✰ 2.75 stars ✰
“It didn't matter how perfectly our hands fit together or how sweetly he kissed me back. This thing between us could only be temporary.
Christmas magic wasn’t real.
I felt crazy for even considering it, but maybe it was worth the risk, though.
Maybe he was worth it.”
Not to feel like a complete Grinch for the holiday season, I figured that I should at least throw in one more Christmas read for the festive cheer, and Help! I'm the Big City Boy in My Christmas Comfort Movie seemed like it would be the perfect fit. Yes, that title is quite the mouthful! 😅
But, the cover was pretty cute - and so was the premise. I mean, c'mon, how many of us don't have a favorite comfort film that we love to watch so much that we envision ourselves in the set-up that the main characters find themselves in? To be the object of affection and desire of whichever character has charmed you over? Anyone??! Well, I guess I'll just raise my hand all by my lone self. 🙋🏻♀️
Of course, then there's Matthew, an aspiring screenwriter, who's nursing the tender wounds of his recent heartache when his boyfriend of five years ended their relationship, calling everything about their lives together - a mistake. Hoping to ease the pain of a lonesome Christmas, Matthew turns to that one Christmas film from yesteryear, Mistletoe Hollow that brings him comfort and joy like nothing else. But, alas, one needs a functioning VCR to make it work; cue, his trip to a thrift store to purchase one, load the film, only to be suddenly be sucked into the tv screen and land in the very world of the film, itself - and being the object of desire of the very character who is the handsome star of the film and the object of his own many fantasies - Ben Clark. 🥹
“Every line except for my love lines, at least. Those had always foretold an utterly luckless future in long-term romance.
Okay. This was definitely a dream.
These love lines promised me a happily-ever-after.”
Sounds like a dream, right? A ridiculously cheesy dream, one you wouldn't want to leave, right? I mean, the alternative is cold and lonesome nights - who would want to leave the very place that brings you such happiness? And for Matthew - the choice is quite easy - even if he can't understand the schematics of how he ended up here - he's willing to make the most of it - and well, apparently, so was I. 🥰
I admit, I was a bit thrown off-kilter when upon their very first meeting, Ben and Matthew get hot and heavy and entangled in the sheets - taking insta-attraction to the next level faster than I could expect! ❤️🔥 But, I figured, there's no time than getting right to it, especially since Matthew's already pretty much acquainted with Ben, so why not? And, once I accepted that I would just have to roll with it, it was surprisingly a very sweet read. 🩷🩷 'If this was a dream—and it clearly was, however vivid it was, because how the hell wouldn’t it be—why not enjoy it?' 😌 Matthew suffered enough heartache that I didn't mind that he was indulging himself in the very universe that he's memorized to the nines. Being around a welcoming family, swept away in the warm comforting embrace of a much larger and much warmer man who owns his own Christmas tree haul - what would ever make him want to leave this place? 🎄
Aside from the ever-present concern of how he ended up here - in a Santa-decreed town. And being stuck forever in a Groundhog Yule Tide Day. 'It was one of those ideas that sounds delightful in theory. Endless holiday cheer... But the more I chewed on it, the more it seemed less like a dream and more like a nightmare.' And while the explanation was rather a bit unclear and vague at best at how the technicalities of the constant loop would be broken, I appreciated the subtle hints that there would be other holidays in the works for this series. 👍🏻
“Everyone is staring at us," I eventually murmured, more to break the silence than anything.
Ben smiled, the corners of his eyes crinkling. "Let them stare. I only have eyes for you."
I couldn't help the giddy laugh that escaped my lips. "That was so cheesy. But also kind of sweet."
"What can I say? You bring out my romantic side.”
Matthew and Ben's relationship was very sweet. Matthew really fell for him and fell for him hard - so swoony and so smitten - totally enjoying this magical world that he'd ended up in. 🫠🫠 Ben was so much more than just the character in the film that he loved; it was nice to see that extra layer of depth to his personality - even more endearing was how Matthew loved to learn the little bits about him that he wasn't privy to - that the film didn't uncover about the emotions that he was harboring inside - feelings of abandonment, and not truly believing in the spirit of Christmas - even though, they're stuck in the forever of it never going beyond December! 🥺
'As scary as it was to accept after everything I'd been through, it felt so right. Like coming home after years spent lost and wandering.' There was also just the right balance of sweet and spice - featuring some very frisky and filthy usage of giant candy canes that I didn't see coming! 🫣 Phew, Ben was already such a lumberjack of a man that he wholly appreciated to his heart's delight, but when he was such a dirty beast in bed - Matthew definitely wasn't complaining! 😆
The writing was actually quite cute; a strange way to describe it, but it was humorous and a bit silly, but still quite fitting to the aesthetic of the situation. I haven't read anything by this author before, but it had an easygoing nature to it. Slightly whimsical, slightly charming, sometimes absolutely cheesy, but still very tender and gentle and kind. For, in the end, it was this romantic story of two broken souls who brought comfort to each other - simply by being in each other's company - who gave each other the hope to believe in love again. 🥺 'Give yourself permission to be happy, Matthew. Allow yourself to love—and to be loved in return.' It may have been a bit too unrealistic, at times, at how conveniently everything fell into place, but to feel that closure of happiness 'that just by being here with him, I was bringing light back into his world' made it all the more pleasantly enjoyable to witness. 🫶🏻