Silent Tears

The Tears Duet #1

by Sasha R.C.

Christian Armani
When I look in the mirror I see exactly what my father made me to be
A criminal
A murderer
A drug dealer
All the things he envisioned I now am, but he didn’t see it coming when I took everything from him
He had to pay for what he did, and now the whole empire is mine
I sell drugs like they are candy
I kill without a second thought
My casinos have become the hottest spot to go, and my biggest front
Everything was perfect, until I heard a ring was on my territory, everyone knows what happens when they break my rules
So I went in just like I have a million times over, it should have been easy, in and out
But I didn’t know I would find her: Nicole Johnson
She was bruised, beaten, and the light in her eyes was fading
I thought I knew what I was doing when I took her home, but I had no idea
Nicole completes me in every way I never knew I was missing
Now it is time for us to get revenge, the question is will we make it out alive?
She is the breath in my lungs, she is the only reason my heart is beating
I need her and I am now her monster

Things you need to know about Silent Tears
Mafia vibes
Alpha Male
Trauma
Heartbreak
Healing
Acceptance
Growth
Love
P/J/C/D MMC (Possessive/ Jealous/ controlling/ Dominant)

This is a Dark Romance. This book contains themes and topics that might be hard for some readers. 18 +
Please read TWs and CWs (Inside book)

Genres: Dark, Dark Romance, Romance, Contemporary Romance

453 pages, Hardcover

Published December 8, 2023

About the author

Hello I am Sasha R.C.
I am a dark romance author. I love anything that has to do with Dark Romance. The Darker the Better. Some of my Favs are: The Ritual, The Sinner, Church, Den of Vipers, and The Sacrifice

I am currently writing many different dark romance standalones

Please read TWs and CWs

Reviews

[Stephanie Rivera · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book is by far the darkest book Sasha has ever written! I absolutely loved it! Finished it in two days and everything about it was amazing, definitely check trigger warnings before reading it!!
Some of my favorite quotes!

“I am yours, and I am giving you control. You are my whore, and now I am yours. Brand me as yours, my queen,” I whisper. Every fucking word is the truth.- Christian

Everyone now knows what happens when they call Nicole Armani a whore. They will pay with their fucking life.- Christian

I will remove as many eyes and tongues as I need to make my fucking point that this broken woman is my queen, my mixture of chaos and understanding.- Christian

“Don’t let anyone other than me touch you, and don’t ever fucking grab another girl’s hair like that again,” - Nicole

We will burn the whole fucking world down together.- Christian

[Brittany Marie · Rating 5 out of 5]

❤️‍🔥😈

As usual when it comes to Sasha’s books I decided to go in blind. I did read Blood Tears before this one but it still read well either way. I have to say I was not expecting how raw this book was and had to take a few breaks to process the things Nicole(FMC) had to go through. The love and obsession between her and Christian was evident from first sight and I can’t think of two better characters for each other than them. This book is VERY dark and VERY spicy.🥵 I recommend reading the TW as this book touches on some topics that are harder to handle. Well done on yet another amazing book Sasha💜 I can’t wait to see what comes next!

[Kathy Gioxaris · Rating 5 out of 5]

Please read trigger warnings before reading! What an intense amazing read! Absolutely loved Nicole and Cristian’s story. You will fall in love with Christian and how he will do anything to protect and avenge Nicole! Couldn’t put it down, finished in two days! I absolutely love Sasha's writing! She makes me feel what the characters are feeling!
Absolutely recommend! Cant wait to read more from this author!!

[Dahlena Sampson PA · Rating 5 out of 5]

It was hard to stop reading because I was so invested with each character and their pov… This is a very dark romance with many trigger warnings but it is so worth it! You won’t regret this one!

[Heather Douglas · Rating 5 out of 5]

PLEASE CHECK TRIGGER/ CONTENT WARNINGS BEFORE READING!!!!

Silent Tears is a dark revenge book that is heartbreaking, breathtaking and just soul crushing. Our characters do get a HEA, but they go through ALOT before they can get there. This book deals heavily with SA, human trafficking and can be graphic at times. Please read the warnings before reading!

Nicole had her whole life planed out like any other 16-year-old would. But sadly, instead of waking up to a pony on her 16th birthday she found herself chained to a bed instead. This started her unimaginable torture for the next 3 years. She was broken down so many times that when she finally decided to give in and give up her knight in shining armor came for her.

Christain is the local mob boss. He's ruthless and does what he has to do to make a statement. Nothing gets in his way or bothers him. That is until a girl spilled coffee on him outside of a cafe and he hasn't been able to get her off his mind since. He looks for her everywhere he goes. The last place he ever thought he would find her would be a s3x house. Him and his men take as many of those houses down as they can. But the more they burn to the ground the more they keep appearing. And when he saw Nicole there, all he saw was red and he was PISSED!

For someone who hasn't really done the relationship thing, Christain does it pretty well. He was by Nicole's side every step of the way. He healed her in ways no one else could have. They each had to battle their own demons and monsters and it took one to know one. Christain went through some pretty messed up stuff at the hands of his father. He was created into a monster and Nicole saw past all that. She saw his inner beauty just like he saw hers. He looked past all her marks and branding and saw a beautiful woman he was obsessed with.

This book destroyed me right from chapter 1. I cried tears. I was angry & upset just like our characters. I was heartbroken over what Nicole had to go through. Sasha really put me through an emotional rollercoaster with this one. But if you can handle all the warnings then this book is worth it. All the tears and anger were worth it.

[Kaci Stewart · Rating 2 out of 5]

I'm not sure what to think of this book. The entire book was inner monologue which was repetitive and not that great. Def need to read your trigger warnings since the book deals with sex trafficing and murder. I really wanted to like this book but the characters barely spoke to each other, you never get a sense of who they are as a couple other than they have sex to help her deal with her past and that's literally it. I didn't connect with the characters really at all in that sense. The author did a good job of making you feel bad for Nicole in her situation and putting there with her which was great, but I didn't really feel connected once that part was over. I wished there were a few more realistic things that happened in this book, like therapy. I also wasn't buying the whole mafia aspect. Maybe that was just because this wasn't like any other mafia book where they have guards and people doing research and whatnot b/c if they did, a few things in this book wouldn't have happened. But that isn't anything against this book, just different than other mafia romances. Overall this book was ok enough to finish but I wouldn't recommend it. It as repetitive, wordy, lacked character development that we could connect with, lacked character connection at all and was just overall ok at best. Hoping that Ty and Lyrics book is better!

[Samantha Cross · Rating 5 out of 5]

Please read all trigger warnings and content warnings!

Sasha did an amazing job with another dark romance! I absolutely fell in love with Christian! I was so hooked from the beginning and dang it if Sasha doesn’t always have my emotions all over when I’m reading anything of hers. This book follows Christian and Nicole and how they meet and fall in love and all the trauma in between.


SPOILERS BELOW 👇🏼


This book contains SA, R*PE, trafficking if you CANNOT handle please for your mental health don’t try!





This books starts off with Nicole having been taken and sold in to s-e-x ring. She is fighting to stay alive in her mind and not give up hope she will be found or saved. While Christian who is mafia is hunting down and burning down s-e-x trafficking in his town. After a long, and I do mean long time 3 years long, Christian finally finds the woman who caught his interests years before, and he saves her. He helps her deal with her trauma and he tracks down everyone involved and unalives them with Nicole at his side. When a twist comes that you do not see coming, I repeat do not see coming! Christian is hurt and in the hospital after the incident. This does end HEA for Christian and Nicole, but this books ending sets it up for the next book! And never fear my spicy lovers this book is spicy 🥵 🌶️. I give 5⭐️/5⭐️ and spicy I would say 4.5🌶️/5.

[Amy Buchanan · Rating 4 out of 5]

It is definitely a dark revenge romance book. So many emotions were felt while reading this. Nichole was sex trafficked at the age of 16 and it tells her story in very great detail. (Check trigger warnings). At the age of 16 before the horror of her story begins she meets Christian at the coffee shop she works at and an instant connection but nothing comes from it. 3 years later he has yet to run into her again and only to find her in a sex house he and his guys raid and he rescues her. It's a very emotional story of two very dark people who have become that way of past traumas but you do get HEA.

"The war within us is more deadly than the physical world. The battle within ourselves can take us to places that we can never f***ing escape from. We can’t f***ing walk away from our minds like we can from a lifeless body in the street."

"The world will burn, the streets will run red, and we will do it together. For I am his queen, and he is my fucking monster."

[Mary · Rating 1 out of 5]

One of the worst books I’ve ever read 😐

[Melissa Houpt · Rating 4 out of 5]

As with all of Sasha’s books please check the trigger warnings before reading. This is a very intense dark revenge romance. The possessive/ obsession between Christian and Nicole is veryyyy real. I loved how Christian had the whole bad guy, criminal personality going with everyone other than Nicole but was a softy for her. Christian helps Nicole overcome and work to find herself again. As much as there is darkness this was a very emotional book. Highly recommend especially if you love your MMC unhinged!!

[Marie Bonk · Rating 5 out of 5]

revenge,obsession, love

This was my first novel by Sasha and so I wasn’t sure what I was getting myself into but man… This book has both sa and human trafficking and it can be sa bit graphic at times so make sure to read the triggers and take care of your mental health.

After waking up chained to a bed on her 16th birthday Nichole is held captive and tortured for 3 long years before being rescued by Christian.
After a chance encounter with Nichole outside a cofffe shop he starts looking for her. He become obsessed with her after she looked into his eyes and saw the monster inside him and didn’t run like most people. Is is mafia but he and his men hunt down and burn human trafficking rings. So when he finds Nichole still chained to the same bed after looking for her for 3 years he knows he is the only one who can heal her.

Throughout the book they embark on a journey for healing and revenge. I was blown away! The book starts out ruff right away and the hits keep coming. It was hard to read at times but I couldn’t put it down even if I wanted to

[Miriam · Rating 4 out of 5]

I love love loved this book so much. It is a beautiful book about finding the one you’re meant to be with and accepting them for everything they are.

Nicole is a regular girl thrown into some crazy and downright horrible circumstances. She really goes through it and deals with some of the worst human beings ever. She starts to lose hope but don’t worry your pretty little head because in walks Christian!


Christian is the king of all things, he runs his city with fear and violence but also shuts down sex houses. So silver lining dare I say? 🤔 He has been in love with Nicole and searching for her for years and now that he’s found her he isn’t about to let her go.


Nicole is broke and has the most intense feelings playing I her head constantly and the way that was conveyed in the book was truly something that felt real and relatable. You get to see her grow and her character develop all with Christians help.
Christian has his own inner turmoil and past traumas that make him able to truly see her and her pain and walk through it with her. It’s really a beautiful story of love conquering all the things and two people finding themselves and in each other even in the darkest of darkness


I again loved it and thought it was brilliant. I can not wait to read more from Sasha ❤️

[Hayley · Rating 5 out of 5]

First of all I think it needs to be said that this book will not be for everyone. It is dark and has some confronting content that could be triggering for some, so please make sure you read the trigger and content warnings first.

Now to the story and my thoughts. Christian and Nicole’s story definitely not what most people would classify as a normal relationship. The pair met briefly at a coffee shop when Nicole was 15 and then reconnected later in life. I’m not going to say how they reconnected as that will spoil the book.

Christian is a mafia king and calls himself a monster but he’s anything but when it comes to Nicole. He will do whatever it takes to keep her safe, happy and loved.

Nicole is the woman Christian has been obsessed with trying to find for years. Her life has been nothing short of traumatic, she has been to hell and back and struggles with her demons on a daily basis. But with Christian she slowly begins to come back to herself and shows us exactly how strong and resilient she is.

This is probably the darkest book I’ve read to date and oh my goodness was I here for it. Sasha has once again delivered another fantastic dark romance that has pushes the boundaries with its content. This book isn’t for the faint hearted, there were times where wanted to scream, cry and cringe as the plot twisted further.

[Amanda · Rating 5 out of 5]

Before reading this book, you definitely need to check the warnings because it does deal with some heavy stuff (SA/trafficking/etc). That being said, I really loved the book. I loved the back-and-forth POV following the timeline of the trafficking happening. I loved Christian's character completely. I loved his whole bad guy/criminal personality mixed with the good guy down inside him. My heart broke for Nicole as I went through the first half of the book. I thought it was clever that the author made sure you knew exactly how much time had elapsed in the storyline. It really helped in following their complicated start.

Watching how Christian and Nicole overcame and worked through her finding herself again melted my heart. Even at the end of his patience, he dug deep for more because she needed it. They both have a bit of unhinged in them, which is one thing I love about characters in books. This book had me feeling all the emotions from teary eyes to giggling.

[Desirea · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book was phenomenal!!
I definitely see why Sasha R.C. is labeled one of the Queens of Dark Romance. The pain that Nicole went though absolute tore at my hear and was hard to bear witness too. I felt the familiar strife that connected both her and Christian. His unique upbringing of being the mafia prince could not be compared to what she went through for 3 years, but it did give him an understanding the helplessness and suffrage she went through.
Page 84 had me absolutely screaming! Thank you so much I didn’t think my heart could take it any longer before they found each other in their own hells.
I truly did enjoy their journey of finding themselves again and her healing with the new life that she thought wouldn’t be possible. The only thing I could say that I didn’t favor is that while Nicole did exact her revenge on her father, I felt that it could have been more monstrous as she was being portrayed as Christians equal.

[Anita Hickman · Rating 5 out of 5]

The was one hell of a page-turner with intense raw emotions that had me gripped on the edge of my seat.
This book was so powerful with emotions riding high. It made you feel like you were a part of Christian and Nicole's journey.

The characters in this book were heroic in the way that they overcame the odds that were stacked against them.

“If you are not okay, then I am not okay. If you are in pain, then I am in pain. If you are happy, then I am happy. If you die, I die. If you live, I will live with you.”


This was an amazing read. The characters were world-building and easy to follow. The storyline was very well-written so much so I couldn't put it down. Then immediately wanted something more of Sasha RC's to read
Thanks, Sasha !!


Please read TWs before reading this book
🤚🤚🤚🤚

[Kye | Dark Books · Rating 4 out of 5]

This was truly a devastating dark read. Yes, it ends with a HEA but the shit Nicole goes through is …. man.

The trigger warnings are no joke.

I couldn’t put this down, I literally told my husband and daughter to shut up because they wouldn’t stop trying to talk to me while I was reading this. Sorry not sorry.

Christian and Nicole have a lot of trauma. They are different but the same. Their story is proof that sometimes the world needs monsters in order to get shit done and start healing.

I absolutely loved the end with the long overdue revenge. Perfection. I can’t wait to read Ty & Lyrics story.

The only thing that made me drop a ⭐️ was because the author used a lot of repetition with their internal thoughts, conversations, and the same adjectives throughout the entirety of the novel.

[Hayley · Rating 5 out of 5]

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

Please make sure to read trigger warnings before reading!

Silent tears was one of my favorite reads of 2023! Silent tears was an intense read but I absolutely enjoyed it. Christian and Nicoles story was well written and I couldn't put it down. It had me hooked since the beginning! You will fall in with Christian and love how protective and caring and supportive he is towards Nicole. Nicole suffers from trauma and is healing from being assaulted for the last three years and every step of the way Christian and his bestfriend Ty have been there to support and comfort Nicole. I love how Christian will do anything for Nicole and help keep her safe.

I'm looking forward to reading more books by Sasha RC

[Kaylea · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book goes a step past Haunting/Hunting Adeline. This touches on SERIOUS topics, please please please read the TW and CW. This book had my heart breaking and I am not going to lie some of the scenes had my gag reflex waking up. She goes through more than any girl should have to go through.
There were moments when I just stopped and blinked a few times trying to figure what the heck I just read.
The book made me cringe, cry, laugh, and some of the things were relatable. Especially the body image issues and not feeling worthy or enough for anyone.
The ending was PRICELESS!! I haven't laughed so hard in a long time.
Sasha ignores the lines we should not cross and keeps going. The stuff she writes is serious and not sugar coated at all.

[Paula · Rating 3 out of 5]

3⭐️

TBH this book came off like an amateur writer wrote it. There’s grammatical errors all over but even that aside this book had potential but fell really short IMO. What’s up with authors and this queen name for their MFC it needs to stop queen was so over used in this book it irritated my soul. I read dark romance and have no triggers so that part was fine for me but the constant use of queen and the repeating of phrases got old. Also this author including Italian in it was also another very annoying part. It’s like the author learned these phrases and just included them where she wanted it didn’t flow with the book. If you run out of things to read that’s the only way I’d say read this otherwise skip it

[Nichole Johnson · Rating 4 out of 5]

This is the 1st book I have read by this author. I love dark romance, and this is DARK with all the triggers, so be sure to take the warnings seriously! The FMC, Nicole, has gone through literal hell and is saved by Christian, a mafia king. Christian has demons of his own, and who knew a chance encounter outside a coffee shop would lead to them saving, healing, and unleashing each other's monsters. I loved both characters so much and loved their relationship dynamic. The spice in this book is top tier. I did find that things got a bit repetitive, but I know that was done with the intent of truly conveying the characters' feelings and thoughts! Solid 4 stars!!!

[Gigi Reyna · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book is so deeply dark and check your trigger warnings before you read this book. I read this book in a couple of hours..I couldn’t put it down. Christian and Nicole both suffer at the hands of their fathers in their own horrible ways. Christian will burn the world down for her. She is trying to overcome her horrible past. He is a monster in his world but for her he is Prince Charming. She feels dirty and undeserving of happiness. He will not live without her. Together they overcome impossible odds of happily ever after but when they do they rise together, he as her King and she as his Queen.

[ttxsxffiaa · Rating 1 out of 5]

Dnf 80%

La verdad no sé porque e aguantado tanto.

Me estás diciendo que casi lo unico que piensas cuando la rescatas es en su cuerpo y follarla cuando sabes que lleva 3 años siendo avisada física, sexual y mentalmente y que un día cojes y mientras la follas le cortas tú nombre en su pecho con un cuchillo? Y luego la tía está tan pancha? Yo lo siento pero es irreal.
Y el hecho de que ahora su relación sea follar y sangre es loco.

Lo iba a terminar pero al final ya no puedo, sobretodo porque ya se vuelve aburrido, todo el rato ella diciendo que se siente sucia pero folla con su chico todo el rato y tiene miedo pero luego no, yo lo siento pero este libro está muy mal hecho.

[Alyssa Ridgell · Rating 5 out of 5]

Please read all content/trigger warnings before reading! This book is not for the faint of heart.
This book is VERY DARK and jumps straight into it! You have been warned...now the good stuff.

I enjoyed reading this book. I LOVED the story! I could feel the emotions of Christen and Nicole throughout the story. I loved their ending He did run the streets red for her! And THE PLOT TWIST! WHAT! It is a truly well-written story. The emotions from the characters, love, and loyalty are felt in this book!

[Ali Alley EscapeThroughABook · Rating 4 out of 5]

Good!

This book is dark, and is not for everyone. Please read those trigger warnings, this book isnt for the faint of heart. Lots of inner monologue, so you understand the MCs actions easily.

This Dark romance is full of trigger warnings that MUST be heeded!
The obsession romance between the MMC, and FMC is deliciously disturbed.
The book is filled with descriptive taboo scenes that separate this book from other dark romances.
The crime life style with a crooked moral compass is always an enjoyable read.

[Steph Combas · Rating 4 out of 5]

I really enjoyed this book! The time jump in chapter 9 crushed me a little bit though! I was not expecting such a huge time jump!

The story line is very good and the spice is spicy! This book is very heavy on SA/Human Trafficking, so please read the TW before reading it!

The only reason 2 reasons I didn’t give it 5 stars:
1. The translations only being at the beginning of the book. I would have to stop and go back to understand what was Ben going said.
2. Something said in the story were a little repetitive (to me), but not enough make me stop reading.

[Ashly Jones · Rating 4 out of 5]

Pretty good

I enjoyed the story. I think the eff bomb was used excessively in some sentences and there could have been more descriptive scenes. I really enjoyed the way Nicole was able to fight her demons slowly and heal in her own way. I am eager to read the next book. This author has tons of potential and I can't wait to watch her grow. This was a quick readand it kept me engaged. Kudos to you Sasha for writing such a story. I live for all the trigger warnings and this for sure did not disappoint.

[Beth · Rating 4 out of 5]

Sweet is the taste of Revenge.

I loved this story of Nicole and her struggle to overcome her past trauma. Christian isn’t a good person but he is good for her. A chance meeting brings them briefly together but it is long enough to leave an impression. Christian searches for her they become reacquainted when he rescues her from a life of unthinkable pain, suffering and degradation. Her demons make it hard for her to function, hard to live, hard to hope. Slowly Christian is able to reach her and she starts to find a reason to live again…and seek revenge.

[Pitch Black J · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book is HEAVY!!! Please check all your triggers before proceeding. With that out of the way. This was a good love story. The things Christian does to have Nicole and show her how strong of a woman she truly is was amazing. I loved how he gave her all of him. Nicole overcame a lot but it made her stronger. I loved this read. There are some extremely dark parts in this book and you might not be prepared for it but it makes this read that much better.

[Caitlynn Gilles · Rating 5 out of 5]

Damn Sasha! You really went all out in the dark feelings for this one!? Absolutely loved it ❤️‍🔥 Christian & Nicole are a beautiful dark twisted match in hell😈 & I'm here for it! Their love is beautiful & I wish I could find a man to love men that much! The spicy 🥵 was off the charts too! Well done! The tough chapters while Nicole is captured are hard to read, but very well written & sad but add so much to the story 💜 great job, 💯 recommend 📚