I’m giving it this rating mostly out of fury and annoyance - the writing was great and the story was well told. I almost never rate books this low but I’m freaking fuming.
Note: most of this review will read like an essay on female anger. But seriously, I can put up with a lot of shit in romance and I take it with a grain of salt. But I’m tired of the misogyny, audacity of men and generally the low expectations that women have. Those have no place here unless they are part of the book but not the relationship. We need to raise the bar both fictional and real one.
I liked some of DP’s books but in others, I’ve noticed she does have a tendency to sometimes write men who are problematic. I will maybe go back and read the rest in the series, but this story was the wrong one for me. I detest this plot from the bottom of my heart and part of it is because I don’t wanna read anymore about women who accept men who don’t deserve them. Women who forgive men because they had reasons to do what they did. Women who are amazing, intelligent, beautiful, loyal, successful and everything good who settle for men who failed to do the bare minimum which is respect them enough to be honest and open with them.
Second chance romance books are always a hit or a very bad miss. This one was a miss.
First of all I wanna say that I understand why this book was so loved and praised. I don’t agree one bit, but I understand we all need and want different things in a love story and have different opinions as what qualifies as a good grovel or a good reason for betrayal.
I also wanna say that I’m a heartless, petty bitch and I have no tolerance for excuses or situations like: ”I’m actually a martyr for leaving you and I loved you every single day that I was gone” - it’s a BS excuse - and when I read, I wanna forget that I live in a world which treats women a certain way. I want the hero to be worshipping at the heroines feet. I don’t care for his words, I care for his actions. So me being me - I wouldn’t let those two POS back in my life. The POS in question being the hero and the heroine’s ex-bestie.
It was such a deep betrayal and obviously it left a freaking gaping and a long lasting wound - what they did to her.
I never understood this type of behaviour and how it’s used in so many second chance romances. The one where the hero, who claims the heroine is the love of his life, hurts her and leaves her to torture herself over this betrayal and to make matters worse, also over her best friend’s betrayal - all the while rationalising it that it’s for her own good in some way.
The audacity. The utter audacity on this man to actually come back and think he can just set it all to rights so he can have his cake and eat it too. I don’t care if someone forced him with a knife to his throat to marry that girl. I don’t care for any circumstances. There was always a way to make this right and to be honest with the heroine while he tried to think of ways to get out of a sticky situation while helping everyone involved.
That whole ”he’s been 7 years celibate and didn’t cheat on her thing ” was bullshit. I can bet my life on the fact that the author only added that tidbit so that he would be easier to forgive because apparently for a guy to keep his dick in his pants must be proof of his utter love and devotion to the supposed love of his life, Talia.
Cheating is not just falling in love with someone else, or kissing/ sleeping with someone else. Cheating is when you betray your significant other and marry someone else with no explanation or regards towards the supposed love of his life. And if it was so hard for him to do it as he claims then he wouldn’t have done it. So in conclusion, it wasn’t that hard.
I don’t even wanna get into the whole ex best friend drama, but in this case I must. So that woman, gets into some shit and her selfish, despicable, miserable excuse of a brain and heart tells her it’s okay to betray her best friend in such a horrible way. I mean, as long as she is ok and she gets what she wants, who cares how others feel. I despise her.
Also, I love kids in books, but I cannot, I would not ever get over seeing the hero be a father to a child that would just remind me of the betrayal I suffered, of all the years I lost, of al the resentment and hate i harboured. It’s an innocent kid but it’s also a symbol of everything those two did to Talia. The fact that it’s not his bio kid doesn’t change a thing. His life will always be intertwined with the kids mom and Talia will always be a witness to that. To the reason why he left her for 7 years
Also, 7 years is not a short time which in a way makes everything even worse.
Those two played with her life once. Thought themselves right to be doing so and after 7 years they thought they could do it some more.
My girl Talia deserved more.
Sometimes, a person can love you. A lot. Doesn’t make them good for you. Doesn’t mean they won’t still hurt you. That’s what the hero, Foster is like. When times got tough and life took a turn, he had his back to a wall and had to make some decisions, he made the wrong one. A man who is willing to hurt you when circumstances get difficult - and takes the easy way out even if it means hurting you is not a forever man. I don’t doubt he thought he loved her. But he didn’t do it right. You don’t hurt the ones you love. Not intentionally. You find other ways. You tell them the truth even if you still have to leave them. You don’t lie to them. You don’t disrespect their strength, their right to information, their right to make their own decisions. You don’t do what Foster did.
It seems like everyone is ready to forgive him because he really loved Talia and because he was celibate, and because his reasons were altruistic. But the only person he needed to do right by and be fair, good, and altruistic to was Talia, and Talia only.
The fact that the reasons for him leaving her behind and breaking her heart will always be in front of her and in her life if she stays with him, that’s just absolutely bonkers to me.
I’m not as good a person as Talia and I don’t wanna be. I wouldn’t be able to live with that. The constant reminder, the bitterness, the memories. Excuses won’t heal my anger. It will only fuel it.
So yes, while the hero wasn’t a bad person, he wasn’t hero material. He was a man like many other. And I’m not here to read about them. I see them and interact with them enough.
If I’m reading. I want devotion, respect and then absolute love. He only had one of those for Talia.
NOTE: spoilers in the comments