5⭐️
SO, I read Wickedly Your’s Book 4 before this and NOW I really get everything.
I’m happy to say I still like Arabella even after really getting a vision of what she did to Jem. Horrible still.
But oh my god, this was just so good. Kathleen Ayers truly became one of my all time favorite authors. I am just amazed by her creativity and her ability to really get me hooked within the first few minutes of reading. I salivate at the thought of her future stories. 😂
Disguised as “Nick Shepard”, Nicholas Tremaine, Viscount Lindley makes his way to Bermuda bent on revenge. He’s on a mission to find the two men who have committed treason over 20 years ago. The blame for that treason was put on his father, which then ultimately caused his father to take his own life thus creating the downfall of the entire family.
When Nick is attacked in Bermuda on first arrival, he is saved by a small boy by the name of Jem.
Jem, is actually Jemma— Jane Emily Mannings, daughter to one of those traitors who Nick is looking for. Jemma is known on the island of Bermuda for being reckless and unlady like. She wears breeches, fishes, rides astride and shoots guns. She is getting close to getting engaged to her long time friend Augie Corbett, who is the son of the Govener of Bermuda and the other traitor. Jem has zero desire to marry as she knows all the freedom she has will vanish once she becomes a wife.
But once Nick realizes Jem is actually jemma, not only is he unexpectedly drawn to her, but he now has his leverage for his revenge. Ruin the lives of the traitors.
As he begins to squeeze himself into Jemma’s life, their mutual attraction for one another starts to outweigh Nick’s plan of revenge. When he ultimately “ruins” Jemma, Nick goes to confront her traitorous father who has been living with the guilt of what he’s done for the last 20 years. He just needs their confession to clear the name of his family, once he gets it, he’ll return to England with Jemma by his side. Jemma overhears the tail end of the sinister conversation between Nick and both traitors, Mannings and Corbett. Finding out she was just a pawn in his plan to extract revenge.
The intensity of the confrontation ultimately causes Jemma’s father to drop dead.
While Nick goes to try and find Jemma to explain himself, he’s kidnapped and dragged to be “fed by the sharks”. Knowing that Nick, “The Devil of Dunbar” is more valuable alive then dead, his attackers spare his life. Once he returns to England, he learns he is the new Duke of Dunbar as his grandfather has passed away.
While this is happening, Jemma is just goin through it. She’s grieving the loss of her father, heartbroken for falling in love with Nick who just used her and is facing the wrath of the Corbett family because of her ruination. Labeled a whore and mentally unstable, the Corbett’s continue to try and force Jemma to marry Augie in order to gain Jemma’s family’s land. The Corbetts are poooor.
But she does not want to, causing the Corbett family to go ballistic. These people that she has called family have become abusive and evil to her. Augie, her once close friend, begins to threaten her if they don’t marry causing him to hit her and almost attempt to rape Jemma.
With the help of her fathers long time friend, Tally finds documents that will secure Jemma’s safety.
Putting her on a ship bound for London, Tally’s plan is to make it look as if Jemma has jumped off the cliffs.
At this time, Nick is dealing with the death of his grandfather and sends someone to Bermuda to get Jemma for him. But he is then informed that Jemma killed herself and loses his mind. Blaming himself for her death.
As one year passes, Nick, the Duke of Dunbar finally emerges from a long depression over Jem’s death and realizes he must start acting like a Duke. He must do his duties to marry and produce an heir.
Jemma is living with her cousins, more content, but still desperately missing Nick, knowing that she will never see him again.
When Jemma is introduced to her cousin’s potential husband the Duke of Dunbar — Nick, she faints at the sight of him.
Dealing with Jemma’s death had ruined Nick, but seeing her right in front of him, he knows that he can now never let her go. They will marry.
Still angry at him for her ruination and leaving her, Jemma wants nothing to do with Nick, even if she still desperately loves him.
When they eventually come together after weeks of arguments and deception, they realize they can’t be away from each other ever again.
A few days before their wedding, Jemma is kidnapped by the Corbetts who have eventually found her by way of Arabella, Nick’s sister. Finding out that Jemma’s father was part of the downfall of her parent’s, Arabella will do what it takes to separate Nick and Jemma.
OOOOOOOKKKKKAAAYYYY. This book broke my heart, put it back together and then broke it again, put it back together a bit.. then broke it again because it ended. Oh boy, my f’in heart. I loved Nick. He was a douche at points, but oh my god, I would kill to have a man love me as much as he loved Jemma.
He said some pretty messed up things when they got into a fight, but that was just in retaliation from the messed up things Jemma had said to him in anger.
But oh my goddddd, when Nick said:
“I thought you were lost to me. That I had destroyed the thing I love most. I think the worst was the knowledge that you died thinking I used you and discarded you after that day on the beach. My heart—”
I lost my damn MIND. I couldn’t stop crying— I’m crying while even typing this out. Ugh right in the heart.
Good writing, goooood writing ❤️
AS for Arabella— I stand by what I wrote when I read Wickedly Your’s, she’s a bitch, but I like her. I can see why everyone in the reviews from that book were kinda on the fence with her and her story, but I’m glad I read that first.