Thank you to Kelly Pike, of Folk PR, for my AD-GIFTED copy of this novel.
Firstly, before I get into my review, I feel that I must begin on a note of caution about the novel's themes which will be highly sensitive, upsetting and challenging for some readers, so before you read on, please be aware that the story covers miscarriage, pregnancy loss, mental health and psychosis.
This is the second novel by Cathy Hayward, whose debut novel, The Girl in the Maze, was inspired by her own difficult relationship with her mother and won several awards.
TSOTBH tells the story of Joanne, who is in her mid forties, and who, after several miscarriages, is finally pregnant after undergoing IVF. She has always been told that her mother died in childbirth, but she never questioned her dad’s love as she grew up in Berwick.
When preparing for the birth of her much longed for baby, Jackie unpacks a box of her own old baby clothes, and discovers a photo of her birth mum holding her as a newborn outside a house in Brighton, and realises that she has been lied to.
Why would her dad lie to her? And why did he move her so far away from Brighton?
With her questions stonewalled by her father, Jackie is terrified of what his silence might mean.
Desperate to know what really happened, Jackie delves into the past and begins to uncover layers of secrets that threaten to destroy the family she holds dear.
Meanwhile as Joanne's search for the truth unfolds, her chapters alternate with those of Grace herself, as she too prepares to give birth to her much longed for first baby, in the 1970s...
This is an affecting, and often desperately sad story of two women, who are both embarking upon the life changing journey of motherhood, decades apart, and who are linked by a terrible family secret.
As well as exploring themes of motherhood, family and belonging, the novel centres on the issue of post-natal psychosis: its devastating impact on the mother, her relationship with her child, and with her partner and family.
As you read Grace's chapters, which are harrowing and especially impactful because they are related in the first person, it is hard to credit how primitive the treatment and management of this condition was in the 1970s.
Whilst this dreadful illness is still not fully understood today, thankfully there does seem to have been improvements in treatment and care over the years since, as we see in the way Joanne's birth plan is approached.
Secrecy is another important element within this novel. We see how corrosive family secrets can be, and the damage that is caused: was her father's secrecy borne of shame and stigma as a result of contemporary attitudes to psychosis, or was it a case of misplaced good intentions? There is much to think about on this point, as it is key to much of what subsequently happens in the novel.
After so much sadness and tragedy, the concluding chapters of the story do offer a measure of hope and also closure, as a family which has suffered much begins to heal, and look forward to a happier future.
2.5 stars rounded up to 3.