First, the warnings from the author are no joke. The bullies are closer to black than morally grey. However, their behavior plays well within the story line and the writing is superb. The book moves along quickly and as the characters play out, the reasons behind their actions soften.
Our book centers around Eloise, whose passion is ballet, which is a huge part of her escaping her life of poverty and dread. Dancing is more than a tool as she feels her best when dancing. It is her true north where others' expectations and worries for her mother, are forgotten. Eloise does not have the typical slim build of prima ballerinas. She is big boned with a curvy body type. It's her biggest insecurity and though she was the best at her public school, when comparing against the effluent academy dancers.
We are first introduced to Gant when they meet at a renowned dance studio after winning a contest. The teacher is highly critical of Elle's talent, and she starts to lose faith in her abilities. On the last day, she meets Gant who is an outstanding dancer and give her tips on her strengths and weakness. This short lesson soon starts a cascade of horrific events that have Elle and her mom fleeing the town.
Gant believes Elle is responsible for what happened. He becomes obsessed with finding her and after two years he sees her during an interview about the closing of the dance at her new school. Gant is determined to get his revenge despite being both full of conflict for his disgust and attraction to her. He arranges a bogus scholarship so as to ensure she spends her senior year at his school.
Gaun wastes no time in humiliating her physically and verbally in front of the student body. These actions were to shock her and let the students know she was his and encourages the girls to "have at it" in their bully behavior. It also sets the tone for the hell Eloise is going to spend her senior year. While Elle could leave, Gaun knows she is impassioned about ballet and sees it as is her only way to build a better life.
The lengths Gaun goes to wreak vengeance is some of the darkest I've read. Elle gradually realizes things about her sexuality from Gant. She too is both disgusted and attracted to Gaun. These characters begin to look beyond the past and towards a future. This is not a seemingly graceful transition. Its raw and gritty much like their passion for each other. They are the poster children demonstrating that love, and hate are so very close.
The secondary characters are layered and complex. Gaun and his 4 friends are the kings of the school which is used to the fullest by the author. These 4 friends clearly have stories of their own and we are offered glimpse into what they be.
While this is a very dark book, none of the behavior seems beyond the reasonable. The story is fast paced and multi-faceted. The pain and torment that Gaun feels at having his life irrevocably change that first meeting with Elle is vivid. The author does a wonderful job of giving a glimpse into what occurred and what it meant to him. The same is done for Elle. And it's through those moments, we see why he feels the way he does.
Elle does not know anything about what happened after her and her mom rushed out of town so frantically. The quality of the high school program she now attending is second grade at best. But she a star here and easily the best dancer they have. When she receives that scholarship, it appears her prayers have been answered. Gaun knows nothing about the abuse and trauma Elle has suffered from her father. Her mother's unwillingness to let go of the marriage is disgusting and hurtful to Elle. However, she loves her mom and continues trying to reason why she choose dad over her daughter.
This book is full of passion, vengeance, grief and letting gilt go. The emotions are so well written that the readers feel the pain, the passion and the growing love and understanding. I could not read fast enough as I was so engrossed and committed to reach the end.
I cannot wait until the next book in the series comes out. It will be one of my automatic purchases. I urge you to submerge yourself into this world.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.