Mixed impressions
The question I continued to ask myself as I read this book was: What was its objective? What was the author trying to express or convince me of? Based on its style and delivery, I felt there was more to this work than the storyline since, to be fair, it didn’t match the patterns of a traditional romance. Purple prose of vignettes strung upon each other, one after the other, interspersed with racial study without the richness of a cohesive story. Vague character description and character development, the characters weren’t tangible with a strong sense of physicality, or presence. With the exception of a few attributes what did they even look like? It was as if I were reading two personages espousing their beliefs, their political and social stances — a thoughtmance — with some light romance and Jessie's friendships and father's influence thrown in. Most certainly a book more centered around the young woman protagonist, Jessie, than her interest, Josh, but they were not exactly opposites either.
Adapting to the writing style, the story took a bit to get into, feeling slow initially, especially since it was in third person, omniscient, not limited. I felt most often that I was being narrated to rather than immersed into the lives and minds of the main characters. Third person doesn't feel as modern or engaging as first person, especially if not done well, and, unfortunately, the perspectives combined with the writing style did not place me front and center in this novel. I found myself having to refocus in the earlier chapters.
So what is this story about? What's the message?
A study of racial basis and marginalization in the U.S. presented from Jess's perspective as both her distaste for it and her tolerance of it as well as her love interest’s contrasting sentiment? Up and coming stockbroker in a dynamic and competitive work environment. It's all about the money and the right people. Jess never seemed to fit in the traditional working environment where money making and affluence were pillars of success. Her lack of fitness was so obviously and easily assigned to her temperament, which was just code for non acceptance, not assimilating, not playing the game hard enough or knowing the rules of engagement into the white privileged setting. When the truth was, for people like her, there is no entry.
Josh was an unconscious contributor to that inequality, either because he agrees with the setup explained from and waived by his arrogant, superficially intellectualized spin or because he was just insensitive to it. Unenlightened, he couldn’t appreciate it since he's unaffected by it. He also believed himself right since he didn't grown up with advantages: he didn't come from a wealthy background and was a scholarship recipient who made his way. Of course, he was unaware of, or chose to disregard, the advantages he innately possessed or contacts surrounding him. Then, there was Jess's guilt over participating in her boyfriend's advantage, living in his million-dollar condo. Is she a sell out? Does she have a call to duty? And is love enough?
This book explored social issues mixed in a light romance; inequality, having to be more than best even when you’re successful empirically, the subtleties of marginalization of People of Color and the mixed views and feelings surrounding them. Do you sacrifice your beliefs for love?
Josh was initially the classic Republican conservative who came around to more inclusive ways of thinking though likely not so much due to wanting to but more because he was in love with Jess. He had always held a candle for her to the degree that he fights for her. The author did a good job of presenting his blinded point of view as if it could have been her own; she also did a great job infusing the character’s personality with limiting, unconscious, and largely unchanging stances.
Jess was portrayed as marginalized, which she couldn't control and which was almost impossible to fight. But what bothered me was this story didn't demonstrate her bucking the system. Even her father called for it. She complained but stayed in under represented, marginalized positions, people interactions, jobs. Did she have a call to duty simply because though?
Why didn’t Jessie fight, push back in line with her father's purpose? She didn’t really challenge Josh either. Jess was even placating. Why did Josh have to have the more prominent position? I understood Jess’s insecurities but why not give her she some fight, some self-esteem, boundaries. At times depressing as it was dispiriting, and the romance didn't temper the sense of fruitlessness.
And even when Jess attempted to rebel, she couldn't be as financially prosperous as Josh. Instead, answering the call, she worked for a sensationalist newspaper with sub-par pay. I guess it's OK if the pay was subpar because she couldn’t be represented maintaining her values and have a moderate income? It was also ok for her successful boyfriend to subsidize her. Something was off with portraying Jess as only successful if she held to her values but with a low income, low prosperity. She couldn't overcome, have some wins, as it was better to be true to yourself even if you struggle. Come on!
And yet ... I could feel it all and identify with it, and hated reading the reality of that in fiction where characters should have power.
I loved that Josh loved Jess, that he always loved her, waited for her, wanted her. Unfortunate for my spicy heart, it did not translate into the best sex scenes. It wasn't a clean romance, but it wasn't erotic either.
The third-act split, and for a long time. Sure, Jess had a family emergency -- which was depicted well, but still. Why be apart so long (and so typically)?
Josh voted for and reassured Jess about Trump. He remained fiscally conservative. She remained left-leaning … and conflicted. And I remain confused by this book: the reality, the fallacy, the interpersonal conflict. Love may not be enough.
Anticlimactic. Mixed feelings.