Happy book birthday to this Ripper-does-sportsrom keeper that I feel like I read 18 years ago but *checks notes* was actually in March, wtf 2024??? Time for a re-read!
4.5 ⭐️
My head says 3.5 - 4 ⭐️ but my heart says 4.5 - 5 ⭐️, and in a head-heart battle, I do as Roxette demands.
Kris Ripper and sports romance are two of my favorite things, so it's no surprise that I loved this. (Although this is less sports romance in the jumpy-runny-skatey-kicky sense than in the backdrop/ context sense.) BUT: I also suspect that this is one of those books that will not work for everyone, and that some people will bounce off hard. And my 5-starring it does not imply that there aren't flaws -- there are. Overall, though, this book sucked me in from the first page and didn't let me go until I finished at 1:30 in the morning; and Des is such a flawed, funny, ultimately sympathetic narrator that I couldn't help but root for him and Orion.
This book is based on a huge ask, which we get hit with in the first chapter; no hidden surprises here. Des, our (1st person) POV character, is tasked by his boss/ fairy gaymother -- the only other queer in his corporate branding firm, where he is an entry-level grudge -- to recruit Orion, a retired and reclusive professional soccer player, to be the spokesperson for a client's campaign to encourage LGBTQI+ kids in sports. Great, right? The catch: Orion's retirement and reclusivity was caused by an article Des wrote as a college journalist that intentionally outed him -- an article that Des regretted immediately after it was published, and that was the last thing he's ever written.
The ask, then, is whether the reader can see a path to forgiveness and redemption for Des. And if you don't think you can, then I would advise giving this one a miss. Des's motives for writing the article -- which we never get the text of, but which we are made to understand is more broadly about the challenges of being queer in professional sports, but which includes a non-consensually taken/ published photo of Orion kissing his then-boyfriend -- are muddled even in his own attempts to articulate them. Ambition, idealism, and an almost unbelievable naivete all factor in; he somehow convinced himself that he was doing Orion a service, only to discover that his actions looked more like self-righteousness, malice, and jealousy. In shame and horror at his own blindness and stupidity, he didn't just abandon journalism, but also isolated himself from his friends (many of whom, we get in an aside, were dumbfounded and dismayed by his actions, which is a nice, realistic touch). Des is a character who caused irrevocable harm to someone else, and who has been living with that ever since. His reasons, at the time, may have been genuine -- if, again, head-shakingly high-handed and naive -- but he has grown up enough to realize that this doesn't really matter. Good reasons or bad, he still ruined someone's life.
So, yeah, a big ask for the reader in terms of rooting for Des and also believing in the eventual romance. Much like (past) bully romances (a la Alexis Hall's Pansies or Gregory Ashe's Hazard and Somerset series), this lives or dies on whether the reader can buy into the at-fault character's redemption.
(While I'm at it, the premise is also absurd. Why would Vix, Des's fairy gaymother, think he was the right one to try to convince Orion to join this campaign? She knows about the article; the rational response would be to send a straight, cross your fingers, and hope Des and Orion never cross paths. And given Orion's notorious reclusivity -- Des is given the name of a town and Cold Snap Cabin, but no phone number or address -- why does Vix think that springing the guy who ruined his life on Orion with no warning would be an ethical thing to do? We do eventually get a kind of reason for Vix's thinking (which involves collusion with one of Orion's friends), but let's face it: this premise makes no logical sense. File it under Romance Reasons and move on.)
So given that we have a ridiculous premise and a huge ask, how did this work so well? It boils down to Des, who is likeable, funny, and smart (but also incompetent in a "city slicker in the mountains" kind of way, #relatable). Des genuinely wants to make amends; selfishly, he also wants to explain his reasons for why he did what he did, in the hopes of gaining forgiveness. But -- and this is key -- he also knows that he is not entitled to forgiveness; the way forward, or not, is entirely up to Orion, and Des is willing to accept whatever decisions he makes. It also boils down to Ripper's clever, tropetastic setup: meet-cute (no, really: Des and Orion have a very flirty, adorable first encounter before Des springs the campaign on him and Orion realizes who he is), snowed in/ forced proximity, sickbed (caffeine withdrawal is a thing, man), one-sided enemies to lovers, and ONE-EYED DOG RESCUE!! Like all great romances, Settle the Score both leans hard into and transcends these tropes to bring us an emotionally resonant exploration of what it means to make amends, and the difference between things that can be forgiven and things that can only be accepted. And whether making a mistake -- even a massive one -- precludes all possibilities for redemption, (self-)forgiveness, liking, and love.
No spoilers here, but suffice to say that a large chunk of the book is dedicated to Des and Orion being snowed in -- with no phone or internet service -- at Orion's cabin, during which their relationship evolves from Orion's extreme (understandable) antipathy to a kind of grudging cooperation to tentative flirtation to (fade-to-black) intimacy; while the latter chunk explores the aftermath, both professional and personal, once the cabin bubble is broken. Orion's journey from hatred to liking (loving?) Des during their six enforced days together is not entirely explicable (and here is one of those things that I wish was done better, but which is difficult in the context of 1st person POV); I can very well see that some readers won't buy this switch, especially as Des himself is extremely skeptical that Orion could feel something for him other than derision, so we're getting Des's disbelief added on to our own. For me, it worked as a combination of the initial attraction, Des's care and determination in rescuing the dog, Des's acceptance of Orion's feelings (after his initial attempts at apology and explanation, Des does not keep advocating for forgiveness), and Orion's discovery that Des gave up writing after the article; that is, that Des's actions show genuine remorse even if Orion doesn't want to hear self-serving excuses about his motives. Orion is also honest enough to admit that he wasn't happy living the closeted life he felt forced into. To be clear: he does not thank Des for "liberating" him from the closet, nor does he think that his past unhappiness justifies Des's actions. Orion is not out to absolve Des or wash away his sins. But some distance from his past life has enabled him to see all the ways he was sacrificing himself, and what that did to him; while meeting Des helps him realize that, just as his own story is complex, so too is his "enemy's", and that neither of them are served by living without nuance or compassion.
This is not a perfect book. For some people, this will be an absolute no -- and that's ok. Forced outing is abhorrent, and Ripper sets zirself a pretty hard task in making this a story people will want to read and believe in. And while I think it was smart to keep us in Des's head the whole time, this means that Orion remains somewhat elusive: we never really get his side of the story, whether it's the emotional journey during the time at the cabin, or the life-changing decision Orion makes for both of them (albeit with an out) in the aftermath. Like I said many thousand words ago when I started this review: my head recognizes the flaws. But I really loved this despite (because?) of them. Not just because of the gentle, self-deprecating humor, and the familiar fish-out-of-water feeling of being simultaneously very smart and very dumb. And not just because of Des's resilience and (belated) self-awareness. But also because the big ask prompted some real reflection over what it means to forgive. And to not forgive, but to still see some goodness in someone and acknowledge past harm while accepting the possibility of a different future. This is a generous, empathetic book about what we owe each other and ourselves, and understanding the difference between the two. Can't wait to re-read.
Read as part of the Trans Rights Readathon to spotlight books written by authors who are trans, genderqueer, nonbinary, gender-nonconforming, and 2Spirit.
I got an ARC from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.