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I Do Always
Bailee and Ben's journey has been anything but easy. Navigating through the ups and downs of planning their dream wedding is no different. But just as everything seems to be falling into place their relationship is put to the ultimate test, when tragedy strikes yet again and the couple finds themselves faced with an unexpected loss. As they work through their grief, a moment of betrayal threatens to tear them apart for good. Ben's careless words bring Bailee's past to the forefront; their future together is in jeopardy. Will they be able to work through their differences and make it down the aisle? Or will the pain of the past tear them apart forever?
542 pages, ebook
Published December 31, 2023
About the author
Ajay Howarth
13 books38 followersHey, I’m Ajay Howarth.
I’m an Australian author writing romance, fantasy, romantasy, psychological suspense and erotic fiction.
Basically, I refuse to pick a lane.
If I want to write people falling in love, I will. If I want obsession, bad decisions and questionable relationship choices, they’re going in too. And if my brain decides we need magic, mythical creatures and a sentient castle, well, who am I to argue?
I write characters who feel human.
They want things they probably shouldn’t. They fuck up. They overthink. They fall for people at inconvenient times and make choices that seem perfectly reasonable right up until everything goes to shit.
You know. People.
Perfect characters don’t interest me much.
Perfect people don’t either.
I started writing because I needed somewhere for everything rattling around in my head to go. I kept writing because I bloody love it, and because telling me I can’t do something remains an excellent way to make sure I do exactly that.
Spite is surprisingly productive.
I’m sex-positive, curious about people and probably far too interested in why we want what we want. Attraction, relationships, desire, psychology, sex, writing and all the things adults think about but don’t always say out loud tend to take up a fair bit of space in my brain.
So naturally, I started a blog about them.
It’s called Confessions of a Spicy Romance Author, because subtlety was clearly never going to be my thing.
I’ve published a growing pile of books and have absolutely no intention of behaving myself by sticking to one genre.
If you like complicated characters, real relationships, sarcasm, heat, heart, magic, questionable decisions and the occasional “what the fuck did I just read?” moment, you’ll probably be fine here.
Probably.
My goal has always been pretty simple.
Leave you breathless and satisfied, but still aching for more.
I am a romance author, after all. I know how to tease.
I’m an Australian author writing romance, fantasy, romantasy, psychological suspense and erotic fiction.
Basically, I refuse to pick a lane.
If I want to write people falling in love, I will. If I want obsession, bad decisions and questionable relationship choices, they’re going in too. And if my brain decides we need magic, mythical creatures and a sentient castle, well, who am I to argue?
I write characters who feel human.
They want things they probably shouldn’t. They fuck up. They overthink. They fall for people at inconvenient times and make choices that seem perfectly reasonable right up until everything goes to shit.
You know. People.
Perfect characters don’t interest me much.
Perfect people don’t either.
I started writing because I needed somewhere for everything rattling around in my head to go. I kept writing because I bloody love it, and because telling me I can’t do something remains an excellent way to make sure I do exactly that.
Spite is surprisingly productive.
I’m sex-positive, curious about people and probably far too interested in why we want what we want. Attraction, relationships, desire, psychology, sex, writing and all the things adults think about but don’t always say out loud tend to take up a fair bit of space in my brain.
So naturally, I started a blog about them.
It’s called Confessions of a Spicy Romance Author, because subtlety was clearly never going to be my thing.
I’ve published a growing pile of books and have absolutely no intention of behaving myself by sticking to one genre.
If you like complicated characters, real relationships, sarcasm, heat, heart, magic, questionable decisions and the occasional “what the fuck did I just read?” moment, you’ll probably be fine here.
Probably.
My goal has always been pretty simple.
Leave you breathless and satisfied, but still aching for more.
I am a romance author, after all. I know how to tease.
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April 25, 2024
Rather Saucy - Emmanuelle for Gen Z
This story details the rather saucy love life of Ben and Bailee as they prepare to get married. Amid the sauce and spice the book does deal with trauma and grief and mental health issues. As a guy I obviously didn’t mind the love scenes. In fact this very much reminded me of the Emmanuelle films so if you liked them you will love this. The reason I gave this 4 stars was for the stuff in between like the constant repetition of the wedding list. I didn’t think that needed to be added every time Bailee went to check something off. Apart from that I was engaged in the story and although this is a sequel it can be read as a stand-alone like I did but I will go back and read the first book at some point. If you read the back matter there is the possibility of a third book coming out which I like the idea off. There was a plot element in this book that the author didn’t venture into only implied might happen that I hope would be explored more if there is a third book.
This story details the rather saucy love life of Ben and Bailee as they prepare to get married. Amid the sauce and spice the book does deal with trauma and grief and mental health issues. As a guy I obviously didn’t mind the love scenes. In fact this very much reminded me of the Emmanuelle films so if you liked them you will love this. The reason I gave this 4 stars was for the stuff in between like the constant repetition of the wedding list. I didn’t think that needed to be added every time Bailee went to check something off. Apart from that I was engaged in the story and although this is a sequel it can be read as a stand-alone like I did but I will go back and read the first book at some point. If you read the back matter there is the possibility of a third book coming out which I like the idea off. There was a plot element in this book that the author didn’t venture into only implied might happen that I hope would be explored more if there is a third book.
June 16, 2025
Having enjoyed Love You Always, the first book in this series, I was looking forward to reading the sequel, and I was not disappointed. As with the first book, there are some hot and steamy scenes, but as anyone who has planned a wedding will know, it is a testing time which puts pressure on any relationship. When tragedy strikes, Bailee and Ben struggle with the situation and are uncertain of their future. However, they are still in love and must strive to overcome all the obstacles. An enjoyable read with great characters.
July 1, 2023
The writing in this story feels like listening to a close friend pour out her heart, go over her wedding plans, and deal with new and old traumas. The colloquial style of writing keeps the story moving at a good pace and makes Bailee empathetic as a main character. The author has a talent for writing a steamy romance in which the the reader relates strongly to the main character. Highly Recommended.
April 15, 2024
A great sequel!
I loved the first book, and I Do Always is a continuation. We all know the stress planning for a wedding can cause, and for Bailee and Ben, it is no different!
And if an upcoming wedding wasn't enough to cope with, a tragedy befalls the couple, challenging their current path. Somehow, Bailee and Ben need to find their way back to one another. This was well written and a great sequel. Highly recommend...
I loved the first book, and I Do Always is a continuation. We all know the stress planning for a wedding can cause, and for Bailee and Ben, it is no different!
And if an upcoming wedding wasn't enough to cope with, a tragedy befalls the couple, challenging their current path. Somehow, Bailee and Ben need to find their way back to one another. This was well written and a great sequel. Highly recommend...
June 29, 2026
Spicy sequel
I loved this sequel to Love You Always.
Ben and Bailee are planning their wedding, while at the same time building their business. An unexpected loss creates a void and grief threatens to ruin our lovers.
A truly moving story that shows how love, respect and communication can overcome all obstacles. It's real, its raw, and its incredibly spicy, its also worth the read. This is romance at its best. I look forward to book three.
I loved this sequel to Love You Always.
Ben and Bailee are planning their wedding, while at the same time building their business. An unexpected loss creates a void and grief threatens to ruin our lovers.
A truly moving story that shows how love, respect and communication can overcome all obstacles. It's real, its raw, and its incredibly spicy, its also worth the read. This is romance at its best. I look forward to book three.
March 23, 2024
Hot! Hot! Hot!
If planning a wedding isn’t stressful enough, life then throws a whole lot of problems at Bailee and Ben just to put their love to the test.
This story is full of twists and turns and hot enough to burn the page. After reading the first book in this series the second didn’t disappoint. An enjoyable read with great characters.
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If planning a wedding isn’t stressful enough, life then throws a whole lot of problems at Bailee and Ben just to put their love to the test.
This story is full of twists and turns and hot enough to burn the page. After reading the first book in this series the second didn’t disappoint. An enjoyable read with great characters.
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January 31, 2024
good read
This is the second book in this series, and having read the first this was no disappointment. The book is well written and flows beautifully, centering around a couple who despite normal life’s stresses, love each other. And their devotion grows through out the book. Which is felt in every page. With a great hea, and beautiful vows.
This is the second book in this series, and having read the first this was no disappointment. The book is well written and flows beautifully, centering around a couple who despite normal life’s stresses, love each other. And their devotion grows through out the book. Which is felt in every page. With a great hea, and beautiful vows.
March 18, 2024
Really enjoyed the planning of their wedding, while they dealt with heartbreak. Anyone who likes love, drama and plenty of sex will love this book.
February 2, 2025
Reviewed in the United States on August 19, 2024
I read this and the first book a few months ago and am just now getting to do a review. It was well-written and a cute story. There are some books I will reread over and over and some I will read only once. This one is is the "will reread" pile :)
I read this and the first book a few months ago and am just now getting to do a review. It was well-written and a cute story. There are some books I will reread over and over and some I will read only once. This one is is the "will reread" pile :)
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