First of all, I’d just like to say I absolutely tore through this book in almost one sitting. The story grabbed me from the first pages, and did not let up until the very end. The first pages lay out a mystery that reels you in immediately, and throws you into a world where “monster” can take on a number of meanings. We’re quickly introduced to five childhood friends, now adults, who have long since abandoned an annual hunting trip with their collective fathers. After receiving a cryptic message, all of their fathers die suddenly with one last request-- go on one last camping trip to honor them.
Of course, there’s more to it than that. Our protagonist Harry’s father also left him with a box of cassette tapes, promising to reveal a dark secret that’s plagued these old men’s lives for decades, and an explanation as to why they killed themselves.
I’m hesitant to get any deeper into the plot of the story, because it’s a terrifying and emotional tale that I think readers should experience going in as blind as possible. Our Fathers’ Burden is undoubtedly a horror story with exciting action and unpredictable twists. As far as trigger warnings: there is gore, there is something terrifying lurking in the woods, there is a lot of talk about suicide. It’s dark, but never revels in despair.
What I’d rather focus on is how incredibly deft Gray is at weaving together a compelling, character-focused narrative that tackles some really complex, and occasionally ugly aspects of the human condition. None of these men are perfect. In fact, some of them are about as broken as you can get. Each has their own story of trauma, guilt, and the depression that follows. Each has an earnest and believable reason why their lives have pulled them away from each other, and from their fathers. And yet, you can't help but root for not just one of them, but all of them as they discover the dark secret their fathers hid for decades, as they learn how to share their own. There is something evil in the woods, and while it is scary by its own merit, it also forces these men to hold mirrors to themselves, and examine how and where their lives went wrong.
This book handles trauma in a way that often feels like a gut punch to the reader, mostly because these characters feel so real. What's even more important, is how most of them feel completely lost, as they genuinely try to find a way to mend their lives. Even after I learned about some of the truly terrible skeletons in their closets (I’m looking at you Dave), I still couldn’t help but root for them because by that point I understood not only their guilt, but their earnest desire for personal growth (or in some cases, accountability). The story also handles male generational trauma in a way few authors can accomplish, shining a hard light on the mentality of the “strong fathers” who came before us. These fathers are men who bottled up their feelings, their fears, and their own dark secrets, who would rather die than risk being vulnerable. At the risk of being vulnerable myself, I grew up with a father who could have walked straight out of this book. Their mentality, the way we learn about them, through tapes and flashbacks, only furthers to build our attachment to the core five characters, and feels genuine every step of the way.
As a metaphor for guilt and depression, this book absolutely soars. Gray manages to seemingly effortlessly cross an extremely tight rope regarding suicide, and a host of other terrible deeds. In other hands, this story could have become a descent into utter hopelessness. Instead, he finds a way to lift these characters up in their darkest hour, to find redemption and salvation by proving that every person is capable of growth, if only they can allow themselves to open up enough to be honest with themselves, their friends, and family. This was the first book I’ve read by William F. Gray, but you can be darn sure it won’t be the last.