This book was such a bizarre reading experience. It is decently well-written and edited, easy enough to read and follow along with the story, which is the main reason why I finished it. The author seems to have a firm grasp of the English language. And yet there are so many things that do not make sense. Buckle up, this is my longest review in a while!
The first and most glaring thing throughout the book is the nonchalance at which Aaron, the county sheriff, pays a stripper, Lucy, for BJs at the club. There is zero concern or risk brought up that an elected law enforcement official is soliciting sexual services. He repeatedly shows up to the strip club IN UNIFORM, and no one has any word to say about it? Aaron expresses concern later in the book about other events that could cause him to lose his job or face prison time, but paying for BJs is no big deal, apparently. He is going after bad guys for drug smuggling, possible murder, and sex trafficking. And yet there is no connection made to him being a potential customer of sex trafficking?! Lucy doesn't have a pimp exactly, but she's still prostituting herself because she has no other options. It's so strange to me that this is completely overlooked, and honestly icky that Aaron would buy BJs from her so many times. He's a cop, he has to know that either she's selling sex out of desperation or that a pimp is forcing her to do it, and he has no problem partaking in that multiple times.
It's even said multiple times that touching and kissing the dancers is not allowed. The club owner (Lucy's cousin, which is just more weirdness) even teases Lucy about what she and the sheriff get up to in the VIP room. And then says in the same conversation that he wants to run a "clean" establishment, like ??? So why are you condoning prostitution between your dancers and cops, my guy? The cognitive dissonance in this book is so jarring.
Don't even get me started on the MMF scene. That was just...so strange and unnecessary. I could not take it seriously at all. I was literally cringing the whole time. The author seemed like they intended to be this intense, emotional moment where Aaron "proves" how much he cares about Lucy, but that was not how it landed at all. I love MM and poly romance, but it was nothing like that. It seemed almost homophobic? Aaron never once expresses any attraction to men, but he used that guy to prove a point to Lucy. And it was supposed to be moving, or something. IDK.
I also got the sense (not making any accusations, this is just a feeling I had) that this book might have been written by a man, and it's hard to explain why. To me, Aaron's POV chapters felt almost hyper masculine and overly aggressive. He yells and has temper tantrums often, is unprofessional at work, seems to have sexual expectations of Lucy at inappropriate times, yet he has this hero complex and is somehow the perfect guy to save the day. Plus, he pays for BJs with 0 consequences. There are a lot of BJ and "getting on her knees" references actually. Just feels very male gazey.
Conversely, Lucy's chapters are very overtly "helpless and abused damsel in distress". There is a lot of detail going into the abuse she suffered from her ex-husband and all the mafia guys afterward. It feels almost gratuitous how often it's described how she was punched, kicked, groped, raped, etc. She also idolizes Aaron for some reason. Again, gave me "male gaze" vibes, like the author is going to brutalize this FMC as much as possible before his self-insert MMC comes in to save the day.
I'm not even going to get into the murder mystery aspect of this book, but it was so badly done. Everything from Aaron's behavior to how the crime scenes were handled. Interviews and conversations with witnesses made no sense, and/or Aaron made them all about Lucy. And none of it mattered because the reveal came in a big ol' infodump at the end anyway.
So yeah, I did not like this book, lol. Characterization and plot were a trainwreck. But it was a fairly easy and readable trainwreck, so there's that.