
~//~
𝐼𝑡’𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑖𝑑𝑑𝑙𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝐴𝑡𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑐 𝑂𝑐𝑒𝑎𝑛, 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑏𝑦 𝑑𝑎𝑟𝑘 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑏𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑎𝑡ℎ 𝑎 𝑏𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑘𝑒𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑠, 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐽𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑃𝑜𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟’𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑐𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑖𝑛 𝑡𝑤𝑜.
~//~
𝐴𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑠𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑖𝑠 𝑅𝑒𝑔𝑢𝑙𝑢𝑠 𝐵𝑙𝑎𝑐𝑘, 𝑤ℎ𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑖𝑠 𝑛𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑.
~//~
𝑹𝒆𝒈𝒖𝒍𝒖𝒔 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒔 𝒉𝒊𝒎. 𝑱𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒛𝒆𝒔 𝒂𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒂 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑹𝒆𝒈𝒖𝒍𝒖𝒔 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔𝒏’𝒕 𝒔𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒌 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒔𝒆 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎𝒔 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒉𝒆’𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒈𝒐𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝑹𝒆𝒈𝒖𝒍𝒖𝒔’ 𝒗𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆.
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“𝑰 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕 𝒕𝒘𝒐 𝒅𝒂𝒚𝒔, 𝑱𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔. 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒚-𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔.”
May 27, 2024
This is my first Jegulus fic and oh myyyyy🤩
So beautifully written, I just can’t, it’s 10⭐️ out of 5
The amount of tears though, was sobbing for god knows how long. The characters, the plot, the writing💚 Perfection.
So beautifully written, I just can’t, it’s 10⭐️ out of 5
The amount of tears though, was sobbing for god knows how long. The characters, the plot, the writing💚 Perfection.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
June 26, 2024
The author has specifically stated they do not wish to have their works on goodreads or other similar apps, please respect their wishes.
(Also everything they write is an absolute masterpiece and it should not be allowed to have less than 5 stars anyway)
(Also everything they write is an absolute masterpiece and it should not be allowed to have less than 5 stars anyway)
April 17, 2025
i just finished this silently crying for two hours whilst my friends kept checking in on me ohhhh the pain. beautiful story i am in agony. loved the differences from the film that fit with our four fav boys perfectly. i am aching❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
December 15, 2023
What A Beautiful Tragedy...
December 20, 2023
no words yet
February 22, 2024
It made me cry so much
February 25, 2024
One of the best and most painful things I have ever read. I’ve been crying non stop since finishing it.
March 12, 2024
It was kinda mid but did succeed in relaunching me back into a marauders hyperfixation so props to that
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