Jan/Oct 2015
This book isn't just about Low, it's about Station to Station and Iggy Pop's The Idiot. I'm cool with that.
But not so much with the author's casual overuse of psychiatric terms - especially, but not limited to, 'autistic' and 'schizophrenic'. He throws them about pejoratively, begging the question, "If you think these albums are so nuts, man, why do you even like them?" David Bowie has been a powerful destigmatising cultural force for all manner of weirdness, but Hugo Wilcken's pathologising approach contradicts and undermines that. His harsh judgement is also a disservice to a man whose later interviews showed coherent, non-jargonised understanding of the mess he'd once been in, and the effect that had on others (even if he can't remember all the concrete facts about the time) - a wisdom of age that's practically the antithesis of Angie Bowie's continued lack of self awareness. Wilcken also implies that interest in the occult is itself a sign of insanity. I had no choice but to dock a star - I even felt protective of Bowie, which he doesn't exactly need. Otherwise the book is very good.
33 1/3s don't have author bios, and all I found about Wilcken (whilst not trying very hard) was some info on his literary agent's site referring to his two novels. From this book, it's difficult to tell what his acquaintance with psychology is like - given that it's a field where approaches and opinions differ radically - but he must have been a proficient musician, and probably worked in studios, to give such detailed commentary on structures and production.
This does one of the main things I'd like from a book about music: to give names to the different sounds and effects and qualities I can hear, and Low does a good job. Not every single instance of "is that cute little gurgly sound on the left a theremin?", or whatever, is answered, but many such things are, along with similar questions I hadn't thought to ask. Those paragraphs would be good to revisit.
(Before the point, a couple of years ago, when I virtually stopped listening to music, I'd been trying to figure out how to learn to work these things out for myself - if there is a shortcut. I learned how to recognise the sound of orchestral instruments when I was a kid. But it seems peculiarly difficult to learn about the hidden nuts and bolts of popular music - which has a greater range of sounds - without being in a band, without being an active participant. I can't think of many subjects which still remain arcane unless you participate. What did I even need? Music appreciation courses were mostly about classical; Dummies-level books on production I looked at didn't seem quite the thing... )
The 33 1/3 book on Joni Mitchell's Court & Spark, which I read just before this, had a lot of discussion of her other albums – but I'm not super-keen on Joni Mitchell and that stuff probably would have been more interesting had I liked her music more. The theory was confirmed here, as I like most of Bowie's work, and loved hearing about every project mentioned in the book; Low-the-book is also better organised, and its way of relating works to one another is almost literary - as might be expected from a novelist.
The seeds of the album Low are seen in the title track of Station to Station and Eno's Another Green World. The Idiot was recorded, with Bowie producing, just before Low and the latter contained leftover material from it. I listened to Low, Another Green World and The Idiot in one day (the latter two, whilst I had them - among a bloated 250GB of music built up from my old CD collection, and a few friends and exes - I wasn't sure if I'd listened to before.) The family resemblance between the three albums was striking. Although each has its own character. Much of the Iggy Pop had the glamorously threatening moodiness of a Tarantino film, plus a couple of tracks that sounded oh so 90s - 'Dum Dum Boys' is a lot like a particular song I can't quite remember, and bits of 'Mass Production' reminded me of feedbacktastic experimental US college rock. 'China Girl', here originally sung by this 70s sleazebag whom no-one would expect to know better, fits better than it did with alert, corporate besuited 80s sellout Bowie who probably should have. Meanwhile, Another Green World has many Low-ish noises in the background, and surprising, innocent melody and vocals as if Gorky's Zygotic Mynci had adopted an English accent. (The title track and BBC Arena theme, inevitably, is its own separate, melancholy evocation of calm nights in across decades and their varying picture quality.) It now seems obvious that Gorky's were derivative of this – not that I had any idea at the time, twenty-odd years ago.
Back to Bowie's own work, Station to Station and Low I remembered across that two year gap as utterly central; those were the albums which it seemed impossible that I'd only consciously, repetitively listened to them for the first time this decade (no doubt they'd played in the background before). They felt like they'd been a part of my life as long as Suede or Modern Life is Rubbish. Bits of them had - albeit not the most characteristic songs – via the compilation ChangesBowie; I'd owned a few books about or by Crowley, one of the inspirations behind some lyrics; I liked electronica, so of course these records felt rather like home. I thought of them as examples of that rare and special breed of album which suits almost any mood - The Stone Roses being another.
Station to Station still is. The title track itself contains many moods. You can emphasise the soaring hope. Or 'once I could never be down... before knowing better. It's too late can be a lament, or the relieved kind of 'too late' which means not having to try any more, free to relax. (And in analysing the relationship of the albums to one another, that 'European canon'...) 'TVC-15' is comical, or, well, there are times when a speaker might be an easier object of attachment than a person. In 'Stay' it can be better not to have said, or maybe it'll be a good thing to say next time.
'Word on a Wing' was tricky, less adaptive, so many love-song elements - until... thank you Wikipedia! "There were days of such psychological terror when making the Roeg film that I nearly started to approach my reborn, born again thing. It was the first time I'd really seriously thought about Christ and God in any depth, and 'Word on a Wing' was a protection. It did come as a complete revolt against elements that I found in the film. The passion in the song was genuine... something I needed to produce from within myself to safeguard myself".... Bowie later admitted that "there was a point when I very nearly got suckered into that narrow sort of looking... finding the cross as the salvation of mankind around the Roeg period". I don't know how many people understand this - oddness here could be a mirage, for one of Bowie's talents is to make the individual feel like he connects particularly with them - but religious phases that are deeply and sincerely felt, and also expedient and ultimately disposable, yes; the effort to manufacture emotion that you need to receive, yes, though I'd forgotten and hadn't done it for years - there's even a physical sensation to it, in the chest.
I think Station to Station is the only album of songs - as opposed to instrumentals - I feel comfortable with just now.
January 2015.
...October 2015
By now there's quite a bit of music I enjoy listening to again, which is fun rather than an emotional burden. It was the fact of its being music, any music, which was too much for a while. Annie Nightingale said once [I don't have a link] that she had kept looking for new music all her life because the old stuff harboured too many memories. Yeah, I get that. Though what has worked for me more than once is time off from music – before it was always just certain pieces or subgenres of music, not all music its very self. Then either the music becomes simply itself again, the pure sound with no memories stuck in its amber – easier with instrumental albums – or I become resolved and content with the fragments that are in it. Morrissey's Viva Hate and some early Pulp are bound up with a situation not dissimilar to the one that made me abandon Low. House moves; complicated and impossibly intense romantic situations that seemingly inexplicably withered on the vine. Both these experiences were examples of an atmosphere described by the author as characteristic of Bowie's best work: a sense of yearning for a future that we know will never come to pass. (I feel more able to see the depth of melancholy in that phrase than I could before, and find the sight of that particular ravine tolerable, sit there still and contentedly and look it in the eye. It was always a beautiful idea but I'd hidden from the full tragic implication of it before: I was yearning for a future that might possibly be, dreaming of a moment of looking back on it, and I was reading that into the phrase rather than seeing the meaning of the words actually present.) I can now curl up in the nostalgic glow of those Pulp and Morrissey records and I love them, I actually love being back in those moments: some of that is thanks to other people, but much of it simply to distance and the process of emotional /psychological.
I put Low on about an hour before sitting down to finish this post: the first track is the hardest, it's not somewhere I could enjoy going back to yet – I could only think of the pain that awaited me in the future stretching out from the day trapped inside that song. But then, that's one hell of a groove on 'Breaking Glass': this is fun. I remembered how much more hearing 'Be My Wife' used to hurt; it didn't hurt like that now, but it was still a memory of pain. Not fun. Was I really just enjoying 'Sound and Vision' and 'Little Girl With Grey Eyes' and noticing all those little sounds rather than dwelling on what else I'd imbued them with? I think so. Gosh. Pinch self. Some of the album had started to become itself again, to be adaptable like The Stone Roses: I felt if it was heard in the warm it would make the room warmer; if cold, it would give an icy-grey chill … still a little too strong, but getting there. Controlled exposure at own pace. And after all, this is something to do for fun, not work. And something had changed over those eight months.