"'I am not an adventurer by choice but by fate.' That, literally--for the language here was English--is how Vincent described the pattern of his life, writing from Paris in 1886. Choice is for the free, who are able to push themselves forward. Fate is for the shackled, who get pushed from behind."
Bell writes a beautiful book about one of the most powerful forces in artistic expression. "Seething," obviously, is precisely chosen to encompass the oceanic psycho-emotional turmoil roiling within Vincent Van Gogh. This is a warmhearted delving into the evolution, and self-destruction, of a man desperately trying to find his place in the world of civilization, nature, and universal existence. So many of us can easily feel a kinship to this artist, if not based on the power-agency of sympathy, than most certainly with the emotive companionship of empathy. We are the outcasts, the nomads, the freaks, the ones at the end of every line, and yet we breathe fire and intensity, cast lightning from our fingertips, see the world in atom-bomb colors nobody else can see.
I'm sure there are no less than a million books written about Vincent. Several thousand psychoanalyzing his mindset, throwing hooks into absinthe and syphilis, heavy metals and toxic fumes, poor diet, worse hygiene, and genetic albatrosses. It's all fascinating hypotheticals, but ultimately it doesn't matter. What Bell focuses on is the journey of the person pushed by Fate, with land mines constantly thrown upon his path. Love, acceptance, family, and faith all play their torturous roles, just as they do in all of us. I was lucky enough to see Leonard Nimoy's one-man stage production of Vincent at Purdue University, another brilliant exploration of the man and his relations to the world around him.
As Theo wrote to their sister, "It appears as if there are two different beings in him, the one marvelously gifted, fine and delicate, and the other selfish and heartless."
As a youthful fine arts and art history student, I came to embrace the energy of Van Gogh early on, and to this day still marvel at him. Reading this book I felt compelled to pull out dusty old books of his works, Van Gogh's Van Goghs by the National Gallery of Art and Van Gogh and Gauguin: The Studio of the South by The Art Institute of Chicago. Of course I've seen his works in person, and sadly bought a coffee mug with The Starry Night on it, in my young naïveté, which I now acknowledge as the absolute bastardization and commodification of art; one more evil wrecked upon by society. When in a museum or gallery, keep your fucking phones in your pockets and stand witness to the art before you. Block out the distractions. Let each work suck you in like a portal through time. Lean in and study the brushstrokes as if you were seeing the fingers holding the brushes, gently, forcefully, methodically or chaotically applying paint, mixing hues into the fibers of the canvas, pushing lumps of it around with primal intensity. Can you smell the pigments, the linseed oil, the beads of sweat on skin?
This book, in hand, will garner attention, be it in a smokey coffeehouse or a bustling airport terminal, accentuated easily by a look of pure engagement, brow gently knitted, perhaps the shadow of a smirk at the corner of one's lips, if not more easily by the erotic line of a woman's naked neck as she leans to one side, transfixed by the text before her. I'm sure there are a dozen words in French to describe the magic and might of a woman enthralled by such a book.
This will be a wonderful addition to anyone's library, and makes for a very pleasant travel read.
I always feel that I am a traveler, going somewhere and to some destination.
If I tell myself that the somewhere and the destination do not exist, that seems to me very likely and reasonable enough.
The brothel keeper, when he kicks anyone out, has similar logic, argues it well, and is always right, I know. So at the end of the course I shall find my mistake. Be it so. I shall find then that not only the Arts, but everything else as well, were only dreams, that one's self was nothing at all.